March 29 2011

seokjin is currently Online.

me: remember those times when we used to face time each other
me: and play video games until three in the morning
me: haha
me: of course you don't
me: mina told me you forgot everything about me
me: i laughed and said "surely not"
me: she said you even forgot my face
me: you didn't
me: right?
me: you can't have
me: right?
me: maybe you did
me: i hope you didn't
me: i remember your face
me: remember when you got mad because i accidentally lost every photo of you
me: i didn't
me: i deleted them
me: i tried to block you out of my life
me: because we were too close
me: every time we got too close this happened
me: i tried to distance myself
me: but now i cry about it
me: remember that cute photo you sent me when you just came out of the shower
me: and your hair was wet and you had a small smile
me: it still makes my heart race just thinking about it
me: i slap myself for deleting it
me: you're stunning jin
me: you never believed me
me: i hope you do someday
me: you always called me beautiful
me: i only have confidence because of you
me: i didn't tell you that
me: i said i only had confidence because of myself
me: lies
me: it's all because of you
me: i'm still alive because of you
me: you saved me
me: thank you
me: but now you're gone
me: FUCK YOU
me: i don't see happiness in my days anymore
me: i wake up with a pit in my gut knowing i hurt you
me: i lay in bed for hours unmotivated because i have no support
me: i put all my love and time into you
me: please tell me you still use it
me: i'm dying without you jin.