July 1 2011

seokjin is currently Away.

me: it's 12:34 am and i'm laying in bed crying
me: i'm crying over you
me: again
me: crying because i spend these sleepless nights alone
me: crying because i don't have you
me: it's 12:35 am and i'm laying in bed crying
me: because i don't know where my best friend went
me: i don't know why he hates me
me: or why everyone's out to get me
me: it's 12:36 am and i'm laying in bed crying
me: despite having school tomorrow
me: i'm sobbing over the fact i'm so lonely
me: but six months ago i had the world in my hands
me: it's 12:37 am and i'm laying in bed crying
me: because i just want to be in your arms one more time
me: with you holding me tight
me: and telling me it will all be okay
me: it's 12:38 am and i'm laying in bed crying
me: asking the gods why my love has left me
me: questioning what i am supposed to do without him
me: because i'm so lost
me: it's 12:39 am and i'm laying in bed crying
me: wondering what jin is doing right now
me: if he's happy
me: if he's moved on
me: if he's forgotten me
me: if he's finally feeling loved
me: it's 12:40 am and i'm laying in bed crying
me: asking the universe why it hates me
me: as my eyes get sore and swollen
me: and my sobs lull me into a sleep
me: where i dream of you
me: in a different dimension
me: where we're laying in a field with each other
me: and we're both happy