This one is requested by fidio11 and this story I will make it something... I don't know a bit bigger I guess? Without wasting the time let's just start the story.

[Y/N] = your name
[F/N] = full name
[BF/N] = best friend name

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Fudou Akio is your boyfriend, you both have been dating for about 2 months but you both are from different school. Your school are the same as Kidou and Haruna that is Seishou Gakuen. As for your boyfriend, his school is Teikoku Gakuen where Kidou studied before.

Right now it is 12 a.m midnight and everyone sure had fallen asleep already even you too, but... Do you sleep well?

"[Y/N]...."

"[Y/N]....."

The toilet water is everywhere, where is the rescuer?

"Don't worry I'm sure everything is going to be alright."

"I still want to alive"

"You can"

It's getting worst....

You never could save everyone. You are the causes why they aren't survived!

"[Y/N]! Please save me!!!"

"NOOOOOOO!!!!!!" The shout of your terrific, you're finally woke up from your nightmare as your body are shaking in fear and also cover with full of sweat.

You quickly rushing to the washroom to wash your face to get some refresh and when you're seeing yourself at the mirror, you could see that you look so horrible after having that terrible nightmare where always keep hunting you everyday.

The morning has came and you didn't sleep at all after having that nightmare and that's impossible for you to pay attention on the class later.

After you already dressed out your uniform and went out for school. You could see your boyfriend, Fudou was waiting for you at the outside of your apartment while playing at his phone.

At first he was typing something on his phone maybe messaging someone? But when he noticed you, he stopped typing and greeted you normally liked you both always do.

You're happily greeted him back, but realized you have an awful look on your face. When you are about to cover your face, Fudou already noticed it as he asked you what's wrong with your face? Your eyes got dark circles below on your eyes and you feel don't want to talk about it, about your nightmare that always cursed you for such a long night.

None other choices, you tell him a lie to cover up that you didn't get enough sleep because you need to finish the homework that your teacher give it you.

Fudou told you to stop pushing so hard on yourself for doing these things called "homework". Because he didn't do them at all liked he's never done once before.

Of course, you and Fudou are different type as a student, you are one of the same type liked Kidou, a serious type, but you are more to the hardworking type student. Yes, you could said that you are one of the smarty-ass student who got on the top 3 ranks, but you still can't defeat Kidou tho in studies.

As for Fudou, he is the type of student who always did reckless thing in school, you know "troublemaker" as what you have heard from Sakuma and Genda yesterday tho. But Kazemaru did said that Fudou has been doing fine in all his test even though he always slept in the class. So you think that maybe he is the type of genius student? But you don't want to admit it though.

"I think it will be hard for us to see each other again." Fudou said as he was looking at the message from his phone. You're giving him face liked why?

And he told you that Kazemaru texted him that tomorrow they need to practice so hard sharp at 5 a.m early. Heard what he said, you forgot that Kazemaru is their new captain now, somehow you keep wondering how could Kazemaru turned out to be captain?

"Hello earth of [Y/N]!" You surprised of that sudden called as you looked at him liked yeah?

"I told you, it will be hard for us to see each other again" He said that once again and I was liked huh? Wha? And you could see that he was pouted. And then you realized of what his mean.

You are chuckling as he pissed off said that how come you didn't upset after he said that? And you apologized to him said that you're sorry for didn't notice of what he said (lol), but inside of your heart, you wanted to squish his cheek so badly when found out that Fudou is really cute when he is pouting liked that.

This is what you like of Fudou, if you see himself from the outside, you would be think the same like the others think, such as he is a jerk, troublemaker, fuck boy (I'm sorry of my word), badass and everything that we think bad of him. But to you, after knowing Fudou so long when you both were dating, you could see him thoroughly the real him, the real inside him. How soft and caring he is to you, not really sweet and also not really romantic, but understand you, make you feel comfortable enough with him, make you smile whenever you are sad and everything he had done to you too. And once you had known him, the more you realized that you have fallen in love with him so dearly.

You both haven't been said "broke up" for this pass 2 months and to tell you all the truth, you're really can't resist of what we called "cute guys" (Yeahhhh, same with me too ToT).

Let's stop of talking nonsense right now, after you both finally reached your school, Fudou bit you a goodbye, but inside of him he wanted to spend his time with you again. So you told him that after school, you will come a visit to see him again. And you could see that he was delighted but didn't show his smile too much.

Time skip moving to your class, the class started with your first subject that you don't like. So, you didn't paid attention at all but nice for you, you are even kinda getting some sleepy right now because you didn't get enough sleep last night. But you force yourself to not fall asleep right now because dude it's still morning class.

And you could see Haizaki who sits behind you, was playing his phone. You shushed him and told him that is he has on a right mind right now playing phone in the middle of class? He told you to mind your own business and you raised your eyebrow liked what the heck.

First class has finally ended, you turned around to face Haizaki and asked him.

"Dude I'm so jealous of you, you could do anything what you want without getting notice by teacher" You said as you pouted because you wanted to sleep in the class but afraid to get called by the teacher.

"That's why don't be such a smarty-ass student like Kidou." He said as he smirked. As for you, you didn't want to admit that he was true.

"But still you need to pay attention on class right now. The exam is almost near, you don't want to get red marks again right? Like the last time." Your friend who sat besides you, Mizukamiya Seiryuu who is the captain of Seishou Gakuen's soccer Kirastar, teasing Haizaki so he could pay attention to the class soon. But that doesn't make Haizaki happy and told him to shut up.

'They are really didn't get along' you thought as you looked at both of them. Mizukamiya noticed your dark circle on your eye bags and he was asking that were you have a good night rest sleep last night and you replied directly that you didn't. As Haizaki was laughing at you because you have a worst morning face on you. And you ignored him but still give him a death glare. As Mizukamiya was worried at you and asked you that do you want to go to the medical room right now? But you refused because it still early in the morning. Suddenly you heard a news where the other students were watching on their phone.

"On the 16 April there will be commemorating the sinking of the Nation Ferry. The incident killed 304 passengers from 476 passengers boarded the ship. 250 more of the victims who died were students from Ganwo a Middle School"

"Wow, it has been pass a year. And this accident still booming." One of the students said.

"Of course, this accident is really left a pretty deep sadness you know..."

"Yeah, I'm sure one of their students' parents are upset too after lost their children."

"Yeah, who won't?"

After you have heard of what they said, Mizukamiya and Haizaki who were still talking each other just now, noticed that suddenly you went quiet and they could see that your face is all white paled like have seen a ghost.

Mizukamiya quickly raised up from his seat and asked you what's wrong? And Haizaki who are totally panicking asking you that are you going to throw up here cause he is worrying that you are going to throw up at his desk cause you are facing his desk like wanted to puke.

You quickly raised your head and told them that you are fine, but actually you aren't you feel dizzy so sudden. No other choice, Mizukamiya suggested you to take a rest now as he accompanied you to the medical room. At first you denied, but seeing yourself like this there is no possible for you to keep going in second class. As for Haizaki, he keep forcing you to go to the medical room and he said that he will blame you if you made his desk dirty.

When you are finally at medical room, you lied down on the bed feeling your head getting more and more hurt than the last time. Mizukamiya said that he will tell to Kidou about you and said that he will go visit you again when the lunch time came. You thanked him and saw Mizukamiya left the room. Seeing yourself in this state, you feel so hopeless and you feel like you wanted to throw up after remembering the memories that you don't want to remember. Because of your head keep hurting you so hard, none other choice you tried to sleep and gladly you could sleep to reduce your headache. But... Are you sure?

You fell into a deep sleep and you can't see anything, you are all by yourself and then you could see someone was holding your hand and pulled you along with her.

Who is she? This is what you though when you were seeing that girl and you noticed that she is your best friend, [BF/N].

You are shocked even confused like how come? You called her and asked her to stop and then she stopped.

When she stopped your heart keep thumping non-stop. Asking her that is she the best friend you know?

When she turned around, it was really your best friend, you are crying and when you are about to hug her. Suddenly around you changed when she was smirked.

You looked yourself on your below, there are water...

Seeing this you are panicking and calling your best friend to leave this place but she didn't want to but instead she said.

"I'm so lonely [Y/N], please stay with me... It's so cold... Everyone is waiting for you."

She said as she hold your hand and then you could see behind her, there are... A lot of people are waiting for you to come home. And when you were seeing them, you realized who they are. Your eyes widen and you could feel that your heart stop beating suddenly, they keep forcing you come with them and without you realized you suddenly screamed and everything black out.

Finally you woke up as you quickly raised up from your bed and looked at your blanket with full of shocked. You were soaked wet and of course it is because you are keep sweating when you were sleeping and you realized that the nightmare was haunting you again, but this time it is really bad.

You could hear the door opened and it came out was Kidou, Haizaki, and Mizukamiya. At first, they are look usual as they are, but when the three of them are seeing you like this, their faces turned to shocked and worried.

Kidou quickly went to you and asking are you alright? You didn't respond at all, you only kept silent and need a time to realize around of you. The three of them were worried about you, but the most worry is Kidou because both of you are look like brother and sister than only just best friend. Kidou directly asked you that whether you want to go home or not? At first you denied, but suddenly you wanted to throw up and glad thing that Mizukamiya noticed as he quickly give you a trash bin to puke. As Haizaki, he sighed in relief that you didn't puke everywhere.

Kidou suggested you to go home since you really don't feeling well, so you didn't have choice but obey him. Mizukamiya helps you to get your bag and also your absence. As Haizaki... Only playing his phone that he thoughts that he could skip class too.

Time skip, this is where you are going back home along with your companion, Haizaki Ryouhei your bodyguard today who got asked by Kidou Yuuto and also his betrayal friend who didn't help him at all, Mizukamiya Seiryuu.

Haizaki keep complaining about why he is the one who should accompany you and you told him the same replied as Mizukamiya.

"Didn't you say you want to skip class? Isn't it the best timing for you to skip class with a reason by helping me to reach home?" You said made Haizaki boiled up anger and you are chuckling because for you it is fun to make him mad.

Suddenly your head getting hurt again and your walk suddenly aren't balance enough and you almost fall down, but thank goodness you didn't fall because Haizaki hold your shoulder to keep your balance.

"Hoi Hoi watch yourself." That was Haizaki told you. He could see a near supermarket at there, he brings you over there and asked you to sit down first as he went to supermarket to buy you water. Seeing Haizaki helping you like this, you feel sorry and also thank you.

When you both are at supermarket, on the other sides, there are someone who is still worrying about you and there's no one other than Kidou. Kidou was in different class from you and it looks like he was texting with someone in the middle of class. And he was texting... Fudou, your boyfriend.

#To : Fudou 🍌
#Subject : -
Hoi, I know you are still playing your phone. Reply now.

#From : Fudou 🍌
#Subject : 👀
The heck? Am I seeing wrong? A smarty ass Kidou Yuuto is playing phone in the middle of class? 😏

#To : Fudou 🍌
#Subject : 💩
Just shut up and listen to me. It is about [Y/N]

#From : Fudou 🍌
#Subject : ?
Huh? [Y/N]? What's wrong? What's happen to her?

#To : Fudou 🍌
#Subject : -
[Y/N] is sick just now in the morning and she just went back home along with Haizaki.

#From : Fudou 🍌
#Subject : ?!
WHAT??! She's sick?? Why she didn't tell me that she is sick??And why would Haizaki is the one should be her companion???

#To : Fudou 🍌
#Subject : Calm down idiot :v
She didn't tell you probably because she didn't want you to skip class. And two because there's no way I let [Y/N] going home alone without any guardian that's why I ask Haizaki besides Haizaki wanted to skip class too.

#From : Fudou 🍌
#Subject : -
Sh*t I'm going to see her. I can't trust Haizaki.

#To : Fudou 🍌
#Subject : ⛔🚫⛔🚫
Hoi idiot don't do something selfish. Don't skip class!

#From : Fudou 🍌
#Subject : 💩
🖕👌👈

"I'm really going to kill him for sure" Kidou muttered after he read Fudou's last message.

Let's went to the another sides where Fudou had sent his messages to Kidou. After he found out that you are sick, he quickly search a plan to escape the class. And then when he saw his friend Genda, he suddenly smirked.

"Hey Genda." Fudou called him who didn't far from his seat. Genda noticed his called and looked at him like what?

Fudou asked Genda to cover him so he could skip class. As if Genda needs to make the teacher loses attention to the class by talking to the teacher of what. At first Genda didn't want to help him, but Fudou keep pleading him by texting him. Saying that he needs to go to see you and added that you were in danger.

After read the danger part, Genda agreed to help Fudou to skip the class by calling the teacher and asking a few question about the subject. Fudou quickly grabbed his few things that are on the table and rushing put them into his bag then he secretly sneaked out from the class. When Fudou was about to reach the door, the teacher noticed him and was about to called him, but thank goodness Sakuma helped him out by asking that teacher another question again so the teacher didn't paid any attention to Fudou.

Sakuma gives Fudou a hand language like leave now behind his back. And Fudou smirked as he thanked to Sakuma for helping him as he rushed out from the class and ran away from school as fast as he can.

Come back to you who are already at home along with Haizaki who are still your companion. Seeing yourself struggling, searching the medicines which you would drink them whenever it happened a lot of times like just now, you quickly search the medicines at kitchen and then rushed to the washroom.

Haizaki surprised of your action and asked you to calm down, but you still rushed yourself to search that medicines and finally you found them. You quickly drink them almost all... And Haizaki was shocked when he saw you drink almost all the medicines and he quickly went to you and asked you to vomit the medicines out now. And finally you vomited them out, but you have just swallowed a few of the medicines, but not really much.

"Are you nuts??" He asked you worried that you will become overdosed. You looked around of you and realized that you are being nuts. You tried yourself to keep calm and was about to take another pills of your medicines, but Haizaki stopped you and he said that you have enough drink the medicines. But you told him that you haven't enough medicine and Haizaki doesn't have choice but carried you with bridal style. You asked him to let you go, but he didn't listen to you and instead he carried you to your bedroom and place you on your bed.

"I don't want to sleep." You said as you afraid to sleep again because of that nightmare. And then Haizaki suddenly hits your head but not hurt enough for you.

"I didn't ask you to sleep, I asked you to lay down." He said made you shocked like... Was Haizaki hit you just now? And then you obeyed him as you lied down on your bed. He said that he will bring water for you and he told you don't do anything and get some rest.

Seeing his action your first though of Haizaki liked he is your father and then added Kidou as your mother. Thought like that, you secretly laughed at yourself and when you're laughing what's such a coincidence Haizaki brought you a glass of water and he also could heard you laughed. He's asking you that what the heck that you are laughing to and you kept him secret and said nothing along with giggled.

Suddenly a door bell ringed, Haizaki helped you to see who is it. As for you, you still stayed at your bed and shipping your water. When Haizaki already reached your door house and when he opens it, it was Fudou.

At first Fudou was about to greet you, but seeing it was Haizaki he refused to say hello and directly went into your apartment and searching you while calling out your name. You noticed the voice and you called back saying that you are in your bedroom. Hearing bedroom, he rushing directly went into your bedroom and saw you are lying on the bed with pale face. He quickly reached you and asking that are you alright? And you told him that you are fine only dizzy that's what you said.

Seeing Fudou's here and worrying you, you keep thinking how does he know that you are sick? As Haizaki who are watching both of you, permitted himself to go now. As Fudou doesn't really care at all and asked him to leave. As for you, you stopped Haizaki by called his name and thanked him for his companion. At first Haizaki surprised of your suddenly thanks, but then he smirked and said no problem and quickly left you both alone. Fudou who saw you both only tch-ed, probably because he's just jealous.

You are asking Fudou that how did he know that you are sick and Fudou replied that he knows from your mom, Kidou. And you never thought that Kidou would tell Fudou about you. And you asked him that...

"But how's about your school?" Fudou suddenly looked away doesn't reply at all. Seeing his action, you already know his answer and directly hit him by telling him that why the heck would he skipping school? And Fudou told you that he is worried about you so no other choice he skips school and you replied him that it is only one of his excuses.

Fudou was mad and he told you the real reason why is he skip school and it was because that he didn't want you to be alone with Haizaki in this room. When you heard his reply, you went quiet immediately and surprised of his replied liked... Wha?? And he went all mad and cursed Haizaki for no reason and you who watched his action burst out your laughing. And Fudou was confused of your sudden laughed, as for you, you keep laughing because seeing Fudou acting like this you thought it is so funny and also cute. Cause you know what it called of his action, it called jealous.

It seems that Fudou was still not happy of your sudden laughed without any choice you hugged him and apologize to him even persuaded him with your cuteness so he won't be angry. Fudou who trying not to resist of your cuteness, but He lost and ended up he hugged you back as forgiven. And you giggled of his action.

Time skip, right now you are alone with Fudou at your house. Fudou is the one who is going to cook something for you to eat since you still didn't feeling well enough. You still lying yourself on your bed while watching youtube to kill your time, but you accidentally open news about the sinking ship again that your classmates are busy talking about and again your head hurt again. Not only hurt suddenly the flashback appeared in your head remembering something that you don't want to remember. The headache getting worst as you called Fudou loudly for him to hear, Fudou rushed to see you and asked what's wrong? Then you asked him to take the medicines which they are at the washroom. Fudou at first confused, but he still do what you told him to do.

Finally Fudou found the medicines that they were on the floor? He was confused at first, but he doesn't care as he directly went to you and gave the medicines for you. You quickly swallowed the medicines that Fudou gave you, but don't know how much pills you have swallowed but thank goodness your breath turned out stable.

Fudou keep asking your condition, but you keep telling that you are fine now, but to Fudou you aren't okay. And he told you that if you are feeling sick again better see doctor or it will be getting worst. After you heard Fudou's suggest, you slightly agreed with him since he's true, you don't feel quite alright right now. And you decided tomorrow you need to see doctor too.

Fudou still keep as your companion, as he was watching you eat until he forgot to eat his own food. You laughed at how caring your boyfriend is and asked him to eat his food too because it gets cold. He scratched his head annoyance because he also realized that he's keep focusing on you until he forgot himself too.

You both eat your foods peacefully, chit chatting together about how's Fudou skip his class and etc. And you are laughing at how Genda and Sakuma are helping Fudou skipped class even though they should have known that Fudou was lying about you are in danger. You even can't believe that they both trust him so easily.

After both of you were having lot of fun, it's time for Fudou to go home now. At first Fudou doesn't want to leave, but you insisted because it is already about to get dark soon. Fudou pouted and you pinched his cheek and told him to go home. And he did as what you told him to, then he bit a good bye to you and leave. But when you are about to close the door, suddenly the door was getting hold by someone and you could feel a soft lips pressed on your cheek and of course, the one who did this to you is Fudou.

"Love you and goodbye." He said as he ran away after he had done that to you. You who are still dumbfounded for a second, realized that you got a kiss by Fudou and this time you are blushing so hard.

After Fudou left, you suddenly got a call by someone at your phone and it was your family. You answered back and you are chit chatting with your parents about how you are and etc. Your family keep asking whether when are you going to visit them? You told them that you need to see when. And your parents told you that whether you don't want to see your friends? And your friends are all pale as you suddenly yelled to your parents. Your parents shocked of your sudden mad and told you to calm down of yourself. You tried to calm down yourself and took a deep breath and let out and you apologized to your parents for being mad. Your parents are being worried about you for didn't take care of yourself and they keep asking whether you have seen your doctor and you told them that you are fine. Your parents asked you to drink medicines again if you are having a nightmare again and you obeyed them saying yes.

After a long talking with your mom and dad, you ended your call and without you realized you throw your phone away due to depression that you got and also your trauma. You can't keep straight, you can't calm yourself down, your head getting more and more hurt as you quickly rushed to take your medicines again.

You never could tell everyone about your secret, your depression, and also your trauma including your boyfriend, Fudou. The truth is you are having a mental illness that can't be healed and no one know about this except your parents.

After you have got called from your parents, you immediately called your doctor that you wanted to check up now. At first your doctor wanted to denied, but hearing you are having a hard breathe, he asked you to come to his house since his clinic is already closed. You ended the call and rushed out went to your doctor's house and of course you didn't forgot to lock your door too.

For about 25 minutes reached your doctor's house, you have been greeted by him after you knocked the door. He asked you to came in to his work room and he asked you to sit down on the sofa. You obeyed him as you sit down, he offers you a tea, but you told him that you don't need to and asked him to check your condition now.

The doctor could see that you are really impatient and after a few minutes later he asked you whether you have took the medicine recently? And you didn't reply and told him that you stop take your medicines since you thought you don't need them anymore. The doctor was mad at you, saying that you should have to take the medicines or you won't recover, but later you are more mad, saying that will this illness could be healed? And you told him that there is no way your illness could healed because you thought that this is your punishment. The curse from your friends that you won't be able to help them after that accident.

The doctor worried about you and looked at his iPad written the news about that sinking ferry, seeing that news he had an idea, but he don't know whether it will be work for you or not.

"[Y/N] Have you heard about the news that tomorrow at there will have commemorated for the sinking ferry" The doctor asked you and you are only nodded.

The doctor asked you to go back home to see your family and also commemorated the sinking ferry to see your friends. At first you denied, but the doctor told you that it is only your way to get healed from your trauma. The doctor told you that you need to see your friends now even thought you are afraid it is better to see your friends and face them all. You have been trauma because of that sinking ferry, yes... Actually you are one of that victim in that ferry and also you are Gawon student before, before you moved to your school. The accident made you traumatised very bad until it hits your mental.

The first thing you remember after that accident is your friends are dead drowning in that ship as for you, you still could survived from that 250 students who are dead. And you are one of that lucky team who are survived from that tragic. You still remembering how's your best friend died in front of you because of freezing cold water that was around of you due to the spring, she can't stand any chance of survived as she bit a good bye to you.

Remember that, your head getting more and more hurt again. The doctor surprised of your sudden scream and asked you calm down. It is really hurt you so bad, you quickly took a deep breath and let out of this pain. After the pain is a bit gone, you finally could sobered up by telling your doctor that you will be going back home tomorrow started with morning.

The doctor surprised of your sudden said and asked you that are you really sure. And you only nodded and saying that you are sure. The doctor says that he will fetch you tomorrow to go to the train station and you thanked him as you permitted yourself to go home. The doctor bit a goodbye to you and asked you to be safe and you are only nodded.

After you have finally reached your apartment, you immediately packed your things up even called your parents that you will be going home tomorrow, your parents are very happy to hear that, but they also worried that are you alright? And you only replied fine to them since you don't want to talk about it. Your parents are hoping for you to come home and finally you have decided to come home.

Skip to the tomorrow morning started with an early morning around 3 a.m, you are ready yourself to go back to your hometown as you waited your doctor fetched you. You looked at your wallpaper phone that have you and Fudou selfie picture on it. You smiled on that photo, but you turned it off and muttered to yourself that you could never tell him at all as you face alone your hard time without telling him that you are leaving.

You even though that will it be the last for you and Fudou? Because you think that you would never come back here anymore. You finally saw your doctor's car and quickly went to him. And you thinked that maybe it is a goodbye.

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Hello guys to tell you the truth this is such a long story yeah, I'm not gonna lie it is so long. That's why I will make it for a part 2 later. Hope you like it. Don't forget vote and comment thank you. To tell you the truth I make this story a bit rushed my bad 😂.

Ciao~