October 30 2012

you are calling seokjin

"hello?"

"hi."

"it's four in the morning so why the fuck are you calling me?"

"i'm s-sorry jin."

"oh god. please stop crying. what's wrong?"

"i messed u-up so b-b-bad."

"Y/N breathe. it's okay."

"i c-can't."

"please, i can wait."

"o-okay."

"okay i'm done."

"okay so what's wrong."

"i feel so bad for everything i did to you and every way i hurt you."

"i know Y/N."

"i know you know b-but i'll never be able t-to apologise enough."

"breathe."

"and it kills me to know that even if you're okay now, i once put you through so much pain. i didn't mean to hurt you so much. y-you're my best friend seokjin and i love you so much. i'd give up everything for your happiness but instead i tore you down."

"Y/N i forgive you. it's okay."

"it's not okay. i lost you for almost two years."

"but i'm back now."

"physically, yeah. but do you want to actually befriend me?"

"uh... yeah."

"i didn't think you'd want to."

"i'm sorry, Y/N."

"why are you apolog-"

"because i was immature too. i know you did me wrong but beforehand i didn't decide to just tell you i wanted to stop talking. i didn't think of your feelings when i suddenly left for my own sake. i only ever did things for myself."

"seokjin..."

"the only thing i ever did for you was..."

"was? oh no, no jin don't cry. stop sniffling please."

"was loving you."

"and i'm okay with that."

"but that's rude."

"no, it's not. we had a terrible friendship anyway though."

"oh."

"the only thing we could give each other was ourselves. but in the end even that wasn't enough. we're both terrible people."

"you're going to make me cry."

"i'm here for you though."

"i don't want you to be."

"w-why?"

"because i don't want to hear you cry  with me anymore. or see anymore messages of your heartbreak. it hurts too much."

"i'm sorry."

"it's okay, but it's really late so you should sleep."

"i can't."

"just try though. for me?"

"okay then. anything for you."

"goodnight."

you have ended the call