"KATSUKI!" I busted in through countless rooms, pulling down the hospital curtains in a frantic search for him. It's all my fault, I thought. I couldn't protect him just like I couldn't back before with all my friends... I can't make the same mistake anymore.

I searched through the hospital head to toe, not knowing where or what I was doing? My feet started to hurt from running without any shoes, it felt like they were burning. I was stuck on just finding him, and I won't stop until I do. I could hear my family running behind me, trying countless things to stop me and calm me down. But I dodged all their moves and just kept searching. I could feel he was close but it feels unbearable that I can't see him. I busted open another door, pulled down the curtain and for a moment, I think my heart had stopped. I held his hand tightly and fell on my knees with tears streaming down my face.

"Katsuki.... I.... I'm so sorry." There were so many things going through my head at that moment. I didn't want to look at him, I didn't want to take another look of what I had done. I walked away without a scratch, so why couldn't I protect him instead of myself?!! "I'm useless, Weak, Pathetic, Unworthy, JUST ANOTHER COWARD! How can I not protect the people I love?! Why?!" I felt the hand leave my grasps and wipe my tears. I didn't look up to see the pain in his eyes.

"Shinoa..." I closed my eyes shut tight trying not to see him. "Shinoa, are you... Ok?" I still kept my eyes shut and tried not to cry anymore. How can he ask if I'm ok when he's injured like this. "Shinoa... can you hear me?..." I could hear the weakness in his voice. I nodded while I slowly kneeled onto the floor next to his bed. "Shinoa, it's not your fault... stop blaming yourself for everything." I still wouldn't dare to look at him, how could I? I dragged him into my mess. "Shinoa, you can open your eyes, I'm ok." I couldn't bare to see him again. I stood up trying hard not to cry as he tilted his onto his side. I was about to walk away when he held back my hand. "Don't leave.." I can't ... I can't face him. "Shinoa... who's going to annoy me until I get better? Come on, it's ok, you didn't do this to me, you can look at me..." Slowly I turned around to see him smile for the first time. His lungs were crushed so he was breathing through pipes and tubes. He looked like almost every bone he had was broken. His right side of his face was both burnt and broken and he also had an eyepatch. Only his left arm wasn't so bad. His legs were completely flat covered with a blanket. I was hoping for them to be looking like that just because it was under the blanket.

"How can you smile when you're in so much pain?" I cried. He held my hand tighter and weakly pulled me closer to him. I kneeled down on the ground next to his side and squeezed his hand tightly bringing it up to my lips. "Just get better then we can go hunt down those ducks who did this." I joked. He managed a small, weak giggle,"I'd like that." He said as he slowly went back to sleep.

"Shinoa!" Shouto called as he ran in with my family and Isuku behind him. "Are you alrigh-" he stopped once he saw my bleeding feet. He walked out of the room and came back with bandages and antibacterial spray and helped me sit onto the chair. He treated my feet and carefully wrapped it neatly. "Are you alright?" I didn't hear him, I was paying attention to Katsuki the whole time. For me, he feels like my only friend left in this world. Shouto lifted my chin to face him and he smiled slightly,"you're ok, right?" I looked down at my hands and replied,"I feel like a monster again, I couldn't protect the people I loved." Why is it so hard to get over? I've lost so many friends already. He's just another friend, why is this feeling worst than any I've ever felt before.

Shouto gave me a hug and patted my head. "You? A monster? I think you better go check your eyes." He held my shoulders and looked me in the eye. "I'll stay with you if you're staying back with Katsuki. Ok?" He wiped my tears and I managed a smile. I nodded as he turned my chair around to brush my crazy knotted hair. He tied it up and then everyone went to get me lunch while Isuku stayed back. He grabbed a chair and sat in front of me.

"You know? Katsuki and you bullied me for a long time. Honestly I was happy when you had lost your memories since I would have 1 less bully to torment me very day haha. I always thought ever since I was a kid if Kacchan would ever be loved seeing he was always angry. But seeing your love for him, it made me realise I guess anything can happen." I looked at Izuku and said,"I See nothing but a hero in you Izuku Midoriya, you're purer than gold. Don't let others put yourself down for being useless. I can see it crystal clear. Also I don't love Katsuki, he's an asshole. I'm just upset I couldn't protect him." We both laughed and I thought, maybe it's not so bad here for a moment. But then a thought came to me.

"Ryūketsu?"

"Yes Master"

"Can you help Katsuki completely recover? Make sure not even 1 vein in his body is still broken."

"That would be a bit difficult. His injuries are quite severe and you aren't used to this new body yet, I'm afraid you aren't as strong as you used to be. Using that amount of blood will surely put you out for a while."

"That's fine with me. "

"As you wish..."

Soon everyone except Shouto and I left. I tried out my dark magic and created a bed for Shouto and MAN AM I EXHAUSTED FOR MAKING ONE BED. I guess I seriously need to recover from everything... I sat by Katsuki's side holding his hand for a few hours hoping he'd wake up so I could tell him things to make him feel better. "Shinoa, you should go to sleep, let Bakugou rest."

"It's fine, I'm used to no sleep. Besides, that one bed is for you" I yawned and spoke,"I'll stick with Katsuki." He shook his head in denial and carried me onto the bed and tucked me in. "Hey, I said I don't wanna sleep!"

"Yes, I got your message, just do me a favour and count to 30."

"Fine.... 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7.., 8.., 9..., 10......."