This
I
I
I'm going insane
I'm slowly going insane
This is not a joke
I can't breathe
I can't breathe
My mom was saying how I was going to "lose my sanity" and how "teens who talk so depressing go crazy" and she's going to co-lecture me with my dad when he gets home
I need to die
I need to die I always cry and I just can't do this
I'm too weak I'm too weak
Why do I even try
I'm a disgrace
My mom says I'm messing up her and my family and the world which basically means I'm a waste
Why
I can't
I can't
I can't survive
Help
Help
Help
Help
Help
Help
Help
Help
Help
Please
I want to hurt myself but I can't I'm too weak I'm so very weak and weird and wrong
I'm doing life wrong
I can't
I can't
Please
Help
I need help
I need mental help
I need physical help
I need spiritual help
I'm scared
This isn't a huge situation but it is
It is
It isn't
It isn't is
It is isn't
I
I
Ah
Ah
Agh
Aghh
I
I
I
Help
Please
Help
Forgetful
Impatient
Unperseverant
That's not a word
Stupid
Oblivious
Unobservant
Ignorant
Utterly unintelligent
A waste
Short-tempered
Unoriginal
Indecisive
Overly emotional
Overreacting all the time
Blunt
Dry
Rude
Introverted
Shy
Antisocial
Every bad trait and I'm there
Help
Help
Please

I want to grow up but I don't
I'm tired of wanting to die in a hole every time someone between the ages of 9 and 40 walks by
I'm tired of being antisocial
I'm tired of being different
I'm tired of being lectured
I'm tired of following the rules
I'm tired of procrastinating
I need to get a grip on my f*cking life

Okay
I think I'm okay now
I shouldn't publish this
I shouldn't
Don't do it Pearl
I just read through it and it's totally dumb
People won't like you
Pearl
Pearl
You're publishing it aren't you
Ugh