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THIRTEENTH CHAPTER
2014

"i can't even hold your hand, but i love you with a love that no one can understand."

//

Sahar feels a wave of violent emotion run through her body.

she rushes out of the hotel room- dodging past visitors. the female is highly aware of the impulsivity she feels coursing through her veins. Sahar has always been an impulsive person- it's not something she's proud of but is something she can't help and believes makes her bold. it's a trait she had just recently discovered about herself. when it comes to her emotions, if she feels something intensely- she has to act on it, if it feels right in the moment.

right now, kissing Jungkook feels right. it may not be the right decision but she's intended to do exactly it. she's overwhelmed with the extreme feelings she has for the boy. past, present and future feelings. she can't just forget everything she's felt and done with him in her first life, especially when he's felt the same way before. it makes things harder when she's reminded of everything she's ever felt for him, whether that be lust, desire, passion, bafflement and love.

Sahar's olive eyes dance around the hotel lounge until they land on Jungkook who's still here. she's startled by his presence- his wandering eyes, leaning forward as he seems deep in thought. what's he thinking about?

he was just about to turn around until his eyes meet Sahar's. "Sahar i-" he starts, his voice loud and clear, with an edgy yet desperate tone in the silent lounge where the workers are ready to leave and the world is asleep.

the view is majestic, Sahar thinks to herself. the amount of tardy nights she's spent with Jungkook has made her grateful to witness such a sight. rosy strands falling onto Jungkook's face, earrings that dangle, polished shoes and a look of pure amazement- Jungkook's beauty is truly out of this world.

Sahar cuts Jungkook off and tries her best to calm her racing heart and heavy breaths. she rushed downstairs to catch up to him- he was still here. "let me do this please." she begs and steps forward, closer and closer.

Sahar meets her lips with Jungkook's.

Sahar shocks herself. she can't believe she's kissing Jungkook. their lips move in sync together and what shocks her more is when he kisses her back, as if he knows how she tastes and feels. ever since their lips met, the lovely kiss was full of natural essence and bizarre passion.

Jungkook's hands stay at Sahar's waist as his etiquette and shyness shows. Sahar on the other hand, winds her fingers through his dyed locks- kissing him eagerly and feeling the same emotions she's always felt for the boy.

Jungkook pulls her closer and tightens his hold. they both feel their hearts growing heavier with delight and craving as they try to stop themselves.

"you stayed." Sahar murmurs when they move away. Jungkook rubs his hands across her hips, enjoying touching her as he presses his forehead against hers- nudging her nose softly.

this must mean he felt the connection too- Sahar thinks, eyes sparkling with habitual passion and she places her lips on his again. his lips are soft, charming and welcoming as always. he's hesitant at first but eventually kisses back, biting her lip in the process but he turns the kiss back to a slow, sensual and nice scene.

Jungkook sighs as he moves away. "i'm seeing someone." he admits truthfully and licks his lips. he continues to stare at Sahar's lips and hold her- it's obvious he doesn't want to stop.

Sahar trails her finger down his flustered face before placing it on his precious, reddened lips. "so am i." she mumbles and smiles woozily.

//

the next, warm morning, Sahar leaves the hotel with Jimin.

they're okay. they've decided not to talk about what happened yesterday and although they're on good terms, they're avoiding each other. how is Sahar going to survive this trip?

Sahar finds herself drifting further away from the answer to the question when she spots Jungkook. not alone. he's with Taehyung and they're about to kiss on a ferry that's about to leave. she feels a familiar wave of sensation dash through her body again.

Sahar runs as fast as she can when she sees the appalling scene, leaving Jimin as he's approached by a man selling fish- someone who isn't Yoongi.

"woah, woah, woah!" Sahar raises her hands, jumping onto the ferry as she rushes to stand in between the couple. she startles the boys with her sudden presence and raucous voice.

"Sahar?"

"hi Jungkook." Sahar smiles sweetly when she realises she's literally standing in between them- separating the men and stopping them from the kiss they were about to share.

when Sahar glances at pink haired Jungkook, she notices how fidgety he is. it's unlike him. he's avoiding eye contact, surprised by her morning presence as he plays with his fingers. he must be thinking about last night. she is too. the memory of their soft kiss under the moonlight floods their minds.

Taehyung however, stands with the most perplexed look on his face. Sahar is too busy staring at him. it's really him! he has blonde, rippled wisps of hair, the same chocolate, circular eyes that stare profoundly at her- the stranger in his eyes. the girl shouts at herself- don't say his name, don't you dare mess this up!

Sahar cleats her throat. why is she so nervous? this is her best friend. "my name is Sahar, it's nice to meet you."

Taehyung nods politely. it kills her that he doesn't know her. she was hoping he would, if anyone would. but when she looks at Tae, a million memories is all she can think about and she misses him- he's her family. "my name is Taehyung." he retorts, greeting her with ease.

Taehyung places one hand on his sharp hip, rings of silver and ruby reflecting due to the hot sun above them. "may i ask why you interrupted us?" he says bluntly- Sahar tries not to smile.

"a spider was about to crawl up your leg so i was trying to get rid of it."

Taehyung ruffles his blonde hair and nods in response. he's still so understanding. his personality traits are something she's always admired. "oh no, we shouldn't kill spiders." he assures, gazing at his sandals- making sure there are no spiders that he might harm. his responsive concern is evident.

"of course." Sahar smiles because she knows Tae so well.

"so are you guys together?" the inquisitive female trails off and the answer that comes is an uneasy nod.

"do you live here?"

they nod. Sahar can tell Taehyung is analysing her. she obviously doesn't expect him to like her.

reserved, suspicious Taehyung stares hard at Sahar. it makes her shiver- what a contrast. "are you here with anyone?" he requests casually.

Sahar plays with her fingers timidly. "yes my boyfriend." she notices Jungkook twitch as she mentions that. he's avoiding her entirely. Taehyung can be very analytical- he might notice the smallest of hints and that won't be good. she may not know what it's like for Taehyung to hate her but it can't be nice.

"boyfriend?" Taehyung asks with observing eyes as he stares at her fingers. Sahar is surprised when she sees a gorgeous, gigantic ring gifted to her.

what the hell?- Sahar stares at her hand in disbelief.

"fiancé?" Jungkook confirms, his facial features covered with shock and misery. he looks betrayed. how did she not notice the ring this entire time?

"Sahar!" Sahar hears a shout from behind her. she sees that it's Jimin who's left on the land as the boat takes off. she wobbles, attempting to keep her balance as the boat moves away.

shit- she mutters, giving a thumbs up to Jimin as he throws his hands in the air, drifting further away from his fiancé. Taehyung and Jungkook look at her with expecting looks. so? "he'll have to get the next boat, it's fine." she turns back around, smiling.

Sahar's wandering eyes spot Namjoon who's also on the boat.

yes!- she beams. time for advice and more connections to be made. Sahar excuses herself before leaving the awkward couple. she makes her way over to the tall tour guide dressed in a sleeveless shirt, bandana wrapped around his waist and trainers that stand out.

Namjoon recognises Sahar as soon as he sees her. he greets her with a cordial wave and a call of her name- nothing like she was used to from school classrooms and corridors (did he even know her name then?).

Sahar admits that she is happy to see him, she needs advice fast. "how do you get someone who doesn't know you to say, 'i wish we never met'?"

Namjoon, the tour guide has no idea what to answer to the girls question. out of all things, he was not expecting this. Sahar is an odd being to her, all he remembers is her getting lost in the middle of his tour of Malta. "i don't know?" he thinks on the spot, holding a book in his hands. the works of Shakespeare can't possibly help him, can it? "throw a drink on them?" he suggests- that would make them hate you.

Sahar clears her throat, thinking deeply of the suggestion. it's something that's for sure. "even if they're wearing a white shirt?" she glances at Jungkook, not wanting to ruin his perfect white shirt that will definitely stain.

Sahar thanks Namjoon anyway, stopping herself from patting his shoulder. then, something hits her. "do you know this guy called Jin?"

Namjoon shakes his head, asking why?

Sahar grins in delight and rolls back her shoulders. maybe everyone not knowing her can create unusual enjoyment. "find him. he's in Malta and he's your soulmate." she declares before walking away.

//

Sahar was really determined to go along with Namjoon's suggestion.

it was perfect. they were all on a boat, no sign of Jimin. Jungkook is wearing the perfect shirt to be ruined by berry juice.

so she was ready, cup in her hand as she strolled her way over to the boy that she desperately wanted to love freely.

but poor Sahar lost her balance, pushing into walking people and she accidentally threw her drink onto ... Taehyung.

oh god, save me!

Sahar has no idea what to expect. she's disappointed she didn't get Jungkook who she notices is chasing seagulls and staring at Namjoon in amazement and she's deeply afraid of Taehyung because damn, is he intimidating in this certain life. she takes deep breaths, calming herself down because the Tae she knew wouldn't shout at her.

Sahar's heart is beating so fast. don't kill me. "i'm so, so sorry."

Taehyung's voice is deeper than usual when he speaks. his hands are sticky as he touches his shirt, groaning. "what the fuck?"

then, he notices Sahar and sighs as he leans his head back. Taehyung fights back his enrage and irritation as he sees the fearful look on the females face. "it's fine, you should be more careful." he advises, flapping his shirt.

a familiar figure approaches the two of them, arriving behind Taehyung. a smaller, petite yet beautifully created figure. it's Jimin.

of course he's here when i'm with Taehyung.

"Sahar, gosh-" Jimin exclaims, closing the distance between him and his lover. "i had to get the next boat and transfer onto this one." he explains, out of breath as relief seeps into his sharp features.

Sahar isn't listening. she's too busy staring at Jungkook who's leaning against the banister. she needs to ruin his shirt. "yeah yeah." she waves her hand, showing her boredom. "this is Tae, get to know each other." and she runs away.

she can't believe she's leaving Jimin and Taehyung together.

Sahar walks to Jungkook who's taking photos on his camera, body leaning against the side of the boat as he clicks away. his attention is greatly focused on the image of the waves of the shallow water, shining buildings and the sapphire sky. his finger presses down and he captures an impeccable, scenic image.

Sahar smiles. his passion is patent and it motivates her. "Malta is a nice place for photos." she comments, standing beside him quietly.

Jungkook notices her and nods. the two of them look out to the azure sight- the sea and the sky above. "do you want me to take one of you?" Sahar offers with a pleasant smile as he obliges, placing his treasured camera in her hands.

"yeah sure." Jungkook leans against the edge of the boat, resting his elbows as he looks directly down the camera lens. a slight smile traces his pink lips. dark orbs meet Sahar's as she focuses on him, ready to capture his splendour in a permanent way. "how do i look?" he asks, fiddling with his dismal hair.

Sahar is in awe when she looks at Jungkook. he's always been beautiful. colourful hair, bright eyes full of joy, adventure and growth, tall, lean figure, flawless eyebrows and a smile so giddy. "amazing." she breathes out and clicks.

Jungkook thanks her, feeling shy as he takes his camera back. they continue to watch the view from the top of the boat. there's a comfortable silence between them. "but yeah, Malta is scenic." he agrees, loving the beauty of the place. he wants to see many more places like Malta, he wants to travel. "i live here and i could never get tired of the place."

Sahar feels tears in her green eyes because Jungkook once said the same, meaningful thing about Seoul.

Sahar smiles, appreciating his need to cherish the world and it's beauty. how perfect can he get? "how about we go for dinner tonight?" she suggests, suddenly nervous.

Jungkook is nervous too. he looks at Sahar with uneasy eyes and stuttering lips. "oh, i'll ask Taehyung-"

Sahar stares at him and tries not to smile. "no .. just me and you."

"i- i don't know." Jungkook shrugs, playing with the strap of his camera as he finds it hard to once again look at her. she has this power over him. "i feel bad about last night. you have a fiancé? why didn't you say?" he says sadly.

Jungkook sighs tiredly. "that changes a lot of things Sahar."

Sahar sighs too. she wants things to go back to normal. strangely, she wants to be back in school. "it'll be a completely friendly dinner. i promise!"

"i'm sure you feel the connection too."

Jungkook nods, acknowledging her statement but not saying anything. "i'll pick you up at seven." he smiles, showing his perfect teeth.

Sahar smiles widely. she plans to throw a drink at him, at the dinner. she needs him to say those words.

//

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