Once I arrived home, I headed straight to my room and shut myself inside, I dint feel like talking to anyone at all about anything at all.

I just couldn't even imagine that Arnav could think that way about me, how could my own boyfriend think so low about me? Why were we even together then?

I was so angry and frustrated, I was so fine until he came in my life, I had no relationship no such dramas and now it seemed like my life had taken a three sixty degree turn and it was just messed.

That's what happens doesn't it? you let people in and they destroy you, just like he did to me by saying all those harsh words to me.

"Khushi." I heard Zion's voice outside the door, he knocked twice but I ignored it.

"Khushi we both know I won't leave unless you talk." He said.

"I need to be alone Zion, please leave me alone, I'll talk to you when I feel like." I said.

"I just want to make sure you are okay, are you okay Khushi?" He asked.

"No Zion I am not okay, please just leave me alone, don't ask me anything anymore, I just want to be alone!"

"Okay calm down, I'm going but if you need me you know where to find me." He said and then walked away leaving me alone finally, I lied down on my bed and stared at the ceiling.

All I wanted to do was built trust between us, tell him about my childhood, why it was difficult for me to be so affectionate, I went there to talk to him not to cheat on him with Stefan, I just couldn't get it, how could he think that way about it?

Stefan and I were just friends, I had been very clear to him that I felt nothing towards him but Arnav, we both knew where we stood in each other's life and just because I hugged him to comfort him for the loss he had dint mean I was cheating.

I mean it would have clearly been okay with him if I was hugging Kitty, Bonnie or Caroline, but it wasn't because I hugged Stefan, why because he was a guy? Or because he had feelings for me? it dint change the fact that he was my friend just like the girls were and I have always been the person that cares about all my friends.

If I could fight some idiot guys for bonnie, or do anything possible to find Zion, I could also hug Stefan and comfort him when he had lost someone special to him, it was me being a friend to him and I don't think there was anything wrong about it.

The both of us were mature enough to know that there could never be anything apart from friendship between us.

Another knock at the door of my room disturbed my thoughts again, and now this was making me angry, why couldn't anyone just let me be alone?

"Zion I said I'll talk to you when I feel like, why can't you leave me alone for heaven sake!" I shouted angrily.

"Khushi... It's me." I heard Arnav's voice, I stood up in surprise immediately.

Why was he here after all that he said to me? I thought I made it very clear to him that I no more wanted anything to do with him.

"Can we talk Khushi?" He asked.

"There's nothing left to talk about Arnav, just leave please." I said.

"Khushi, please. Open the door, talk to me once, just once and after that you can do whatever you want to but for once please listen to me." He begged, and that kind of just melted me.

Funny isn't it, how one person had the power to make you a lot of things, happiness, love, pain, anger, frustration and what not. They even have the power to convince you to do something you wouldn't want to.

I walked towards the door and opened it, there he was standing in front of me with both his arms folded, once I opened the door, he grabbed my hand and pulled me outside.

"What are you doing Arnav?" I asked.

"I can't talk to you in here, let's talk outside in the garden please, your family is around, it's going to be uncomfortable talking here." He said.

"You shouldn't have done things that would make you uncomfortable then." I said, he just gave me a strange look but continued pulling me with him until we were out of the house and far away from where anyone could listen to us.

It was so dark outside, why was he even here at this time?

"Why are you here Arnav?" I asked.

"To apologize. I realized what I did and said was wrong." He said.

"Oh was it so? What am I supposed to do with your apology now? You already broke my heart.""Please don't make this difficult for me Khushi, you have to agree it wasn't completely my fault, your behavior recently was so different, it just made me think things I shouldn't have." He looked at me sadly, I never thought there would come a time when I would see the jerk Arnav like this.

"I had reasons for my behavior Arnav and I knew you couldn't trust me until I created that trust for you, that was why I came at your place.

I dint come there to cheat on you with Stefan, I came to talk to you thinking you were home, but you weren't. I found Stefan in the hall crying because he had lost his best friend, I just tried comforting him and what did you do?

You called me characterless, you even thought I was cheating on you. I thought you knew me, I thought you knew what kind of a person I was but despite it all you thought I would sleep with Stefan, like what the hell even?

If I was interested in Stefan I would have been with him Arnav, I wouldn't be here with you, trying to make this relationship between us work when there's nothing that seems to be working anyway." I said.

"I know Khushi, after you left Stefan told me everything and I realized I made a mistake, that is why I am here to apologize. I am really sorry I misunderstood you, I am sorry for all that I said Khushi, believe me I am really sorry.

Khushi look at me, look at who I was before I met you, I was so sure I never wanted a relationship but you came into my life and made me do it so please try to understand me.

It's not easy for me, all this is new to me and I am trying to work on it just as much as you are, I agree I misunderstood things and that's why I am apologizing, can't you forgive me for it?"

I looked at him for a moment, he seemed really sad, he seemed to be regretting this, and although I knew it wasn't completely his fault, maybe my behavior made him question things but instead of calling me characterless and thinking I could sleep with his friend, he would have talked to me and asked me about it.

"You know what Arnav, you are right. It wasn't completely your fault, I should have told you earlier about my behavior but it was something big and I just wanted to be able to trust you enough before I opened that chapter of my life to you. So yes, I forgive you for it.

But I am sorry we can no more be together Arnav, I can understand your anger I can understand somewhere it was my fault but what I can't understand is you calling me characterless.

Even if I was sleeping with ten guys you had no right to judge my character. My parents have always taught me how to be strong Arnav, they've taught me to love myself before I love anyone else and because I love myself so much, I know I don't deserve this, I don't deserve to be called characterless by my own boyfriend.

So I forgive you Arnav and I am sorry for what I did too, but I guess this ends here, it is for the best, we can no more be together."

"Please don't say that Khushi, don't break me like this."

"If you dint want to lose me you should have minded your words Arnav, I have been always very clear of what I wanted in my life, right now I do want you in my life but not the man that called me characterless.

So let's end this on a good note, so that it doesn't hurt either of us yeah? Good bye Arnav." I said as I walked away.

"Khushi, please don't end this. I can't... it's difficult to be without you. Please don't leave... We can try to make this work, just one more chance please... I love you Khushi, please stay." He shouted, his voice was all shaky but I stopped, I stopped at the three words he said.

We were together because despite disliking each other so much there was attraction between us, there was just something we couldn't name and yeah I knew someday we might fall in love, I just dint know he would fall too soon, it was shocking and surprising at the same time. Was it really love or was he just saying it to make me stay?

"IF THIS IS LOVE Arnav, what does it mean to you?" I asked as I turned around to look at him.

"Never giving up." He replied.