That feeling you get when you're about to sky dive off a hundred foot cliff, that's the feeling when I look at you. That feeling when you see a beautiful wild flower and go to pick it, but it has thorns, that's the feeling when I look at you. Looking at you is like having the air stolen from my lungs, like sinking to the bottom of the ocean, like staring at the most beautiful scenery on the planet. Looking at you makes me breathless. But I'm so afraid of you. I'm afraid of the power you have over me, the power I let you have. I just don't know how to take it back. You're such a dangerous thought that won't stay out of my head. You're the jump I can't take, the wild card I won't play. I always know when you're near, I feel you like a magnetic pull. But too much of you will leave me dizzy and sleepless. All the nights I have stayed up trying not to dream of you, because that's all you ever will be. Oh how I wish I could stop making up these fantasies of you where we'll lie on the couch and watch TV and you'll kiss me and love and it would be perfect. But nothing is ever perfect. So the only wish I have now, is the wish of fearlessness. I wish I wasn't afraid of you and what we could become. But the ghost of pain is always lingering in my mind, so I'll watch you from a safe place. A place known as distance.