My whole body felt different, it was like a whole new me, Arnav was still leaning against me on the wall looking into my eyes intensely and I had no strength in me to push him away, why did this feel so good?

He bent down to my neck and let out a breath, I felt it so intensely it made me take in a deep breath to calm myself down.

He traced a line with his finger from my temple to my cheeks and headed down to my neck, just a simple touch from him and it was making me feel so giddy and so freaking good! Why hadn't I ever felt this way before?

His finger slowly moved from my neck to my arm heading now to my hand, he stopped for a moment and then grabbed both my palms into his and I felt some sort of excitement burst inside me, it was a sort of an adrenaline rush, I couldn't even explain what it felt like.

Once both our hands were entangled, he bent his head to my shoulder and rested it there, all I wanted to do was push him away and run off this place, I never thought a guy could ever make me feel things like this but then maybe I had never been with any guy so I dint know what I was capable of feeling.

As much as I wanted to push him off me, this felt so amazing I wanted it to last forever. I don't even know why I closed my eyes but I did and when I did that, realization dawned upon me, a guy was close to me, this close and it wasn't making me feel good anymore.

There were some really blurry images in my mind, I opened my eyes and Arnav still had his neck on my shoulder, I was just about to push him off me because it went from feeling good to feeling disgusting suddenly but before I could push him away he lifted his head from my neck and looked at me for a moment, and then took a step backward suddenly leaving me baffled.

He smirked at me and turned around to walk away, as for me I was left so surprised with myself that I dint even want to move, my legs were like stuck on the ground, everything was so confusing, every encounter I had with Arnav before or anytime he had touched me it had always felt good, even today it did until something inside me just changed.

He walked back with my keys and stopped in front of me again, he grabbed my hand and I felt a sort of a burning sensation, it wasn't the good electric shocks anymore, why was I feeling this way?

"You know if you don't want to leave, you can stay in my room." He winked at me.

I grabbed my keys from him immediately and walked away, I dint want to be around him anymore because being around him had suddenly changed so much about me.

"Stay away from me Arnav!" I shouted without turning to look at him, when I said it I meant it, I wanted him to stay the hell away from me. I was so angry on him for touching me like that.

I headed straight to my car ignoring Stefan who called out my name twice, I just wanted to get out of this place, I was so damn angry, on Arnav for doing this to me and for me for allowing him to do it to me, since when did I get this weak?

I jumped inside my jeep, switched it on and drove off in full speed, I just wanted to get home and to my room, I was so angry and frustrated, it was the first ever time in forever that I had let myself down, this wasn't me, this wasn't the person I had always been.

*****

I walked inside the mansion hoping no one was home, I really wasn't in the moods of talking to anyone or anything but everything wasn't as I hoped.

When I walked in, I found Bonnie along with Ayush and mom, they were all seated together drinking coffee.

"I don't think it's the right time, someone is burning with rage." Ayush said as he looked at me, no matter how annoying he was or how much we both kept on fighting, Ayush was the only person who would look at my face and tell how I was feeling, I hated that though!

"Did you fight with someone Khushi?" Mom stood up and looked at me worriedly.

"No!" I replied.

"Then what happened?" she asked.

"I don't want to talk about it." I said as I headed upstairs to my room, I sat on bed silently when Bonnie walked in, I knew she was going to come.

"What happened Khushi?" She asked as she settled down beside me.

"Like I said downstairs Bonnie, I don't want to talk about it, tell me why you were here anyway?" I asked trying to change the topic.

"We always come running to you to tell you everything that's wrong in our life but you don't tell us anything, don't you consider us as your friends or what Khushi?" She asked.

"You know it's not that!"

"Then what is it? Arnav?" She asked and I looked at her in surprise, I hadn't even mentioned his name yet she knew it must be him, how?

"I said I don't want to talk about it Bonnie, please can we meet at school tomorrow? I just need to be alone for a while, there's a lot happening in my life at the moment which I need to process."

"As you wish, but remember, if you need someone I'm just a phone call away." She smiled and walked away leaving me alone, I locked the door, changed and jumped on my bed as I shut my eyes trying to think about everything that had just happened.

The moment I remembered Arnav's touch, it came with mixed feelings, it felt good and disgusting at the same time and I couldn't really understand why.

"Khushi, open the door." My mom said as she knocked at the door of my room, I stood up and headed to open the door and then jumped back on the bed.

She walked towards me and sat down beside me.

"What happened Khushi?" She asked, I turned to look at her and found her looking at me worriedly.

"I don't know if I should be telling you this but I don't have anyone to tell. Please don't think about it in a bad way." I said as I sat up and looked at her.

"What is it Khushi?" He asked curiously.

"I went to get my car from Arnav's place and he touched me, I mean not in a really bad way but... it all felt good at first and then I don't know what happened suddenly, I mean at one moment it felt good and then it dint anymore." I said.

She looked at me calmly, she dint even look surprised or shocked, I was so sure it wasn't normal to feel this way, I either should have liked it or shouldn't have liked it but feeling both of it together wasn't normal.

"Did anything else happen?" She asked.

"Yeah, when I closed my eyes I saw something, I can't really figure out what it was, it was just something blurry, something I can't explain."

"Okay." She nodded.

"Mom, why aren't you surprised? Wait, did you know something about this or do you know why I felt this way?" I looked at her curiously.

"I am sorry that you felt that way Khushi but I don't know why you felt that way, anyway I just remembered I had to go somewhere, I'll see you later." She stood up and rushed out of the room, she dint have to even say it but I knew something was wrong with me and she knew it, I could clearly see it in her behavior.

*****

Katherine and I drove to college together as usual, all the way to college she kept on telling how much she liked Damon and how happy she was that they were getting to know each other, I was happy for her but I really dint like Damon, he was just so rude but I was always rude to other people too so maybe he was good to Katherine like I was good to my friends.

After we parked our car, we both headed in different classes, I settled down with my books and the lecturer walked in, the class started in no time.

Gladly neither of the boys nor any of my friends were in this class so I concentrated better, at the end of the class the lecturer told us we'll have an exam tomorrow so we should be prepared.

I had two free lessons so I headed to the library to start preparing for the exam, I hadn't done much reading off late because there was always something going on in my mind.

It was peaceful in the library, there wasn't anyone in apart from the librarian, so I picked a table at the corner and settled down with my books.

I read a few chapters and wrote down some notes, meanwhile a few more students came to the library but gladly they sat on tables away from mine.

After I was done with the revision, I looked at my watch and I still had like twenty minutes before my next class so I leaned on the table and closed my eyes to take a short nap, I hadn't really slept well last night because I had a lot going on in my mind.

The sound of the bell woke me up, I blinked my eyes open and the first person I saw was Arnav, he was seated opposite me staring at me keenly.

I dint even care to ask why he was here, hadn't I told him to stay away from me yesterday? I grabbed my stuff and stood up as I walked away, he followed me and grabbed my hand stopping me.

"What?" I shouted at him angrily, everyone in the library looked at us, to avoid the attention I headed outside and he followed me once again.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" Arnav asked once we were outside.

"Remember me telling you to stay away from me yesterday? I thought we both hated each other Arnav so stop following me around telling me I'm interested in you when you're making me think that maybe you are the one interested in me." I said angrily.

"You know you should really get over yourself, like I said you are just a stupid girl to me, you are so proud of yourself and just because you are gorgeous doesn't mean I'll be interested in you, I'll never be interested in you."

"So why were you here even? Watching me sleep?" I asked, how did he go from calling me ugly to thinking I was gorgeous?

"I wasn't watching you sleep, I thought yesterday we decided I was going to stop being nice to you and I remembered we had a pending fight so I came to tell you about it." He said.

"You know what, I don't want anything to do with you anymore, no fights, no being nice, nothing so just stay away from me!" I shouted.

"Why? Because you're scared of me? Of the way I make you feel? I know how exactly you felt yesterday Khushi!" He shouted, I don't even know if this was the first time he addressed me with my name, but I liked the way he said it, and that's what I dint want, liking things like this because I liked them and then I dint like them and it was confusing me.

"Just stay the hell away from me or I swear I'll kill you!" I warned him.

"Deal, neither do I want to see you again, God! I hate you so much, I dint know I could ever hate anyone as much as I hate you." he said running his hand through his hair, he looked angry and hot!

"The hate is mutual." I said as I walked away from him.