Jimin was outside. He had done it. He snuck out, he had gotten a letter from Taehyung yesterday and it reminded him of his friend who he loved dearly. So with the last bit of energy and life Jimin had in him he had thrown a chair at the locked windows breaking the glass. He knew he was gonna regret this later. but he had to see him again. He was gonna see taehyung now. Jimin hid his bruises well before he left the house through the window. hurting his finger when leaving. The shards were sharp. Now in the backyard he climbed over the fence and started walking towards his friend's house. His steps slow from the lack of energy he had in him. His hands were shaky and thin. He was unhealthy skinny but that didn't make the boy eat he knew he shouldn't eat. Jaesang told him not to. He will turn ugly. But Jimin was lonely, so he went to see his friend after more than a year. He wasn't allowed to go out, but Jimin was starting to talk to himself imagining things.

After walking what felt like hours for the boy that wasn't fully awake mentally he arrived at the house and rang the bell. His finger was having a hard time to even raise up to reach it. He had no energy inside of him left after the walk. It took a while for the door to open but it did.

"J-jimin?" his voice. Taehyung's voice was heard. The boy looked at his friend who looked so unhealthy.

"Hello. I'm sorry for not visiting sooner. i am sorry"

"its..its okay. come in. want some tea?" Taehyung sounded concerned. He wasn't gonna be angry at his friend now. He was at first thinking Jimin hated him suddenly. which is why he sent a letter asking to meet up one more time to clear things up. But seeing jimin's state he was sure something must have been happening to jimin which was keeping him from meeting up. His main worry was now Jimin who looked like he could die any moment in front of him. his face skinny and hands boney. his steps were uneven as he walked to the chair at the table sitting down. he kept his jacket on shivering. even when it was hot outside and inside. Jimin was continuously cold.

Taehyung haven't gotten a response for the tea but he made it anyway and put it down in front of Jimin's hands giving him a smile.

"thanks...." Jimin said, looking at it. The scent made him hungry. but he cant eat. drinking was okay right? he carefully took a little sip from the tea.

"How are you?" Taehyung asked, looking at Jimin's thin fingers.

"I'm good, and you?"

"you....i'm doing good too. I have missed you. what happened when you disappeared?" taehyung asked. "you suddenly stopped meeting with me and avoided me almost. did i do something wrong, if so im very sorry"

"No no, don't worry. it's nothing. I just spent more time with Jaesang and kind of got lost in our own world. I'm sorry I was a bad friend." Jimin said.

"Jaesang. is he good to you? i haven't seen him after that last time" taehyung asked last time was at least a year ago and after that he haven't seen jimin personally anymore.

"He is, he is very kind and lovely, '' Jimin said, faking a smile and drinking the tea. Taehyung hummed but didn't smile back.

"Can we be friends again? we can go have dinner together and catch up?"

"No dinner, I'm good. im full from lunch just now" jimin chuckled and patted his hollowing belly

"okay, if you say so"

The two catched up for a moment until Jimin noticed the time and gasped standing up.

"I-i got to go,'' he said and rushed to the door.

"So suddenly?" Taehyung asked, confused , following Jimin to the door.

"I'm sorry, I have to do something before Jaesang gets home. and I forgot. I'm sorry I have to go. thank you for the tea" jimin smiled and left the house rushing his way home. Not knowing that Taehyung did something that will change his life forever.

Jimin got home so fast that he was light headed and fell against the door almost passing out from the exhaustion of his starving body. He was about to make his way to the back of the house and sneak in when the front door was opened and he fell inside on the ground.

"JIMIN" it was Jaesang. and that voice alone was enough to make Jimin's panic rise and not pass out on the spot. He felt himself being pulled inside at his hair and the front door closed with a bang. "YOU PIECE OF SHIT YOU ARE!" Jaesang shouted and dropped Jimin on the ground giving him a kick. "breaking MY windows?! you're gonna pay for that yourself!! you will work harder and maybe you will compensate for the costs! you fucking bitch!"

Jimin didn't even have energy to block his face or not hear the words that were shot at him. He didn't have the energy nor he wanted to. it wasn't of use anyway. nothing was. Nothing Jimin did was ever good. Nothing was good for Jaesang. The only thing was to be obedient in bed the only time he wasn't cursed at. He would only feel pain but Jaesang wouldn't talk to him much.

"I will kill you, you just can't listen can you. you dont even deserve me, you don't deserve the life you have. Why can't you do as you're told? you're just so annoying to everyone!" Jaesang shouted as his hands wrapped around Jimin' neck shaking the boy violently. the boy reached up holding Jaesang's arms before just dropping them to the ground not seeing the use in even trying to do something. He just laid there blankly as Jaesang shouted at him and hurt him. He didn't even feel it. Was he dead? Jimin didn't know anymore. but it was nice not feeling or hearing anything. He could only see Jaesang's lips move. but Jimin couldn't hear it. He didn't understand the shapes either. it all looked strange. but it was nice. He wondered if this was what dying was like.

a pleasant thought. no more pain, no more hurt, no more noises just.... nothing.

Jimin was so lost in thought she didn't realise Jaesang was already gone now leaving him on the floor. Slowly the sounds came back to him and he turned on his side. pain was felt all over his body, his neck was burning and his breathing was strange, his belly hurt like it was breaking.

"No...no more pain," Jimin said softly and crawled up. He stumbled his way to the bathroom and closed the door, locking it. he just heard running footsteps and then a bang on the door.

"JIMIN! don't think of it!" he heard jaesang shout. He heard it but he didn't pay attention to it. it didn't get to him at all; it was just noise. noise he wanted to stop. His hands broke open the cabinet which was locked making his fingers bleed from the sharp edge that broke off but he managed to get it open. His hands grabbed all the bottles and small boxes that were inside and opened them seeing the many types of pills. He didn't know which to take but in the bottle were the most.

Will it kill him? He wasn't sure...but it was worth trying. He will have silence. He will be able to sleep peacefully and rest. He won't have to think or act. He can just sleep forever calmly. Jimin's hand was shaking a lot when turning the bottle upside down making his hand filled with pills while some were spilled on the floor. He fell to his knees and looked at them. The loud banging on the bathroom door got louder and louder, it was giving him a headache. "No more noise" the pills started to look like little candies and Jimin's stomach growled. He brought his hand to his lips and dropped all the pills in his mouth feeling a lot fall down past his lips and fall on the floor with little ticking sounds. The pills were hard to swallow on dry mouth but he managed to gulp a few down, a lot were still on his tongue and stuck under his cheek. He didn't have the energy to try and swallow more. He chuckled. He could hear jaesang.

On the other side of the door was Jaesang banging the door and trying to get it to open." JIMIN OPEN THE DOOR!" he shouted. "DON'T YOU DARE LEAVE ME! you CAN'T you hear me! you CAN'T"

Suddenly the front door was forced open and men rushed inside grabbing Jaesang tightly and pushing him against the wall. "this is the police, you have been arrested!" Jaesang heard in his ear and his eyes widened in anger.

"JIMIN! what have you done!! YOU UNGRATEFUL BITCH!" Jaesang glared with pure hatred at the door that was forced open and the police with a medic went inside to help the boy that lay on the ground silently and lifeless.

"YOU WILL NOT GET AWAY WITH THIS! I WILL FIND YOU! i will HAUNT YOU!" Jaesang kept shouting while he was being dragged out of the house. and that was the last of him for a long time.

-

Jaesang wasn't lying, He still haunts Jimin still to this day.

Jimin had fallen silent in the conversation. Yoongi just looked at him waiting for the time to speak up again.

Even though he was lost in thoughts, he couldn't get Jimin out of his head since. He kept feeling worried hearing everything the boy had to say. It gave Yoongi feelings he shouldn't have. But he did have them and he wasn't sure yet what to do with them. Will he ignore them or answer them...He wasn't sure. He knew he should stop these feelings right away. But he was hesitating...

"then i took all the pills i saw in the bottle. I don't know what they were exactly.....But i do know they were very bad...." Jimin said and ended his answer to the questions of yoongi today.

"okay, thank you for telling me." Yoongi said and noted it down, shrugging away the thoughts he had just now and getting back to his work personality. " now we're done for today, how do you feel?"

Jimin shrugged.

"Do you feel anger?" the doctor asked. Jimin shook his head. "happy?" Jimin shook his head again. "sadness?" this time jimin nodded a bit hesitant but he nodded.

"Why do you feel sad?"

"i dont know.."

"is it because you now know you were being played and treated wrong. That you had that happen to you?" Yoongi knew Jimin better now. He knew the boy almost more than jinin himself.

Jimin nodded as a confirmation of Yoongi's words. He pulled his legs up on the bench and put his face behind his eyes peeking over the knees at the grass field of the institute. He hugged his knees feeling small again. He needed someone. He needed company, good company. But he didn't like anyone here. He only likes Yoongi.

This time Jimin didn't need to ask for it, locking his eyes with yoongi's was enough. The raven scooted closer and wrapped his arms around the boy hugging him warmly. Jimin teared up, feeling the care and warmth from yoongi. Lowering his legs he wrapped his arms around the doctor's torso and started crying.

"its okay, cry it all out, '' Yoongi said, caressing Jimin's back. His own heart stung hearing Jimin cry like this. He didn't like seeing or hearing him cry. But sadly that was what was needed to deal with the past Jimin was carrying with him.

Jimin cried for a long time but his sobs stopped and he now only sniffed. He felt a bit guilty for wetting Yoongi's shoulder with his tears. But the doctor assured him it was all fine and he shouldn't worry about that.

"Bad things keep following me....I hate it...I should have died that day, then this all would have to happen '' Jimin said softly, drying his eyes with his sleeve. He almost relived the moment he took those pills when telling Yoongi about it. Jimin kept thinking about it. He could end it and everything will be done. He will get away from Jaesang and all the damage he left on him mentally and physically. He will be free.

But looking at Yoongi, who's eyes looked worried sincerely, he felt pain in his heart and averted his eyes. He then just couldn't think of actually doing it. Yes he wanted to get away from the pain and memories but he will leave yoongi too....He doesn't want to leave yoongi.

"let's go back inside okay?" Yoongi asked. Jimin nodded and followed the doctor inside in silence.

-

Yoongi now had his own dinner and break in the staff side of the building. He was sitting with Seokjin again talking about their day.

"So Jimin is doing better? it did work then i suppose" soekjin said and grabbed his drink.

"Yea its slow progress but he will get better im sure of it. He is stronger than he thinks" Yoongi said and smiled.

"you're a good one, they did the right thing choosing you for the job," Seokjin chuckled. "My patient will be released in a few days, he is ready to go on his own now. I'm so happy I could help."

"That's so good!"

"You kno-" Yoongi got interrupted by one of the staff which he became friends with too. Yoongi looked up wondering what was wrong.

"Yoongi! It's Jimin, they locked him up." he said standing next to the raven. Yoongi frowned and stood up.

"they what? why?"

"He made a scene and had to move him back to his room. He even bit one of the security's hands."

"I will go to him, '' Yoongi sighed and quickly gulped away his drink. He apologized to Seokjin for leaving so suddenly but the older assured him it was fine. With fast steps Yoongi went to the other wing of the building and used his keycard to unlock the door and take the stairs. When he came to Jimin's room he saw one security man standing near the door. He made the guy move and went inside.

Inside the room he heard crying and got worried. feeling that pain in his heart again. He made his way to the sound, when he entered the bathroom where the door was opened his heart dropped. Jimin looked so hurt. He just laid there crying.

"Jiminie" yoongi said and kneeled down next to the boy, making him sit. "What happened?"

"I can't do this," Jimin said. "he won't leave me....a-alone"

"Don't give up, you're doing so good" Yoongi said and wrapped an arm around the other hugging him. Jimin hugged back so tightly like he was afraid Yoongi would let go.

"Why do you care...." Jimin asked softly.... "i don't deserve it"

"That's not true. you deserve it. you deserve to get better and don't be stuck in this anymore. you deserve to be cared for. I care for you. and I know you can do this, you're strong Jimin. look how far you are already"

"You're kind.." Jimin said, then fell silent. "you will help me right....you wont leave right?"

"I won't leave, I will be with you all the way. don't worry" Yoongi smiled.

"thank you" Jimin whispered and rested his head against Yoongi's chest. The raven had sat down and just held the boy who was now calm. stroking the boy's hair softly with his fingers. Jimin wouldn't let go of him and it didn't look like he would any time soon. but yoongi didn't mind. 

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funny how i was finishing off this chapter with writing while i listened to the most cheerful playlist i have ahahah. 

thank yo for reading again. i will see you in the next chapter!

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