it was early in the morning and Yoongi had just taken Jimin's breakfast meal from the kitchen. He bumped into Seokjin when he was heading to Jimin's room.

"hey yoongi!" Seokjin said, giving his friend a smile.

"Hey Jin"

"So how is Jimin doing?"

"It's alright. He is willing to see his ex, I hope it will trigger his memories to come back. I'm a bit worried about the outcome, but I think it needs to be done, Jimin hase to realise the situation. which he doesn't know." yoongi sighed.

"I see, yea it may get worse, but you're right that he needs to remember it all" Seokjin said. "I suppose he is eating, seeing you carry that meal," the older man said , pointing to the tray Yoogni held.

"Yes, im happy he eats now, he still can't eat big meals. so the kitchen is making him personalised small meals which will give him everything he needs. He is off his fluids now so it's some progress" Yoongi smiled talking about it, he was happy about the boy eating, he could see the color return in his skin making it more honey like than pale. Jimin was looking healthier ech few days. "i gotta go give this to him now, i will see you probably tomorrow, i'm leaving at lunch"

"ah that's alright, see you tomorrow and goodluck!" Seokjin smiled, waving at the raven who walked away after their goodbyes.

Yoongi walked all the way to Jimin's room and knocked on the door before walking in. when he was inside he didn't see anyone. He was a bit confused why the boy wasn't in his room. Jimin was always on the bed or at the window in the mornings, so it was odd seeing him not here.

"Jimin?" he called putting the tray down to enter further into the room and look around. But the room was empty, the bed had been slept in so the boy did sleep after last night. Yoongi checked the bathroom but it was empty as well, he could tell Jimin haad brushed his teeth seeing the toothbrush was still wet. so jimin just woke up and left probably. Yoongi took the tray with him and left the room going to the main hall.

Jimin would be here often around lunch so yoongi supposed the boy must he gone to here. And he was right. on the floor near the middle sat Jimin. he was staring at the window. Yoongi saw his back and walked closer, putting the tray on the table.

"Morning jimin" he said, kneeling next to the other. Jimin didn't acknowledge him but just pointed at the window.

"there is someone outside" he said. Yoongi looked up at the window seeing nothing odd. just the field and playground for kids. There was no one outside that was out of place.

"What do you mean?"

"someone is watching me"

"who is watching you?"

"I don't know, I don't recognize them. I can't see his face. He is a scary doctor," Jimin said and looked at yoongi.

"Whoever it is, he can't hurt you here, you're safe here" Yoongi smiled and stood up, extending his hand to the other. Jimin looked at the hand with a puzzled face, he didn't see something in yoongi's hand.

"Come on, i will help you up"

"oh.." Jimin took his hand and let the older one pull him up on his feet.

"i brought you breakfast. it's a bit sweeter this time, you said you didn't like salty" yoongi said taking off the cover of the plate. jimin nodded sitting down at the table looking at the bowl of rice with the egg on top. He smiled, there was no soya this time. it was too salty and made him feel sick.

"thank you" jimin said, taking the fork. He had tried eating with the chopsticks but his hands were still too unsteady to keep the controlled pressure and the food would keep on falling. so yoongi brought the food with a fork, knife and a spoon now. He sat down on front of the other as company and watched how the outgrown blonde haired boy poked the egg yellow making the yolk spread over the rice. Jimin stirred it with his slightly shaky hand before eating it.

"how are you feeling today?" yoongi asked.

"I dont know"

"You dont know? dont you feel happy or sick, or something else?"

"no, i feel nothing" Jimin said while eating, he was eating fast and it made yoongi have to step in or else jimin would get a stomach ache.

"Jimin slow down, you shouldn't eat that fast."

"I'm hungry," Jimin said. it's the first time Yoongi heard the boy say he was hungry out of himself and wanted to eat the food immediately without any struggle.

"That's good, eat as much you can"

"it tastes good" Jimin said. "i like this, i want this tomorrow too"

"I will tell them to make you this tomorrow as well" yoongi smiled glad the boy liked to eat again. Jimin was getting over his eating disorder slowly but steadily, showing a lot of progress already. Now his mental state needs to progress too. "about today, are you still sure you want to see him?"

"yes" Jmin said shortly. The boy actually didn't like the idea of seeing this Jaesang man as the name made him feel really bad, but he wanted to remember so he could leave this center and go home.

"Okay, that's good. I will go but someone from the center staff will accompany us" Yoongi said.

"Why?" Jimin didn't like that someone was going with them other than Yoongi. Jimin liked Yoongi. He didn't like the other staff here that much as he liked yoongi. yoongi understood him and the others didn't. "i don't like that"

"it's necessary, you can't actually leave the center yet. so someone will go with us to keep an eye out on us. But I will go with you inside. i'm not leaving like i told you"

"okay...." Jimins spark was gone and he just stared at his bowl which was turning empty with each bite he ate. His mind was thinking of what they were gonna do later. He didn't like it that someone was going with them. it made him feel angry. He started to grown and chew his food angrily.

"whats on your mind?" yoongi asked, noticing the other's change.

"i don't want someone to go with us, I want to go with you," Jimin complained. normal people would think it's annoying but yoongi was just glad the boy showed something lively again. He was showing some emotion. so that was good.

"I can understand that, but sadly i can't do anything about it."

Jimin sighed and finished his food. He had a lot of annoying emotions he didn't like. but these suddenly shut off and he looked up with a smile. "oh it's Hoseok!" he said. again making himself a filter over his emotions by imagining hoseok visiting him. "bye!" jmin stood up and went to his imaginary friend leaving yoongi to clean up the dishes he left. Yoongi sighed watching Jimin leave, the boy just coulndt have his emotions without making new illusions for himself to cover them up, Jimin was forcing himself to forget and see only happy things. But it was making him only worse and Yoongi was getting very concerned about what will come free when tat barrier he created breaks and the emotions and memories spill free from being trapped.

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Yoongi had packed his things he needed and was now printing out the documents they needed to show the police when entering the prison. because yea they want to just walk in there without any proof.

"you're leaving now?" A voice said. Yoongi turned around seeing Seokjin stand there in the doorway. He nodded at the older.

"Yup, as soon as I copied these, we're good to go. '' Yoongi said, taking out the freshly printed papers from the printer and putting them in his bag. He turned around wearing his coat and looked at seokjin. "which is now" He walked past the taller man towards the hall where he left Jimin accompanied by a staff member. turning the corner he saw Jimin sit on the chair right where he left him wearing a simple neutral grey outfit, he refused to wear a jacket or coat saying it was summer. And yea, yoongi coulndt force the other to wear it so he gave up after the first try and just let jimin wear whatever. 

"You ready?" yoongi said to the younger one. Jimin nodded and looked up but his eyes fell on Seokjin, the unknown man at yoongi's side. Jimin looked at yoongi.

"This is seokjin, he is a coworker and a friend of mine," Yoongi said.

"but i was your friend?...." Jimin said, looking a bit hurt.

"You are also my friend. you can have more friends. just like you have taehyung and hoseok as your friends," Yoongi explained with a smile. Jimin tilted his head but then his mouth made a 'o' shape.

"We really need to leave now or we will be late" Yoongi turned to seokjin who nodded.

"see you tomorrow, and good luck to you too Jimin '' Soekjin gave the patient a warm smile which made Jimin look at him curiously. The man had a kind smile just like yoongi. it made him smile back.

"Thank you" he said softly and stood up following yoongi out of the center. As soon they stepped out onto the parking lot, a space he had never been before he looked around. He was outside. He could just run away now. He wasn't kept there anymore. The thought really went through his head to run away, but he decided not to do it. That's means he will abandon yoongi, he will abandon a friend. he didn't want that. he liked yoongi so he stayed and stepped inside the car.

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It was a log drive with a very silent Jimin who wouldn't talk. Yoongi let the boy be for now as Jimin didn't seem to show any difference in emotion. He must be thinking about what was going to happen. They got out of the car and Jimin looked around. The prison was huge and had an uglry red-brown-ish color. He didn't like the color.

"Lets go inside" Yoongi said, noticing Jimin wasn't following them but standing there looking at the building. The patient turned his head to the two and walked to the following again. The strange feeling inside of him grew bigger when they were inside. He felt this wasn't good. He suddenly didn't want to go anymore. but it was now too late to say something as Yoongi was already at the desk handing the papers for their visit. Jimin just stared at the raven who spoke to the man that was explaining things. they had to leave their stuff in the storage on the left which yoongi did. Jimin didn't have anything other than himself and his clothes so he didn't need to hand in anything. He just stood there feeling a bit lost. This place had bad vibes.

"Shall we go in?" yoongi asked. Jimin shook his head quickly. "What's holding you back Jimin?" Yoongi asked and looked at the officer that was going to accompany them to the room. He asked him to give them a few minutes which he gave a nod of approval to letting the two talk.

"I don't like it here, i feel sick"

"It's normal. your mind knows that something is here. but you need to find it to remember. its normal to feel like that"

"i don't like it here"

"I know. Do you want something to drink? Will that be better? we can take a few minutes" Yoongi said wanting to make jimin as comfortable and lam as he could.

"I want lemonade. '' Jimin said sounding was a bit demanding but Yoongi wasn't bothered by it knowing Jimin didn't mean it in that way and went to the desk again.

"excuse me, is it possible to get lemonade"

"Normally not, but i will see if we have some in the staff kitchen" the man said and stood up. They were informed Jimin was a mental patient so he could make an exception for it and get them something else to drink. He returned shortly with a glass with pink lemonade. he handed it to the doctor. "here you go"

"thank you" yoongi smiled and walked with the glass to the boy giving it to him. Jimin smelled it, it was strawberry. he liked strawberry so he sipped the drink. the sweetness of the drink made him feel a bit more calm.

Five minutes had passed and the glass was empty. Jimin was ready to go in. He was calm enough to go further. They followed the officer leaving the center staff member in the waiting room as it wasnt allowed for more than two people to go in that were over the age of 18. when they walked through the way too clean hallway with many doors and glass windows which if you look through it you could see other people having their visit with someone in prison. Jimin didn't like it and he grabbed yoongi's sleeve, this place gave him the creeps.

"This is the room, you don't have to worry, the prisoner is handcuffed to the table and so are his feet. You will be watched from the cameras and by me, I will be with you inside if anything goes wrong we will be there in just a second." the officer said and unlocked the door. "whenever you are ready you can enter the room. there are two seats ready for you."

"Thank you" Yoongi said and looked at Jimin. When he didn't see a change in emotion with the boy, he opened the door and walked inside followed by Jimin. The door behind them was closed and locked by the officer that followed them and went to stand near the wall, his hand behind his back.

Inside the room Yoongi for the first time saw the man in reality. He saw Jimin's ex boyfriend alive and all. His dark brown natural hair grew in a messy untreated way. His face looked cold but a grin appeared on his face when he looked at the younger one at yoongi's side. The man sat forward and moved his head down in his hand's reach to push his hair out of his eyes and see it more clear.

"Well would you look at that, is Jiminie missing me already?" Jaesang said with a creepy grin. his eyes hawking at jimin like he was a prey.

Yoongi noticed Jimin froze next to him, not even getting near the chair when he heard and saw the man who spoke to him. his whole body went cold and his eyes widened. This voice, this face, he recognized the man at the table. And he didn't not like it. His head began to hurt and sting, his stomach turned and he wanted to throw up, he felt sick and nauseous.

"no...no.no.no NO" Jimin said and backed away to the door in panic. He tried the knob to get out but it was locked. "no get me out!"

"Jimin, jimin calm down, he can't hurt you. I'm here" Yoongi said, hurrying to the boy who was scared. Meanwhile the doctor could hear Jaesang laugh mockingly and that made his blood boil. Yoongi isn't triggered easily, he had a lot of patience but this didn't sit well with him, he hated that reaction.

"No, leave me alone! go away!!" Jimin was screaming and kneeled down in a ball holding his head. Everything hurts. it was all so overwhelming. hearing that voice again broke down the barricaded wall he created in his head like it was a drop of water hitting the ground and splatter. The memories that flooded back and hit him like a crashing wave knocking him back to be flooded by them. He had no control or filter. everything came at once and it was making him go crazy.

Yes yoongi was prepared for a scene but not this bad. Jimin had been suppressing them for more than he thought. With worry yoongi held the boy so he would stop hitting his head and pull his poor blonde hair.

"go away, go away!'' Jimin said, referring to Jaesang and he kicked his feet. his prisoner ex boyfriend was chuckling while he looked at the boy freaking out of this. it was very amusing to him seeing that even after so long he could still affect Jimin without even touching him. just his face and voice was enough.

"It hurts it hurts, doctor help me!!" Jimin said panicked as he clinged onto Yoongi. The memories of all the bruises, the scars and the abuse came back. He could feel the scars on his body all started to burn. He began scratching himself to get the pain away but it only made it worse.

"please let us out for a moment, '' Yoongi said to the officer on his left. the man nodded and unlocked the door of the two letting the two out of the room with the prisoner. Yoongi wanted to calm Jimin down first before they went back in again. So he lifted Jimin up who was making it very hard for him to do with all the struggling and moving he did. but yoongi managed. he put jimin back down on the floor and kneeled next to him.

"Jimin, look at me," he said, cupping the boy's face.

"no!!!"

"Jimin, look at me, jaesang can't hurt you. you are safe now," Yoongi said, forcing the boy to look at him. Jimin was crying and looked very upset and distressed. His eyes big with fear. "its okay, calm down. He can't hurt you anymore"

"I-i don't like it. it dont want to be here" Jimin said. "I can't, I can't. i just can't do this. I don't want to see him, it hurts!"

"I know, I know, but the pain is all in the past. He can't touch you anymore. You are in a safe place. jaesang is in prison."

"I-in prison?" Jimin said and looked around. He felt somehow protected in yoongi's arms.

"Yes, he is arrested by the police and sent to prison. He can't harm you anymore."

"where are we?"

"We are in the prison where he is staying, I wanted you to meet Jaesang, it would give your memories back" Yoongi said. "we have to go in one more time"

"NO, I want to leave, i can't go in!" Jimin said only remembering the years of abuse and pain. seeing the man again wouldn't be somethignhe liked.

"I'm with you, the officer is there too. this is the last time i promise. just come with me and sit down next to me."

Jimin wanted to refuse but Yoongi was already taking him inside so he shut up. He shut his eyes while shivering in fear as they went inside. He didn't want to open his eyes. but he didn't even have to.

"Jiminie~" Jaesang sang, making Jmin flinch and move back in fear again. He looked at Yoongi, terrified, his eyes begging for help.

"He is handcuffed and he can't move, '' Yoongi said. and took jimin's hand. he could feel and see jimin's whole body was shaking. so he pulled the chairs further away from the table and sat down with jimin next to him. The officer looked at them a bit concerned at seeing the patient like this but he did not interfere with the doctor's work.

"Too bad I am, if i wasn't i wouldn't mind to choke that pretty soft neck of yours" Jaesang chuckled, his eyes fixed and glued on jimin. his eyes trailing over his now mature but too skinny body. He liked the boy when he was a kid and even now he was older. "you've grown, i wonder what it looks like under these clothes.""

"Jaesang'' yoongi said. the ex boyfriend's smile faded and his eyes turned to the doctor with a glare.

"what" he said annoyed at the raven calling his name.

"Shut up"

"fuck off, Jimin is still mine ad he will always be mine."

"No he's not"

"i never broke up with him, did i?" Jaesang grinned and looked at Jimin who was looking down, refusing to make eye contact. why whole body slumped small feeling jaesang's eyes on his fragile body.

"He did," Yoongi said. "jimin, do you have anything to say?"

"I want to leave," Jimin said softly, making Jaesang only laugh more.

"ahw Jiminie, are you not happy to see me?"

"Please, want to go. i want to go now" jimin said his voice sounded desperate so yoongi nodded and stood up looking at the officer. This didn't go according to plan. but it was to be expected.

"Let's get you back then" , Yoongi said and took jimin's hand taking him out of the room. Meanwhile, he could hear guards enter the other side of the room and take away a jaesang who was laughing and complaining. Yoongi felt jimin still was shaking and wrapped an arm around him once they were outside. To his surprise, Jimin turned around and hugged yoongi. seeking the comfort he had felt before with the doctor. hiding his face in the man's shirt he started to cry. The crying sounds painful and full of hurt. It made yoongi's heart clench. He hated to hear and see the boy's pain. He didn't think it would affect him this much. a patient had never this much of an impact and effect on him emotionally, but Jimin did.

"It's okay, you can cry," Yoongi said and caressed the other's back. 

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