Penelope's POV

"I've got to focus on the here and now!" I tried to tell myself calmly as I headed in to the Pit where Callie was. I was in her service today, I don't mind working in the pit, it was kind of a less chaotic day unless an emergency comes in, not to forget that Callie always manages to distract me from my thoughts and that's good, not to mention that she's a good friend too.

"Where do you need me?" I asked Callie who looked up.

"That little boy over their, I'll be with you soon" Callie smiled to me I headed over to the young boy who was about five and you could tell his arm was severely broken, he also had some cuts on his which some may need stitches.

"Hi. I'm Dr. Grey, you can call me Nellie, it'll stop any confusion later on if you meet my sisters who are also Dr. Grey. Both of them" I smiled to the young boy

"Three Grey Doctors. That's awsome" giggled the young boy. I nodded as I smiled at him, I would do anything to try and help him relax

"What's your name buddy" I then asked the boy who looked scared and I could tell that he was scared

"Joesph, where's my mommy" the boy who I now knew to be Joseph asked as well as he asked where his mom was.

"I'm Joseph's stepfather! We're here for you to treat him not to talk!" Joseph's stepfather began before turning to Joseph.

"Your moms at work you know that Joesph" Joseph's stepfather practically napped which I noticed made him flinch, I felt sorry for him as I could tell by the look in his eye that he was scared.

"Sir could I as you to wait outside while I treat Joseph, as you can see it's busy in here and I would like to be able to hear myself think and hear Joseph talk to me without you practically shouting at him" I said with a fake smile, I wanted to get Joseph alone so I could make sure my suspicions are correct before I even think about bringing anyone in.

"You can't tell me what to do! Joseph is my stepson I have just as much right to be here and talk to him how I please" Joseph's Stepdad glared at me which made me role my eyes, how could be so obnoxious, so rude!

"Mr..." I began realising I wasn't sure what his name was.

"Coulson, Aston Coulson" he answered. That was when it hit me, the last name. It may only be a coincidence but the young girl from yesterday and her family were last named Coulson. It was probably nothing but Aston was giving me weird looks which made me think he didn't like me.

"I respect that you are who's stepdad but i need space and quite while I stitch up the cuts on his head. Now please step outside please" I said as calmly as I could, I could tell Joseph was in pain and I needed to treat him

"Wait you are the doctor who let my sisters daughter die!" Aston said as he read my name badges I rolled my eyes as I started to think that I was never going to be able to forget yesterdays events.

"I didn't let your sisters daughter die, I ran all the test but I'm not discussing that with you, now let me do my job!" I raised my voice which caught Callie's attention and she began walking over to me.

"Sir let Dr Grey do her job!" Callie said, I was annoyed that I wasn't able to do my job without him getting in the way. He glared at me and I knew I shouldn't trust him. In fact I didn't trust him, not one little bit.

"Thank you for that Callie" I smiled to her as Aston walked of so I could treat Joesph.

"Sorry about my stepdad" Joseph said shyly as i turned back to him. I gave Joseph a small smile

"It's fine kiddo, how did you do this?" I asked Joseph who looked down, he looked scared and I wanted to make him feel better.

"Whatever happened will be okay, I won't tell him you told me" I said to Joseph who looked up to me and then back down

"It'll be okay. You can tell me" I said softly to him again, If Joseph was in danger I was going to have to report it, even if he doesn't say much I still need to report it. I'm not letting another child die because I was not quick enough to figure out what was going on.

"He was angry, Mom said she was working late, I wanted her. He pushed me down the stairs because I wasn't listening to him. It's my fault really" Joseph frowned, I shook my head as I frowned. No child should think it's their fault for being abused.

"Don't ever think it's your fault Joseph, it's not. He shouldn't have pushed you but I do have to report this" I told him in a soft and gentle tone, I wanted to reassure him

"He won't know you told me" I reassured Joseph while i began to stitch his head.

"He will be angry. My mom is scared of him" Joseph said, he winced as I continued to stitch his head up.

"I'm just going over their to talk to my friend. I'll be right back" I said softly as I continue to reassure the young boy who nodded.

"Dr. Torres, can we talk in private for a minute" I asked Callie who nodded. The two of us went to one side.

"I think we have a case of child abuse. Joseph told me that his step father pushed him down the stairs" I said which made Callie nod again. The two of us both agreed that calling social services and the police was the right way to go and that's what we did. I hoped that we were able to protect Joseph and his mother from Aston. I knew for sure that I wouldn't be able to cope if I found out that Joseph had been hurt again.

"We will habe to take yo to have a little operation later on and fix that arm of yours but we will have to talk to your mommy when she gets here" I smiled to Joseph.

"Thank you Dr. Nellie" Joseph said before I began to head to continue with my morning. For not I just had to get on with work and treating people who were coming but with the loudness in my head and the thoughts of Joseph it was definitely going to be hard for me to continue to focus on now. It was hard to focus at all if I was honest but I'm a doctor and I have to push through.

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It was a hour and half until lunch, I needed to pop to the toilet.

"Callie, I'll be back in five" I said to Callie, she nodded and I quickly made my way to the toilets which were down the corridor from the pit.

After I went to the toilet I washed my hands, adjusted my scrubs and headed back to the pit for the last hour or so before lunch, their was a hour or so until I spoke to my sister and that was freaking me out. I felt myself become more and more anxious as I thought about talking to Lexie about my mental health, I knew she wouldn't judge me yet I was still terrified and anxiously

"Dr Grey, 67 year old male, bed 4" I listened to Callie as I headed over to find out who needed to be seen next. I then went over to the man who was sitting on a bed

"Aren't you abit young to be a doctor? I want someone with more experience" the" the old man said rudely, i mean I was young but I was hard working and determined to prove to people that I'm not a bad doctor because I'm young.

"Mr..." I began before I looked down at the chart with his details on so I could figure out his name.

"Mr Stone, I'm a medical intern with a photographic memory, I have experienced and I know what I'm doing, I would appreciate it if you let me do my job and find out why you have injured yourself today!" I said to the man who frowned but then he smiled

"Sorry Doctor Grey" he said like he was a naughty child and it made me smile.

"It's fine. Can you tell me what was happening before you had the fall?" I then asked the man who looked confused. I was suspecting something with his brain

"I was changing a light bulb for my daughter, everything went fuzzy and I felt dizzy then the next thing I knew I was on the floor, I'm sorry I don't remember anything else" the old man said while he tried to think what else had happened.

"Dad!!" A woman's voice practically shouted as she ran in, she went straight to her fathers side, she was the mans daughter but I had no idea what her name was.

"I'm fine Rosie. What have you done with the children?" The man asked the woman I now knew to be called Rosie.

"They are with Melissa and Toby" Rosie said before turning to me.

"Sorry, I'm Rosie, his daughter. Do you know what has caused the fall?" Rosie asked me and I shook my head as I hadn't been able to examine him yet.

"I was just asking your father what had happened, he doesn't remember much I was wondering if you could tell me what you saw happen?" I asked Rosie who nodded.

"Dad was complaining of having a bad head for awhile, maybe 3 days now. He lives at home on his own so my husband and I invite him round every day. Dad offered to change the light bulb in the kitchen but I said Oliver, my husband would do it when he gets home from work, dad got the ladder out and did it himself but he fell. I guess he kind of went stiff but as he fell he hit his head on the kitchen counter" Rosie explained and I nodded writing everything, i was going to send Mr Stone for a CT scan and a MRI. I was also going to bring Derek in on the case.

"what else can you tell me about your father? Has he been acting differently?" I asked thinking that the man may have a brain tumour but i obviously had to run the scans and tests.

"Okay I'm going to run some tests and probably will have to admit your father for the night but I'll let you know if that is the case" Penelope smiled to Rosie and her father and they both thanked be. I quickly ordered the scans and paged Derek

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The hour seemed to fly past and it was filled with me running tbe tears and calling Derek to watch the scans. I had noticed some abnormalities, or should I say one main abnormalitie which was a mass. I suspected a brain tumour.

"I think Mr Stone has a brain tumour, from the scans and tests it looks like it. Am I wrong?" I asked Derek who looked at the scans.

"You've got a eye all things neuro." Derek told Me and I let a small smile form on my face. I wasn't sure on my speciality yet but I'd I had to chose it would most definitely be between Neurosurgery and Pediatric Surgery, it's the choice of brains or children but the question is which do I go for.

"Thanks" was all I said. I didn't feel like I was a good doctor especially after yesterday events and the stepfather of young Joseph this morning. I felt useless to say the least.

"I'm going to book Mr Stone in for surgery tomorrow, would you like to scrub in?" Derek asked me.

"I would love to, but are you sure you want me?" I asked him

"Of course I do. You have a talent for all types of surgery and you definitely have a talent for Neuro" Derek smiled.. we finished talking and I was now heading to the canteen to meet her for lunch, I was going to be late meeting her but I was busy discussing a paitent and that's what being a doctor is all about. I still wasn't sure how to start the conversation with Lexie so I was going to have to wing it.

"Sorry I'm late, I was with Derek discussing a paitent" I said sitting down beside Lexie who had gotten me a salad

"I got you a salad, thought you'd like something light" Lexie said, she, knew me so well.

"Thanks Lex' I was going to definitely have a salad" I said using another nickname which i often called my twin.

"What did you want to talk about then? Is everything okay between you and Dr.Robbins? Or you and Meredith?" Lexie asked me, I could tell she was conserned about me especially because of the questions she asked

"Everything is fine with Arizona and the same Mer" I said pausing I still didn't know what to say. I mean my brain was a mess and even doing my job was getting hard.

"it's about me" I said with a small sigh, I wasn't totally sure what else to say, it was all jumbled even as I tried to think of how to word it all. This was it, I was about to tell my twin all about my mental health, she obviously knew I suffered with depression but what she didn't know was I had stopped taking my meds, I wasn't well mentally that is and I needed to tell someone, if not for me but for the sake of my job.

"What's wrong Nellie' whatever it is I'm here. You don't have to go through it alone" Lexie said softly to me. I could feel my heart racing in my chest as I tried to think of the right words to say

"I've stopped taking my meds, I.. I don't trust them. I'm hardly eating too, I can't everything is poison. I don't know what to do Lex' I can't tell Arizona because she'll look at me differently, she'll look at me as if I'm vulnerable or I'm crazy and I don't want that, she makes me so happy but right now I don't feel happy or even safe." I admitted to my sister who nodded.

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Lexie's POV

Nellie told me it was about her, that she was the reason that she wanted to talk. I had guessed she was bad again, that her mental health was terrible again. I thought things were going to be good again after she got with Arizona, she seemed so happy. I thought she was happy.

"I should have asked talk about it sooner" I said softly to Penelope who looked down while stabbing her salad

"It's not your fault Lex' don't ever think it's your fault" Penelope asked me. The two of us spoke for a little while but I didn't realise how bad Penelope had gotten with her eating, I hadn't witnessed this since we were teenagers before she ended up in hospital. I should have noticed something sooner, I should have realised that Penelope was struggling again, but she also told me she hadn't been taking her meds, surely I should have noticed that but I didn't.  I watched as her hands shook as she ate a bit of lettuce, it was hard to watch but hopefully her talking to a professional will be a step in the right direction, a step toward her recovery once again.

"I'm always here Nellie, always" I told Penelope as I held her hand after we had booked her an emergency appointment with one of the physiatrists at the hospital, it was for 2:30pm which have her half an hour after the session to find me and us to talk it through before she had to scrub in on the surgery at 4pm. For now we had to find Bailey to tell her about Penelope's appointment but it was surely going to be fine, Mental Health comes first after all..

"I know Lex, I love you" Penelope gave me a hug before we found Bailey

"I love you too Nellie" I reminded my twin just to give her extra comfort, she needed me more than ever and I wasn't about to let her go through the storm alone I never would.

After all twins stick together through thick and thin and that's how Penelope and I have always been, together.

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Penelope's POV

The hard part was over. Starting the conversation about my mental health, yes it was hard but I had managed. That was the start and that is all that mattered

"Nellie' why didn't you talk to me sooner. I could have helped you through it" Lexie said taking my hand in her own. I looked back down, unsure what I was me at to say.

"I'm sorry Lexie' I thought I could manage myself" i sighed and Lexie nodded.

"I know you probably don't want to but you have to talk to someone, make an emergency appointment for this afternoon, i know your scrubbing in on a surgery but you need to talk to someone" Lexie said calmly to me and I could feel myself starting to panic

"I can't Lexie! They will section me. I'll end up in hospital myself. I can't" I panicked, my breathing quickened as Lexie tried to calm me down.

"Nellie' look at me!" Lexie said to me and I slowly looked up and faced Lexie.

"They won't section you Nellie' your not a danger to yourself or anyone else. It'll just be a talk with a professional. Sort things out for you. I'll come with you to book it and talk to Bailey about a hour off and you can come to find me after the session with the physiatrist and talk about how it went. I'm not leaving you to go through it alone Penelope, I promice" Lexie said to me and I knew this was right so I slowly nodded, I mean I had to do this for my sister and deep down I was doing this for myself.

"Okay, but im doing this for you" I said quietly while Lexie smiled

"First please eat something please, you need to keep to keep your strength up" Lexie asked me. I looked back down to the salad which I had been been stabbing, I glanced up to Lexie who looked worried.

"Don't eat it! It's poisoned" a voice seemed to shout at me in my own head. I looked back up to my sister once again

"Even if it's a bit of lettuce" Lexie said softly so me nodded. I slowly picked up some of the lettuce as my hand shook, with my hand shaking I popped the lettuce into my mouth

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