Nothing, Alex could do nothing even if his feelings were returned. He could never have John. It was not acceptable, it was a horrible sin. How does something so horrible taste so good. How does he resist those lips if they felt so good? Yes, he had times like that with his wife but they didn't feel as good as they did when he was with John.

He knew it was wrong, he had a wife, a child, a life, an honor he had to protect. Society wouldn't accept him if he liked john openly. He wished he didn't like the sweet boy. Why did he love him? John walked into his heart uninvited.

It wasn't fair!! Alex growled shoving his papers off his desk. Causing a storm of work to fly everywhere. John was perfect in every way. He was beautiful every way possible, his eye's sparkled, his smile lit up the room, his giggle was like music to Alex's ears. He was all Alex wanted. Why couldn't Alex have him?

John's mind was scattered as he rushed past other men. No one noticed him....what the hell? What was going on? Tears filled his baby blue eye's. As he ran to his tent.