Warning: explicit content and mature language.

to ho with es,

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Messenger
Lotte

Ryker:
hey
saw your ig story
punta ka labyrith? :)

Lotte:
HI RY
Yees
Why? punta ka rin ba?

Ryker:
depends

Lotte:
Depends on what?

Ryker:
punta ba si sia?

Lotte:
Yk for someone who gets 1.13 gwa effortlessly, you're bad at names talaga hahaha

di ka ba finu-fuck ng college like us hahahaha

Ryker:
aw :(
i knooow
bumabawi naman yata ako
sa ibang bagay haha 🙏
i think :p

and language po 😔
what is fuck po?
bata pa ako (college na)

Lotte:
Cute mo talaga 🥺
Why are you asking about Ziah?

Ryker:
ah
ziah pala
nice

anw, sasama ba siya?

Lotte:
Maybeee

Ryker:
good
tapusin ko lang itong notes ko
i'll go there :)
[❤️1]

Lotte:
See you 😘
[❤️1]

Ryker:
ingat kayo lateer
[❤️1]

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Chapter 2

There's this discovery that I would like to share with others. Napansin ko kasi na mas maraming magaganda ang nabibingwit ng mga average looking men kaysa sa gwapo na nabibingwit ng mga average looking women. Not that I believe that boys who are considered plain by the society cannot have pretty girls by their side or being average is considered to be derogatory, it is just a hunch that it's because the norm was always the man would court and do the first move to the woman.

Maybe that's also the reason why despite not being the prettiest among the group, ako rin ang kadalasan mapansin ng mga lalaki kaysa sa mga kaibigan ko. It's an observation that I couldn't share with my friends as I believe that it shouldn't be a big deal.

Lotte was intimidating to look at; with her branded purse and her always newly painted nails, boys who cannot handle high maintenance girls would stray away. Si Kelsey naman ay clingy tingnan para sa kanila dahil futuristic siya at madalas ay tungkol na sa pamilya ang topic.

For them, even if I wasn't the prettiest flower among all, I was the easy one to pick. But just because I was the easiest doesn't mean I don't have thorns. The idea doesn't bother me because I don't have high expectations for men. Not when my parents himself was already the lowest of the low. Wala na talaga akong standard para maging point of comparison.

Alam naman nila kung ano ang pinapasok nila sa akin. Anything serious would make me hide from their sight forever.

Agad sinilip ni Ryker ang message ko sa kan'ya. I observed his movement. His fingers slipped upwards to see the notification. Bahagyang nanglaki ang mga mata. Pero bumalik ito sa normal at bumaling siya sa akin.

There was no glimmer of lust or anything from his eyes. Kung titingnan ko nga siya ngayon, para bang normal na ito sa kan'ya. Bumaling lang siya ng tingin sa akin at hindi nagsalita agad.

Fuck.

Did I do the wrong move? Was I too easy for him? There was a risk with what I did, aware ako roon.

I shifted my weight as I maintained my eye contact with him. Kung di n'ya ito kakagatin, ibig sabihin ay masyado akong naging kampante na papatol siya sa akin dahil lang babaero siya. May babaero kasi na kahit sino basta may dalawang paa at nakakalakad, go na agad. Pero may mga babaero rin na pihikan. . .and for the first time, I would admit that a playboy like him made me nervous.

He smiled at me.

"I actually don't know the brand eh," he shrugged off. "But I have a diffuser in my condo. Baka gusto mo tingnan?"

Puta.

Hindi talaga dapat matalino ang mga babaero. This one is fucking smart. Langhap na langhap ko agad ang intensyon n'ya sa kan'yang naging tanong.

It was a question masked as something normal. Pero nagtatanong na siya sa akin kung may consent ba siyang. . .landiin ako. If I say no, ibig sabihin ay wala akong pakialam sa kan'ya but saying yes would also entail that I want to know more about him because I want to see his personal space.

Fuck him. Talaga.

He arched a brow at me which only made me nervous. I hate this. My palms were sweating because for the first time, I didn't know what to answer. I was usually in control of how they would react. Dapat kotse lang ang yaya n'ya o di kaya nearby hotel. Pero tangina? Condo? Eh pang-seryoso yun!

"Sure," I bit my tongue to suppress the adrenaline forcing itself to mix with my words. "I'd love to know what scent it is."

Ngumiti siya sa akin, his eyes slowly reaching his ears as if he knew he won this round. Umiling-iling pa siya na para bang natatawa. The small smile slipping through his lips made my head boil.

"Okay, sabay ka sa akin mamaya?" suhestiyon n'ya pa.

Kelsey was eyeing me but she briefly nodded. "Ry, ikaw na bahala kay Ziah ah. Baka pupunta na rin ako kay Lots."

Nagkatitigan kami ni Kels. She winked at me as if she knew what she needed to do. Napaawang naman ang labi ko. I didn't want to look like I badly wanted this.

The thing about my friends, we don't believe in attachments. Pupusta ako na kahit crush pa nila si Ryker kung nakita nilang mas interesado ito sa akin, they wouldn't make a fuss about it. Alam naman kasi nilang hindi naman one of a kind ang sandata nito kay Ryker, isang swap nga lang sa Bumble ay makakahanap na agad sila.

Hindi tumagal ang gabi dahil umalis na rin agad kami ni Ryker. Sinundan ko siya pero mabilis siyang maglakad. It was probably because of his damn long legs. Napansin n'ya na hinahabol ko siya kaya naman huminto siya.

"After you. . ." aniya at pumuwesto sa likuran ko. "Dito na lang ako para kita pa rin kita."

I scoffed, "Hindi mo naman ako kailangan bantayan."

"Oh," he smirked. "But I actually like seeing you. . ."

Napalunok ako nang wala sa oras. Parang may bakal ako nilunok dahil hindi ako nakapagsalita agad. Hindi ko na nga namalayan na nakarating na kami sa parking at sa Range Rover n'ya.

"Para sa isang tarantado, ang tino ng sasakyan mo," sabi ko sa kan'ya nang makasakay sa sasakyan n'ya.

"What tarantado?" He asked as soon as he was able to sit in the driver's seat. "I haven't even done anything yet."

"Ay, edi may balak ka nga?"

"Sa tingin mo?" Balik n'ya sa akin, a small smile plastering on his face.

Para akong makinang tumitigil sa paggalaw kapag nakikita ko ngiti n'ya. Hindi ko alam kung ganito ba epekto ng gayuma sa tao pero ang lala. I know. . .he's not serious and neither am I. Pero kumakabog ang puso ko dahil kinakabahan ako. Unlike my usual flirty encounter, ngayon lang ako mukhang nawawalan ng control.

Nagulat ako nang buksan n'ya ang makina pero hindi pa siya humarurot. Humarap siya sa akin at tumingin sa katawan ko. Nanuyo ang laway ko dahil napapamura talaga ako kapag tumatama ang tingin n'ya sa akin. There's something about his eyes that's just gets me everytime.

Fuck.

Dito ba?

Sa sasakyan!?

"Hey—"

Tinuro ni Ryker yung seatbelt n'ya at inosenteng inabot sa akin yung seatbelt para sa akin. Kinabit na n'ya ito kaya naman agad na uminit ang mga pisngi ko.

"Para namang ngayon ka lang nakasakay," halakhak ni Ryker at may isang ngiti na namang naglalaro sa labi n'ya. "First time mo?"

Tarantado! Nagiinit ang dugo ko sa lalaking ito at gusto ko na sana bumaba pero. . .I wanted to test myself. Nandito naman na ako, sagarin ko na! YOLO na lang!

We went to his condo, sa may Pasig. Sa Tower A siya kaya naman mabilis lang kaming nakarating. Sa may lift pa lang ay di na ako mapakali. Habang si Ryker ay kalmado lang habang nakasandal pa sa handrails ng elevator. Sinilip ko siya dahil nag-re-reflect sa salamin ng lift yung itsura namin.

Nakatingin lang din siya sa akin. Umiwas ako ng tingin at narinig ang matunog n'yang tawa. It reverberated through my ears. Kahit pagtawa n'ya parang praktisado na maging gwapo!

"Bakit parang kabado ka? Takot ka ba sa diffuser?" tanong n'ya sa akin kahit nakatalikod ako sa kan'ya.

"Depende, malaki ba yun?"

"What?" Tawa n'ya. Hindi pa rin natatanggal ang mapaglarong ngiti sa labi n'ya. Ang gwapo talaga, puta.

"Depende nga kung malaki ba yung di," I let the 'ck' sound slip over my mouth. "Ffuser mo?"

"Edi tingnan mo," lumapit siya sa akin at ang titig ay nasa akin lang nakatuon. "P'wede mo naman hawakan para makita mo."

Tangina. Hindi talaga siya marunong mag-back out. Patalo ka naman, kuya! Ako na ang tumigil dahil kawawa naman kung sa lift pa may maganap sa aming dalawa. I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if that happens!

As soon as we got on his floor, I noticed how it looked like a hallway made for hotels. The lights were in the hue of orange and yellow, may carpet ang mismong dinadaanan namin. So I could probably conclude that he's rich, huh?

We stopped on a door, kaya naman tiningnan ko na siya. Nakita ko roon na may door lock siya doon na may passcode. Sinilip ko si Ryker at nakatingin lang siya sa akin.

"Put it on," bulong n'ya sa akin. "0109."

"Capricorn ka?" tanong ko sa kan'ya, I assumed it was his birthday.

"Yeah," tumango siya.

"Are you not scared that I might rob you? Sinabi mo agad passcode mo?" Ngumisi ako sa kan'ya.

"Hmm?" He chuckled lightly. "Kung ikaw ang sasalubong sa akin sa loob palagi, baka maging homebody ako bigla. Di na ako lalabas ng unit ko. Araw-arawin na lang kita."

"What?"

"Araw-arawin kitang tutulungan magnakaw sa unit ko," he smiled playfully.

Umirap ako at tinulak na ang pinto upang bumukas. I was expecting his unit to be unruly but damn it, it was too neat! Ang mga magazines sa center table ay maayos ang pagkakalagay. The placements of his furniture looked like it came out straight from a house catalog and truth to be told, may diffuser nga talaga siya! Amoy na amoy ko ang lavender at mint na kanina pa kumakapit sa akin dahil kasama ko si Ryker.

"Ang linis ng unit mo ah?"

"Yes," he agreed. "Guluhin natin?"

"What?" Bumaling ako ng tingin sa kan'ya agad.

Umupo siya sa sofa nya. He scooted over to the side to give space for me. "Upo ka, hindi naman kita kakainin kaya 'wag ka masyadong uptight."

I stared at him blankly. Pero sinunod ko pa rin naman siya. Hindi ko alam bakit. . .nagiging alipin ako ng mga salita n'ya.

"I have an extra diffuser and scented candles as well, i-uwi mo na lang," sabi n'ya habang inaabot yung remote ng aircon upang buksan ito. "Kumain ka na ba? I can prepare something if you're hungry."

"Cut the chase," sabi ko saka pumatong sa kan'ya. I tightened my thigh against his waist and made him look up to me. "May pasok pa ako bukas."

Bahagya siyang natawa, but his expression gradually softened. Ang amo rin talaga ng mukha ng isang ito kaya naman di ko masisisi na kahit alam naman naming babaero siya. . .we would still want to get a taste even if it's bad for the heart.

I can feel his huge hands slowly finding its way to my undergarments. Ramdam ko rin ang titig n'yang inaalam kung paano ako mahuhubaran agad. His eyes were roaming around my body as his hands slipped underneath my skirt.

"Same, actually," halakhak n'ya. "You sure you don't want to take this slow? I actually wanted to go slow on you."

His breathing was uneven against my skin as I started to kiss him on his neck up to his chin and I even looked at him in his eyes while wrapping my hands around his shoulders. His lips started to move against my lips, napapikit ako nang maramdaman ang halik n'ya. It was a long and deep kiss, his tongue slipping through my teeth. He made me reclined as he started to follow what I did by making his kisses travel down my neck.

He moaned against my lips so I smirked then teased his manhood by gliding on it more even against the fabric of his pants.

"Why moan? Wala pa nga," I laughed teasingly.

"Human nature, sabi mo nga," he said, using the same excuse that I gave him.

I tsk-ed then started to get my body closer to his. Mas ramdam ko na ang init ng katawan n'ya. Mas lalo siyang kumapit sa akin, his biceps making its presence known to me.

"I'll move us to my bed," paalam n'ya sa akin. "Wouldn't want to do it on the sofa."

"Why?" I asked him, my voice turning hoarse.

"Next time na yun, sa kama muna," he chuckled then lifted me, mas hinigpitan ko ang kapit ng mga legs ko sa baywang n'ya. He lifted me as if I was as light as a feather.

Dahan-dahan n'ya akong nilapag sa kama n'ya. The lights were still off but he was able to undress me so quickly. Ang mga kamay ko ay nakataas habang tinatanggal n'ya ang aking damit. We were still fighting by using our tongues and lips. He slowly kneads my breast upon undressing me completely.

I moaned as I felt his dog tag touching my skin. The coldness of the metal made me shiver and made me realize how close he was to me.

"Two," mahinang bulong n'ya.

"What?" naliliyong tanong ko dahil sa pinaggagawa n'ya sa akin.

"Dalawang beses na kita napaungol," he said as he removed my skirt.

Ngayon ko lang napagtantuan na hubad na talaga ako pero siya? He was still fucking dressed. Nagulo lang ang damit n'ya pero wala pa akong nahuhubad.

"Fuck you, binibilang mo?" I glared at him.

"Yeah. . ." He nodded as he started to kiss me down. . .there. "I have a goal, you see. . ."

"W-what?" I whimpered against his touch.

"I want to lose count of how many times. . .you can moan under me," he chuckled as I felt the pad of his fingers touching my womanhood.

Napapikit na lang ako. . .I was going to be the one who will get fucked really bad. For the very first time!