March 20 2011

mina-bby is currently Online.

me: What did I do wrong?
mina-bby: you know full well what you did
mina-bby: quit acting like he's in the wrong
me: I'm not lol.
me: As far as I'm aware, I am the offender.
me: Got that's down pat.
me: that**
me: I just don't know what I did.
mina-bby: you don't know how!? Are you fucking mental. You act all sad and shit bc he is finally sick of all the shit you've put him through
mina-bby: It's not just a one time thing
me: yeah i know
me: i hurt him
me: a lot
me: i'm well aware of that
me: but he's put me through a shit tonne too
me: so how come his reasoning is more justifiable than mine?
me: how come every time i gave up on his bs i was attacked for being a bad "friend"?
me: i tried so fucking hard for him, you don't understand.
mina-bby: well you should've tried harder
mina-bby: because all you've done is hurt him a million times over
mina-bby: he's cried himself to sleep every night because of you
mina-bby: ITS ALL YOUR FUCKING FAULT

[ but maybe every time he gets hurt i feel the pain, only intensified by a million. maybe every time he curses at me, tells me he doesn't want me nor love me any longer, i feel a little less human. and instead, a little more like a long gone angel that has been banished to the furthest depths of hell. every time i hear him scream, cry or god forbid, harm himself, the tear within myself etches further into my soul. every bit of pain he suffers makes me shed more tears than words he's spoken, makes me blame, makes me shoot out fury-filled screams more times than he has blinked. every time i watch my angel, the only boy i've ever loved, get hurt, the soon to be intolerable proportions of disgust, anger, hatred and revenge begin to skyrocket furthermore. maybe, just maybe mina, i am the one suffering more here. maybe i'm the one in pain, even more than you, even more than jin, could ever bring your unforgiving, disgraceful selves to believe ]

me: ok mina
me: bye
mina-bby: bye bitch

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