''This is the last one, my sweet lover boy. This is a special one for me and part of it has to do with you. This is How To Save a Life by The Fray. The lead singer, Isaac Slade, was mentor on a camp for troubled teens and he was a mentor for a particular boy. That boy had lots of problems and his family told him to quit it or they wouldn't talk to him again. The song is for people who tried to reach out for the boy but were unsuccessful and that's kind of what was happening to me, but I didn't have the same problems as that 17 year old boy.

[note: if you don't know about this it is actually true, Isaac has said it tons of times on interviews. look it up if you want]

''I was going through problems at the time. Everyone tried to talk to me but no one could figure it out. I was feeling sad and couldn't tell why. I lost friends that gave up on me and never cared about me, I lost hope in tons of stuff and suddenly everything became grey. Everyone had given up on me, I even felt like my family gave up. Michael and Calum still came over everyday to distract me but it wouldn't work. But then you came.

Ashton's voice was breaking when he talked, it was clear that he was crying while saying that.

''I-I'm not going to say that you fixed me, we talked about that already and I agreed with you. You helped me saving my own life when I was at the ed-edge, you were the one who didn't give up on me even when all I wanted to do was p-pull my hair and cry. You were the one who held me when I was having a hard time and was willing to come at random times in the morning just because I wasn't feeling alright. I thought things would have been weird since we had kissed a few months before but they weren't. You didn't fix me, you helped me recovering and believing in myself.

''I love you so much Luke, thank you for making me believe in a better life. Thank you for not giving up on me along with Mikey and Calm and thank you for being the most amazing, generous, wonderful person I have ever met.'' Ashton sighs and sniffs ''God, I'm being weird now. I love you so much. Thank you.''

Luke wiped his tears and the song started. He smiled, glad that Ashton was a happy and cheerful guy now, sometimes too much but that's why he loves him.

[To: Ashton❤]

I love you, so so so so much ❤x

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epilogue is the next chapter :')

-ana rita