The next day right after breakfast Jimin decided to shower which he was in need of. He hasn't cleaned himself since they visited Jaesang. he just didn't feel like doing anything, he had thought of ending it all anyway. but he rethought the decision and chose to stay, he was gonna try. So now he should clean himself and start his day with an intention to heal. He will listen to Yoongi and do as he says. it might not all go right immediately. but he will try. He tried to find his way through the bad memories and thoughts he had stored in his head. it was exhausting to think twice and debate if it was the right thing or not for everything he did. Jimin still felt shaken form meeting Jaesang again, but yoongi assured him the other cant hurt him anymore.

"oh?" Jimin said as he showered, he could hear something in the bathroom. with one hand he wiped over the glass t6o clear his view through the fogged glass. But the bathroom was empty, just like it should be. nothing seemed out of place. Jimin turned back around and suddenly a person stood behind him, Jaesang's figure. the boy yelped and slipped luckily he didn't hit anything but fell on his ass. Jimin looked up but there was nothing else ut a stream of water falling down. He shook his head and stood up rubbing his ass which felt hurt. "No Jimin, he isn't here. He can't be. it wasn't real" he told himself. He didn't feel like showering anymore and turned off the shower walking out and grabbing his towel. He carefully dried himself and put on his boxers walking to the mirror in the bathroom.

Jimin looked in the mirror at himself and he dried his hair with the towel while he did so. He could see the scares, they were so visible...Jimin gulped looking at the one on his neck. He remembered those times clearly. his whole body shivered at the memory, but he couldn't push them away. He could feel Jaesang's hands on his hip. Jimin stopped drying his hair and the memories were starting to overwhelm him suddenly. He could feel them again, like he relieved those moments the hand around his neck was burning. Those whip scars on his pack were stinging like he was being hit all over again. "no...no don't touch me, '' Jimin said and lowered his arm, frowning at himself as he backed away from the mirror. In the reflection he could see Jaesang behind him. Jimin let out a short shocked scream and turned around. In a flash he saw Jaesang's figure and he stumbled back against the wall grabbing his wet hair, dropping the towel as he did.

"No no no no" jimin chanted slumping down on the floor pulling his legs up. Those hands were all over him, everything hurted. "stop! stop! stop touching me!" the outgrown blonde boy gripped his hair as he screamed to distract himself from the whisper in his ear. He could hear Jaesang's voice. Calling him those names, telling him all those lies. thing he knew now were bad. things that managed to control him. "Stop!" the boy stood up and hit his head Jaesang's voice got louder. like it came closer. but the other was already here, he was already touching Jimin. It was in his head, but it hurted like it was real. Jimin didn't know what to do. He pinched himself and hit his arm on the sink, but nothing seemed to get his mind out of this hole, he was being dragged further and further. In a desperate attempt he pulled his hair and hit his head against the wall. not realising he bumped his nose which started to bleed, in his hand a few strands of hair.

"P-please" jimin said a few tears rolling down his face. suddenly Jimin's airway got shut and he gasped for air. His hands clawed at his neck as he panicked. He wanted to scream but he couldn't. He couldn't speak, he couldn't make a noise other than his body slumping to the floor when he couldn't stand up. He felt heavy, like a weight was dropped in top of him. Tears started to stream down his face. Jimin was scared... The thought of dying feared him...he really didn't want to die. not now. The voice in his head got louder and the pain over his body got worse, until it all faded and the world turned black.

-

"Yes, I will come pick it up in a bit. I have to talk to him about something now first" yoongi said to his boss who passed by and halted him.

"Alright, i will leave it on my desk for you" the boss said and smiled walking away. Yoongi opened the door of Jimin's room and walked inside. He put his bag on the chair and looked around. The boy wasn't here? It's been a while since Jimin decided to go shower. he must be done by now, right? no way someone showers for this long. Yoongi frowned as he didnt see a sign of the boy in his room. "Jimin?" he called. "huh" the doctor turned around and walked to the bathroom door opening it. he expected the boy to be maybe doing his hair or anything but not..this.

"Jimin!!" Yoongi said and quickly kneeled down next to the passed out boy. It calmed him down a bit seeing the boy was breathing, it was slow but he was at least alive and not dead. something yoongi feared his whole heart was thumping fast and felt painful. he felt an intense worry for the boy that he actually teared up, he really was scared Jimin actually did it now...that he was gone. but he seemed fine so far other that the nose bleed he had. Yoongi wondered what happened, but that is something for later. He now had to get him checked. The doctor jumped up and ran to the entrance where he pressed the help button before rushing back to Jimin's figure. He turned the boy in a more comfortable position and gently tried to wake him.

"Jimin-ah" he said, shaking the boy. "hey, wake up...jimin" he patted the boy's face and shook him again, but no response. The worry inside Yoongi grew only more. He held back a tear. Yoongi didn't think he would panic like that for someone, he felt so worried.

Then finally two men appeared and saw the scene. "Please get him to the doctor, i don't know what happened" Yoongi said to them and made room for them to lift up the boy and take him to the doctor. The raven followed behind them who tried to calm himself which wasn't working so far. He could calm others but now he somehow couldn't manage to calm himself down. thinking of how he found Jimin on the floor just now was enough to make him worry again.

While Jimin was being taken to the doctor Yoongi decided to quickly distract himself and get his package from his boss's office before returning here. He had to calm himself down or else he couldn't focus properly. He took a deep breath and walked with fast steps towards the office. On the way he began to think about what could have happened in the bathroom when Jimin was there. there couldn't have been anyone else there, no one can just enter the room or even get to this side of the building. Jimin also didn't seem harmed other than the nosebleed. His hair was still wet so he did shower. The thing was too vague for Yoongi to figure out so quick. he sighed deeply and grabbed his small box from the boss's desk, leaving the room again. "Jimin..." the raven looked at the floor while he walked back a sad feeling inside of him.

Why was he so worried? why was it so intense...it surely wasn't the same as with earlier patients. This felt different, this wasn't just a concern. Could it be because he may have Jimin closer to him than he should have? "no....right?'' Yoongi mumbled to himself. He knew he shouldn't get feelings for a patient. but when he tried to push away that explanation he couldn't find any other reason that fit. Which made him now realise that he did have some kind of feelings for the patient other than just to help him get better. He actually was caring for Jimin as a person besides him being his patient.

The raven got out of his deep thoughts when he arrived at the doctor. He walked inside and searched for Jimin. Which he didn't need to search long for. He was in the first room on the bed, the doctor next to him pressing some buttons on the device next to the bed.

"Hello Doctor," Yoongi said. The man turned around and smiled at him.

"hello Min"

"How is he?" Yoongi asked and walked to the side of the bed. Jimin's bloody nose was cleaned and he was under a warm blanket to get him to warm up again. The bathroom floor made his body lose a lot of body heat.

"Luckily he doesn't have anything, well he did have a nose bleed but that will heal, nothing to worry about for that. The bleeding had already stopped so I cleaned the blood away. He was very cold but other than that he's fine." the doctor said and looked at Jimin who was still sleeping. "His bran had gotten to many stimulations which caused him to lose his conscious. he will wake up soon when he is ready"

"I see.." yoongi sat down on the chair in the room. he was worrying again. Jimin must have gotten bad memories again, Jimin couldn't easily deal with them on his own. The raven felt bad for not being there. He couldn't help him this time.

"I will leave now, feel free to stay or come back later." the doctor said and walked to the door but he halted and turned back around. "Oh also, he is gaining weight again. the food is doing him good" he sent a smile to yoongi and then walked away. The raven felt proud that the boy was showing progress on his eating. He Looked up at the bed and his eyes widened seeing Jimin's eyes opened. Yoongi stood up and walked to the bed slowly so as not to startle the boy. He didn't say anything but just looked at him and let Jimin proces things first.

"Yoongi?" Jimin said confused and sat up slowly holding his head. "ow"

"Hey Jimin," Yoongi said and pulled the chair to the bed to sit down.

"How did I get here?"

"I found you in the bathroom, you passed out. so I decided to send you to the doctor for a check up."

"oh..."

"Can you tell me what happend?" Yoongi asked. He was so glad Jimin was awake and was alright. The worry fading slowly.

"I...i had bad....memories.." Jimin said and shivered, he shook his head not wanting to think back of it.

"how do you feel now?"

"strange"

"Shall i get you some clothes?" Yoongi asked, seeing that Jimin still was in only his boxers. his skinny but healing body on display. well only his torso was from the blanket that fell down on his lap.

"Okay" Jimin said and laid back down, he felt a bad headache and wanted to lay down. Yoongi decided to go right away also so the boy can be alone for a moment.

"I will be right back," the raven said before walking away. Jimin just followed him with his eyes.

-

After Jimin spent some time at the doctor until his headache passed he was back in the main hall sitting with yoongi at his little dinner. He only had three pieces of broccoli, one scoop of mashed potato and some sweet sauce. He didn't want to eat, looking at the food only made him feel sick.

"Are you okay now" yoongi asked seeing jimin stare at the food poking it around a bit. Jimin shrugged. he doesnt think he will ever be really okay. That painful feeling was always there, even if he wanted to get better now. He couldn't help but feel and think those things. staring at the food only made him lose his appetite, he would get fat and get hurt. Jimin knew that he shouldn't think like that. It's what Yoongi told him, Yoongi aso told him he was pretty and not fat. but even so the boy couldn't stop himself from thinking like that. "If you really don't want to eat, we could try it again later when you are more hungry," Yoongi said. He didn't want the boy to feel forced to do this now.

"No i....i want to eat" jimin said quickly and then got one piece of his broccoli he ate it with a bit of a discomforted face but he was eating. Yoongi smiled at the boy, feeling a warm feeling when he watched the boy eat his plate. Jimin ate all of it, it wasn't fast, it took him a long time but he ate it all, and that was what matters. "I'm done, '' the patient said and looked up at the doctor, seeing that Yoongi had a warm smile on his face. seeing this made Jimin feel a nice warm tingly feeling inside of him, he smiled a little too and looked down.

"I'm proud. you're doing so well." Yoongi said and stood up. "shall we go talk again now?"

"Doctor?" Jimin looked back up at the other.

"yes Jimin"

"Can we do it outside? i want to be in the sun"

"of course, whatever you want." Yoongi didn't mind doing it wherever. as long as Jimin was comfortable with it, it was fine. and of course when no one was around to overhear them. These were personal conversations that shouldn't just be shared.

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hey......im so sorry for not updating for 22 days...i was busy last weeks with someone who passed away in the family and my finals. it was all at once so i didnt have the time to write this. but i hope i passed, so i am kind of back to updating more again! 

i hope you are still here and enjoyed the update, i will see you in the next chapter.

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