Shawn is right in front of me. What should I say now? And why did he follow me? He speaks first: "Y/n... Why did you run away?" "And why did you follow me?" I snap. "I-I don't know... I just wanted to talk to you." Shit, he looks adorable with that pink hoodie. (The one that he is wearing in the gif.) "And why did you want to talk to me?" I ask curiously. 

"Y/n, stop with all these questions! Just tell me, please, why did you run away?!" He looks slightly angry. What the hell is wrong with him?  Am I seriously arguing with Shawn Mendes, my idol? Well, since what happened Sunday at the café, and the way he made me feel (so damn comfortable), I started to see him more like a normal person. So every time that I see or talk to him since that day, I stopped to freak out and realize that he is a normal dude. But that is not the point.

"I run away because I had something important to do. Actually, I should go because it's pretty urgent." Shit. I'm not good at lying, and Shawn noticed that. "Oh cmon, Y/n, don't be a fool right now! You are lying, we both know that. Now, tell me the truth. I am not going to ask that again."

Okay, now I am definitely screwed. What should I say? "Oh, you know, I was jealous because that bitch kissed you!" ? No, of course I can't say that. But then I come up with: "Shawn, why do you even care? Seriously, why do you wanna know it that much?" He looks speechless. I am really curious to know what his answer is. 

"I care about you, Y/n, that's the reason why I followed you! Even if you are a fan and I've known you only for a few days, it's the first time that I feel comfortable talking to someone. I mean, everyone knows me as "Shawn Mendes, the Canadian singer" and you know me in that way too. But when I talk to you it's like you can see me in a different way and you don't freak out. That's it. And I don't wanna lose that feeling of feeling that comfortable with a person. Is that weird?" 

He looks at me worried, waiting anxiously for an answer. I can only say: "I feel that way too. I mean, when I first met you, I almost burst in tears and I wasn't able to realize what was happening. But that day at the café, everything changed. You made me feel so good and I started to look at you in a different (but of course good) way, and I stopped to freak out."

 He doesn't seem surprised by my answer. The only thing that he does is smiling. "What?" I ask him. He keeps smiling. "Y/n, now I pretend the truth. Why the hell did you run away?" The only thing that I can do now is telling the truth, or maybe, a part of it. "It's just that Chloe (the girl you spoked to before)... Her and I are kinda, you know, enemies. I hate her and she hates me. Actually, everyone hates her because she is a...ehm..." "A bitch?" Shawn asks.

 I nod and we both laugh. I keep talking: "Yeah, she really is. She hates me because I am Sam's friend, but since he is Chloe's girlfriend, she thinks that I wanna take him away from her or something. It's just ridiculous. I love him and I care about him, but not in THAT way." "Thank God." Shawn whispers. 

I can't hear what he said so I ask: "What did you say?" "Ehm...nothing, sorry. Keep talking, please." Whatever. "The point is that she perfectly knows how much I care about you and that you are my idol, so when she saw me today at the café and you came in, she wanted to make me jealous flirting with you and all that stuff. So I just left because she was annoying me. Happy now? You know the truth."

 There is an awkward silence, but then Shawn comes up with: "So... Has she succeeded? I mean, did she make you jealous?" I look at him, trying to not be discovered because I was lying: "Of course not, Shawn! I was just annoyed by her stupid behavior. I'm not your girlfriend, not even your friend, so why should I be jealous?" I act like I didn't care.

 "Ouch. Fine. But... What do you mean? We are not friends? Y/n, explain yourself please, I'm so confused right now." I laugh. "Shawn, it's not that hard to understand. We're nothing. Just because we talked like... twice (?), that doesn't change anything. At the end of the day, you will be always Shawn Mendes and I will always be just a fan." Did I just say it? Oh, Lord, save me. 

"Y/n, you're seriously acting like a fool right now! Even if you're a fan of mine, that doesn't mean that we can't be friends! We get both comfortable when we are together, and it's a good feeling. So why can't we be friends? I seriously don't get it." He looks sad. Is he right? "Fine, whatever, you won. But don't you dare to call me a fool one more time, it annoys me." "Deal." "Deal." 

In that moment something popped in my mind. Should I talk with Sam about what Chloe did? Of course I had to, he deserves to know. "Listen, Shawn. I love talking with you and everything, but now I actually have something really important to do. Can we meet each other at the café another day? Please, it's urgent." 

He nods but when I am about to greet him and then leave, he pulls me back. "What?" I ask. "How do I know when you will be free again? I just can't come every day at the café hoping that you will be there. So, please, can I have your number? If I have it we can agree on when to see each other, don't you think?" 

Okay, don't get me wrong, because I just said that I stopped to freak out when I was talking to him and realizing that we're friends. BUT HE ASKED FOR MY NUMBER AND I THINK THAT IS PRETTY NORMAL TO FREAK OUT A BIT, OR NAH? I try to calm down and then I ask: "Sure. Can you give me your phone?" He gives me his phone and then I add my number. 

"Thanks, I'll text you later." He greets me and then he leaves. I decide to call Sam. "Hey. Ehm... can you talk?" I ask hoping that Chloe wasn't at the café anymore. "Sure, what's up?" "When will you finish working, can we meet? I gotta tell you something." "I'll finish in 15 minutes, but... why did you leave? When I came back from the kitchen you weren't there anymore, Chloe neither." "I will explain you when we will meet. I'll wait for you outside the café, is that okay?" "It's perfect. See you later then." I am pretty nervous. While I am waiting outside, I receive a message. 

From Jennifer:  Y/n, when can I call you? I gotta explain why I didn't show up before. 

To Jennifer: Now I'm pretty busy. And I have something to tell you too, but can we talk about everything tomorrow?  I'm sorry, but now I really can't.

From Jennifer: Sure. See you tomorrow then.

In that moment Sam sees me and greets me. "Hey." "Hey." I say with a worried look. He notices that and says: "What's wrong? What did you want to tell me?" My mind is a mess right now. How should I act? Don't ask me why, maybe because I wanted to take revenge because Chloe kissed Shawn, but the only thing that I can do is crash my lips against Sam's.

 He immediately pulls me away, he looks confused. "Y/n, what the fuck? You perfectly know that I have a girlfriend!" I wanna bare myself right now. Shit. I try to explain myself: "Sam, I am so sorry! But today, when you were in the kitchen, Shawn showed up at the café and he was trying to talk with me. In that moment she asked him for a pic and after a while... she kissed him. I didn't know what to think or how to act, so I just left. I'm so sorry that I kissed you, I just... I was angry about what Chloe did, even if I shouldn't be. But I swear, Sam, she did it on purpose!"

 He gives me a glaring look. "Y/n, just go away. I gotta think about this. But for now, stay away from me." He leaves, without even turning around to look at me once again. I burst in tears. Shawn was right. I am a fool. What am I going to do now?

Helloooooooo!!

Here's the new chapter with a little bit of drama, I think.

Tell me what you think down below.

See you soon,

-M.

Love you all :)