Heroes never seem to have happy endings. My namesake had lucky break that didn't seem to reach me. My bad luck has seemed to reach innocent people. Dead. Because I spread pain, Despair. Death. Fear. I never seem to learn quick enough. But I learn quicker than I have led others to believe. We give laughter to keep hope. We need hope to survive. Pandora never meant harm, but I guess her luck stinks too. The Fates and Tyche are cruel, and I don't know why. But what's a hero to do?

That's what they call me. A hero. Why? All I do is create destruction. That's what my name means. To destroy. And that's what I've done. I lived up to my namesake in one way at least. I've destroyed people's lives, loves, hopes. Yet, I still fight an uphill battle in staying positive. I pretend to be okay to give what I keep destroying. How sick. But what's a hero to do?

No one can find out that I'm hiding. No, not literally. Mentally. I act stupid. But I'm more intelligent than meets the eye. They call me stupid, but for them, it's a one ended play. I give them the false illusion that I am okay. That I'm independent and can take on anything. But I can't. Fear takes me by the hand and pulls me closer and closer by every passing second. I'm going to break one day, showing no one signs of insanity to anyone but me. But what's a hero to do?

I had a step dad. I called him Smelly Gabe because he stunk, and I mean stunk. He was terrible too. Always drinking and playing poker or gambling. He's the reason that I lived a life for the less than rich, if you know what I mean. When my mom left, he would make me provide money or go on errands that would make mom faint or else he would beat me. But I haven't told any of my friends. I don't want them to because afterwards they'll always look at me funny. With pity. But what's a hero to do?

It's all my fault. If I had never showed up to camp. Never led those people to their deaths. Never brought down destruction and despair to those who did nothing but be kind to me. Instead of facing the wrath of those who demand justice, I always somehow put it off to the innocent. I have to pretend to be sane so no one will see their leader go crazy. But what's a hero to do?

What can a hero do, being me?...