While I'm on the bus which takes me home, still crying a bit, I think. Why is Shawn so mad that I kissed Sam? I hoped that he could understand, but he didn't. I mean, maybe he is mad because I told him that I don't have feelings for Sam but after all I kissed him, so now he thinks that I have feelings for Sam!

 But still, I don't get why he is so mad, he overreacted! Imagine if he found that out from another person and not from me, he would be even madder... I still don't think his reaction was right though. He was supposed to understand, as Jennifer did.

When I get home, I found Allison in the living room watching some TV. When she looks at me, she pulls me in for a hug. "Hey, what's up?" She asks. "I made a huge mistake." I try to explain. "Tell me, you know that you can talk with me about everything!" She points at the couch, so we sit down. 

"A couple of days ago I went at the café as always and suddenly Shawn walks in. He was walking towards me but Chloe stopped him and starts acting like a fake fan and after a while she kissed him. I was so angry that I left the café but Shawn came after me. We talked and I also got his number, but I was still mad for what Chloe did. So I decided to call Sam and I told him what happened, but I was so angry that I kissed him. He got mad and now he doesn't want to talk to me. Today Shawn and I hung out and I told him everything. He was so mad that he immediately walked away and I don't know how to fix this."

 A smile appears on her face. I frown my eyebrows and I ask: "Why are you smiling? This is a mess." "Do you really wanna know why am I smiling? You still don't get it eh?" I look at her even more confused. I shake my head. 

She explains: "Y/n, it's pretty simple and there is only one reason if he overreacted like that: it's obvious that he cares about you...but not just as a friend. And you too, otherwise you wouldn't kiss Sam, don't you think?" I froze. No, this is not true. It can't be true. Shawn and I are only friends... Right? 

"Allison, what are you talking about! I don't have feelings for him and he can't have feelings for me, he barely knows me since a week!" "Y/n, you know that there is something called love at first sight? I bet that this is the case..." I look at her shocked. 

"This is definitively NOT the case!" I snap. "Y/n, think whatever you want, but you know that I am right. You like him and he likes you. That's it. If you really wanna fix this whole situation, call him or send him a text. If he cares as I think he does, he can't be mad at you forever and he will text back. Listen to me for once."

 I don't answer. I get up and go upstairs, heading to my bedroom. Is she actually right? Should I call him? Fuck, let's do this. I take my phone and I go to the rubric and I found Shawn. I call him. It rings once, twice, and then nothing. When I think that he answered, I realize that he declined the call. Son of a bitch! (Sorry Karen.) I'll give him one more chance. I text him. 

To Shawn: Shawn, please, we need to talk. Call me when you will see this message, please. 

I wait anxiously for an answer or a call. 

I've been waiting for almost two hours, but he still didn't reply. I am so mad that I am about to smash my phone, seriously. Allison wasn't right. He doesn't care about me, or he would reply instantly! I need to think about something else, I really need a distraction. It's like someone read my mind, because in that moment I receive a call. I don't know why, but a part of me is hoping that it's Shawn, but when I see that it's not him, I think: "Even better."

"Sam..." 

"Hi Y/n. Listen. You were right about Chloe. Can we meet so I can explain everything?" He doesn't sound that mad, just a little bit distant. It's already something, no?

"Ehm...Sure. Where do you want to meet? I have nothing to do right now."

"I don't work today, so can we meet at the bar in front of your house in 20 minutes?" 

"Yes, it's perfect. See you there." 

I honestly wasn't expecting him to call me, he was so mad at me. I wonder if he broke up with Chloe... And if he did, it is because of me? Whatever it is, I hope that he will forgive me, because Sam after all is an amazing friend and he helped me a lot. 

I quickly dress and in 10 minutes I am out. Before leaving, I turn to my sister, who is still watching some tv. "Allison... I did as you said. I both called and texted him, but he didn't reply as you thought. I tried, okay? But you're not right. He doesn't care about me in that way. He never will." I don't wait for an answer and I leave the house, slamming the door.

I head to the bar and I see him. He greets me but we both notice that there is an awkward silence. I talk first: "So... what is it? You mentioned Chloe. Did something happen between you two?" I ask him a little bit curious.

 He looks straight at me and says: "Yes, we broke up. I wanted to know if what you told me was true, so I met her and I instantly knew that she actually kissed Shawn to make you jealous. And I got so mad that I decided to broke up with her. The point is... Y/n, you were right. I don't wanna lose you and I want to fix this. But first... Please, tell me the truth. Did you kiss me because you were actually jealous or because you have feelings for me? I need to know it." 

He doesn't look mad anymore. I stop looking at him for a second and I start staring at my shoes. I am too embarrassed. I decide to tell the truth, I can't deny this anymore: "Sam, I don't have and I have never had feelings for you. I kissed you because I was freaking jealous of what Chloe did. And you know why I was that jealous? Because I understood that I have feelings for Shawn. But not because he is famous or hot, but because he is so sweet, funny, and one of the most humble people that I know. I love him for the person that he is. That's the truth." I said it. 

Fuck, Allison was right and I noticed it now. Good, Y/n, very good.  He smiles at me, now happy. "Thank you for telling me the truth. And girl, Shawn has feelings for you too, I noticed that and it's pretty obvious, so why aren't you two dating already?" He laughs but I suddenly become serious.

"I told him about the fact that I kissed you and he got mad. I tried to text and call him, but he didn't reply. Don't you think that if he cared about me he would reply right after? I don't even know why he is mad at me, I mean, I just told him the truth!" His smile becomes even bigger. 

"Y/n, you really don't wanna get it? He didn't reply because he is jealous that you kissed me, and this is an obvious hint that he cares about you and that he has feelings for you too! He will reply soon. I bet that. It is normal that he is mad right now!" 

I am confused. That's what my sister told me too. Does actually Shawn have feelings for me too? "I don't know, Sam..." "Shut up, Y/n, it's the truth!" We both laugh and he pulls me in for a hug. I missed Sam. 

"Does this mean that we are friends again?" I ask him. He nods and hugs me again. But I can't stop thinking about Shawn. 

SHAWN'S POV.

Why is this girl driving me so crazy? I definitely overreacted and she noticed that. I was so mad when she told me that she kissed Sam. I have so many questions! Did she kiss him because she was jealous or for another reason? What is she doing right now? Maybe she is with him, maybe they are kissing again... I get mad only at the thought of it. 

In that moment Andrew calls me. "Shawn, sorry to bother you, but they anticipated the flight."  What the hell? "Why? Did something wrong happen?" I ask worried. "No, but they want to interview you. You gotta hurry, because the flight is in 4 hours. I called you in the right moment they told me." I sigh. "Fine, I'll prepare the necessary and then you can come to pick me up in an hour. Is that okay?" "It's perfect. See you." 

 He ends the call and I immediately start to prepare my suitcases. I was so lucky to have Andrew as my manager, he is the best. I needed to talk to Andrew about Y/n, maybe he could give me some advice, he has always helped me with love problems (yeah, weird) and he has always treated me as a friend, and he cares about my health and happiness. Same for Jake. I have the best team in the world and I couldn't be happier to have them in my life. 

I prepare my suitcases being careful to put all the necessary and to bring my guitars with me, they are my little babies. 

After an hour, Andrew picks me up and he greets me. "Are you ready?" I nod and we get in the car, heading to the airport. I check my phone and I notice that Y/n sent me a message and that she called me too. I stare at her message, without knowing what to do. (Shawn looks at his phone as in the picture.) 

Andrew understands that there is something wrong and asks: "Shawn, what is it?" I turn at him and I say: "There is a fan of mine that I met at my last concert. When I first saw her, I was impressed by her beauty and she was so sweet. I gave her the In my blood hoodie and the day after I saw her at the café. We started to talk and we were so comfortable with each other. She really makes me feel so good and treats me like a normal person. I asked for her number and we hung out today. She told me that she kissed a friend of her because another fan of mine kissed me to make her jealous and I got mad as hell. And now I noticed that she called me and sent me a message telling me that we need to talk."

 Andrew puts his hand on my shoulder. "Shawn, the fact that you got mad means that you are jealous and you look pretty infatuated by her. The fact that she kissed another boy for what that girl did, means that she was jealous too. Don't you think that she might have feelings for you? She obviously texted you because she wants to explain herself and fix things. Don't you want that too?"

I look at Andrew and I say from the bottom of my heart: "Yes, I think that I want that too. Man, every time that I think about her my mind goes wild. Thank you Andrew, now I know what to do." He smiles at me and then he starts staring at the car's window. Did I actually want Y/n in my life, as more than a friend? Hell yes. Let's do this. 

Helloooooooo!!!

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See you soon,

-M. 

Love you all :)