"Why dint you come to the university today?" I asked, he looked at me and smiled slightly.

"Just like that I had something to do so I decided I'd meet you here straight. So tell me, what is it that you want to talk to me about." He asked curiously, I just nodded as I took in a deep breath.

Wow, this was difficult than I thought it was going to be, I dint even know how to start. I kept on trying different ways in my mind but nothing seemed to be working.

"Khushi." Arnav shook me.

"Yeah."

"I thought you wanted to say something, why are you silent now? You know you can tell me anything." He said.

"Yeah, I just don't know how to start."

"It's not a proposal, you just want to tell me something so say it."

"Okay, it's about my childhood. I dint even know this thing until I met you and then things changed." I said.

"Okay, that's confusing but I'm all ears."

"Before you no guy had ever tried to be this close to me, I mean there was Zion but he was my friend and I always scared off guy who would try to approach me. And then you came in my life being the jerk you are and things changed.

I hated you but I liked you at the same time, it was so confusing, I was starting to feel things I never felt before and I even wanted to avoid you because I couldn't really scare you off like those other guys but nothing seemed to be working.

And then, we started getting really close, then one day you touched me and it was all great but suddenly some blurry images started to appear in my mind and it wasn't great anymore, it was uncomfortable.

Every time you'd be close to me, it kept happening and I dint know why it was happening to me, so I talked to my mom, asked her questions and she told me that when I was really young, I was sexually abused.

I don't want to go into the details, it's really difficult to even talk about it, but I just wanted you to know, the reason of me being uncomfortable with you touching me isn't because I'm interested in Stefan or some other guy, it's because of what happened in the past.

I can't change it Arnav, but I'm trying to fix it, please be patient with me. I know now that we're together you expect certain things from me, and I've never done this relationship thing before but I want to give this a chance, I want to give love a chance so just be patient, maybe someday I'll get over it." I stop speaking, I looked at the view in front of me silently, Arnav did the same too, he dint say a word so I dint even know what to make out of all this.

I dint know if he was going to understand, or anything, I just wanted to know what was going on in his mind and I couldn't if he sat silently like this.

"Why are you silent? Say something." I said.

"I don't know what to say Khushi, I don't want to say I can understand because I can't, I can't understand what you must be going through, or how learning this news must have been for you, I mean it's so bad.

How can anyone do something like that to a child? It's just even terrible and I am really sorry that you went through that, but now I am here, with you. We will deal with this together okay?" He said I just smiled and nodded.

As I listened to those words, it felt like a sort of burden that was slowly lifting off my chest, everything felt lighter, at least now he knew why I behaved that way.

"Are you okay?" He asked after a while.

"Yeah, I was just kind of worried about how you'll react."

"Why would you be worried about that, you were a child, what happened wasn't your fault, people like that man shouldn't be allowed to live on this earth, they are worse than animals." Arnav said as he clenched his fists.

"It's okay, we cant change it right, so don't get so angry about it, I'm just glad you understood me." I smiled, he smiled back as he moved closer to me and pulled me into a hug.

He held me in his arms for so long and it dint even want to break it, it just felt good this way.

"It's late, we should go home. Can I come stay with you today please? I promise I'll sleep on the couch or something if you want, I just want to be around you, please." He looked at me hopefully, I couldn't really refuse so I nodded positively.

He smiled as the both of us walked to where our car was parked, when we reached there, we found Damon leaning on Arnav's car, he stood up straight as he saw the both of us, but he only kept on looking at Arnav with some angry expressions.

"Khushi, you go home for now, I'll come later." Arnav said to me, I nodded as I headed straight to my car and jumped inside.

As I reversed it I could see Arnav and Damon arguing about something, I was kind of curious but I couldn't even stay and listen to what conversation they were having so I just drove off and headed home.

*****

I walked to my room wondering what this secret conversation between Arnav and Damon was and why Damon looked so angry. Plus Arnav missed University today too and all he said was that he had some work but he dint say what exactly.

I also remember his disappearing suddenly and coming back, it was all strange, there was definitely something he wasn't telling me.

A knock at the door of my room disturbed my thoughts, I looked up as Zion walked in, he sat beside me silently.

"What happened?" I asked.

"Nothing, I just came to see my best friend, it's been long since we did something together, all this time I missed you." He smiled.

"I know, I missed you too. But are you going to tell me the reason why you did what you did? I mean who wants to kill your or whatever and why?" I asked.

"I don't want you to hate me Khushi. I've done some terrible things in my life and if I tell you, you won't understand me so I just can't." He shrugged.

"Okay, if you don't want to tell I won't force, so tell me what did you do today? Did you go out, did something or just stayed home?" I asked.

"I just stayed home, I'm scared of getting out, what if that person finds me?"

"If you see him somewhere you just hide." I giggled.

"I don't know him, I don't know what his face looks like even so how am I supposed to do that?"

"Seriously? You are running away from someone you don't even know? Is that someone even following you or you just have this things in your mind? What's happening Zion?" I looked at him worriedly, he was acting really strange.

Why was everyone acting strange with me today?

"You know what, we are going out tomorrow after I'm back from the university, you aren't going to keep yourself in this house forever and you don't have to fear someone when I am with you." I looked at him seriously.

"I just don't want something to happen to you because of me Khushi."

"Nothing will happen to me Zion, trust me. Anyway I'm hungry let's go have dinner then we can talk later about everything." I stood up, grabbed his hand and pulled him downstairs.

Arnav was already on the stairs when he saw us, and then suddenly his eyes went to our held hands, shit I hope he wasn't going to get angry.

I mean I have always been like this with Zion, I would hold his hand randomly, I would slap him, start a pillow fight with him, there were a lot of things we've done and it was nothing but our friendship and I don't think Arnav was going to understand it.

Maybe I needed to be a bit more careful with things, I dint want to give him reasons to start doubting me again, so I let go Zion's hand and walked towards him, he smiled at me as he pulled me into a hug but I just kind of had an idea that he must be looking at Zion like he'd want to kill him. I was right because when I broke the hug and looked at Zion he did look scared.