I was in my room getting ready for college as usual when mom walked in, I turned to look at her, she smiled at me and I smiled back then continued curling my hair.

She settled down on my bed silently while I kept on waiting for her to say something but she dint.

"Mom, is there anything you want to talk about?" I asked.

"I just wanted to make sure you're doing okay." She said in a sad voice, well I dint know either, was I really doing okay?

The past dint really haunt me as much as I thought it would but maybe that was only because I dint even remember half of it, but I couldn't deny that there were some feelings inside me, I couldn't explain in words, it was just something hurting from inside.

You know like it happens when a person is depressed, there's something making them sad but they don't know what it is, the same way this strange feelings were inside me, hurting me and I dint know how to deal with them.

I did know why they were there, I just dint know how to get rid of them, I don't even know if I was making sense.

"I am okay mom, being the strong Khushi like you and dad wanted me to be." I smiled at her."You sure? You know you can always talk to me or your dad about it."

"Mom, relax, I am okay, don't worry much about me." I smiled at her, she nodded as she stood up and walked out of my room just to come back again in a minute.

"By the way, there's someone here to see you." She smiled cheekily and walked away, I hope it wasn't Arnav but my mom's expressions clearly said it was him.

What was this obsession that my mom and brother had with Arnav? They both thought he was such a great guy only if they knew he was a jerk.

I dint care if he was here, he dint ask me or inform me so I continued curling my hair until I was done and just then Ayush walked into my room.

"You don't want to see, your friend slash friends with benefits slash boyfriend? He's been waiting for you downstairs." Ayush giggled.

"He's none of that to me." I looked at him seriously.

"Still doesn't explain the hickey you had." He giggled as he rushed away, I rolled my eyes and headed downstairs, Ayush had settled down beside Arnav and they both were talking about something.

"Why are you here Arnav?" I asked, I stood in front of him with my arms folded and I tried to look pretty serious but he was dressed in his favorite see through white t-shirt and it brought back a lot of memories of that day when I slept at his house.

To make it worse I don't know what he had done to his hair but it makes him look so hot, I tried not to stare at him but I couldn't stop.

"I wanted to talk to you." He said.

"Then you could have talked to me in college, I wasn't running away."

"It's important Khushi, why are you talking to me like you dint like me coming here at all? Why do you like driving me so crazy?" He stood up and grabbed my waist pulling me closer, he looked at me angrily.

"Umm, can you guy carry on with the romance somewhere else? I'm still a kid, it's not good for me to see such things." Ayush giggled.

I rolled my eyes at him and then grabbed Arnav's arm and pulled him along with me upstairs back to my room.

"Now tell me, what's the important thing you want to talk about?" I asked.

"I remember everything that happened yesterday and I am here to tell you that I meant it. I meant each and every word I said even when I was drunk." He said, he looked at me in a way that felt like he was piercing my body with his eyes, I turned around to look at the opposite side not knowing what to say.

"I already told you the reason why I dint want to date Khushi..."

"So why do you want to date me now." I cut his sentence midway.

"Because of you! Can't you see it this is as difficult for me as it is for you, but I am here trying to tell you that I want to be with you and now you're the one acting like a jerk? Look at me Khushi." He said as he grabbed me and flipped me around so I could face him, he pulled me closer as I crashed on his chest breathing heavily.

Why did he have such an effect on me?

"I need you Khushi, I feel a lot of things for you and I am done denying them, all I want is to be around you even when all I want to do is kill you, do you get me?" He looked into my eyes, damn those beautiful eyes of his.

Stop melting Khushi! He is a jerk, he's always going to be a jerk!

"Khushi, I want a relationship with you, I promise not to touch any other girl or cheat on you, I promise I'll try to make this work, please don't run away from me.

You and I know we both want this but we are too egoistic to accept it, so here I am, keeping my ego aside and telling you that I want this, please give me one chance." He looked at me sincerely and although I was really trying to convince myself not to melt at his words, the way he was looking at me just kind of convinced me.

Why did he have such kind of a power over me?

"We're not going to work Arnav, we hate each other." I said as I tried to pull myself away but he wouldn't just let me go.

"We are going to work if we let our feelings out instead of hiding them because we hate each other. I think I like you Khushi, I really like you, and I just want to be with you." He said.

I stared at him for a moment and thought about this, at this time, I dint even know what I wanted, everything was just complicated, but everything he did and said was just melting me."Please Khushi, don't make me beg to you now." He pouted.

"Okay fine." I laughed at the face he made, he let me go and then suddenly brought his hand towards me again.

"Miss Khushi Singhania, will you be my girlfriend?" He asked.

"That's really cheesy, I hate cheesy." I rolled my eyes at him, he smirked and stepped closer to me, he pushed me towards the nearest wall, grabbed both my hands and pinned them on top, he moved his mouth closer to mine and lightly brushed his lips against mine but dint kiss me.

He moved closer to my ear and brushed his beard on my cheek, damn it Arnav, stop doing this to me!

"Will you be my girlfriend Khushi?" He asked again, I felt like I was short of breaths, I couldn't even speak, he moved his mouth back to mine again, just teasing me continuously by brushing his lips against mine but he wouldn't kiss me.

"Stop torturing me!" I said as I tried to kiss him but he moved backwards and smirked.

"You're the one torturing me." He said, I pouted at him and he laughed, why did he have such a beautiful laughter?

"Yes or no Khushi?" He asked, this time looking deep into my eyes and maybe this was the first ever time in my life that I might have blushed.

Imagine me, Khushi Singhania, blushing like an idiot, all thanks to this jerk.

"Okay Yes." I finally spoke, he dint even let me saying anything else after that, he just grabbed my waist and held me close to his body so tight, and kissed me.

He dint even try to me slow or anything, just fast and rough and I kind of liked it too. I shut my eyes as his lips worked the beautiful magic they always did but just at that exact moment all of those blurry images came up.

Not again! Please not again.

I dint want to ruin this moment, but it dint feel the same anymore, so I slowly pushed Arnav away and turned away from him, why did those blurry images always haunt me like this?

"Shit I'm sorry, you know I didn't do it because I lust for you, I don't lust for you Khushi, I just..." Arnav spoke, I looked at him placing my hand on his mouth to shut him up.

"I know you don't lust for me." I said.

"Then why did you react this way? You've always reacted this way about me touching you, aren't you comfortable with me touching you?"

"It's not about you Arnav, it's just something I cant tell you about it right now, its big for me, and I need time until I can trust you enough to tell you about it. I don't even know if you'll understand me." I giggled.

"I'll understand everything about you, but take your time." He smiled at me, I nodded at him, I hope I could tell him about this as soon as I could, because unless he knew, things were always going to be this way between us.

"Come on, let's go to college together." He smile at me.

"Isn't it going to be weird?" I looked at him nervously.

"It is, but who cares, girls should know you're my girlfriend so they stop throwing themselves at me." He wiggled his eyebrow, I slapped his arm as he pulled me along with him.