Harrys POV
Something hits me into my stomach. It is Lou laying over me - again. He does it about 5 times a night because he wants to 'cuddle'.
"I'm sorry babe", Louis says sleepy, „How late is it? I don't wanna get up"
„It is just 4 a.m. you can sleep Lou"
He can but I can't. I need my space for sleeping and Louis takes the whole bed. Of course it's sweet but I can't live like that forever.
„Love you Haz" he says and reaches over to give me a kiss.
„I also love you Lou but I need to cover up. I'm freezing"
He laughs, „I said you shouldn't sleep naked sweety"

Louis POV
There's a wonderful smell of ham and eggs. Slowly I'm getting out of bed to get dressed.
„Lou breakfast's ready!"
„Yeah! I'm coming hope there are no avocados?!"
Harrys laughing at me. But as I look at him I know that somethings wrong.
„Harry? What's wrong?"
"I donno Lou. I am kind of in Payne but I don't know why. Maybe I have a bad day"

Harry's diary
I lied to Lou. I want to hurt myself. I hurts that I don't do it. But I don't want to make him mad...

Louis' POV
I know something is wrong. And I hate that he won't tell me!
"Harry. Tell me immediately what is wrong! I f*cking hate if you do that!"
Hazza looks scared, "Lou I'm fine. I just had a bad night, you know?"

Harry's diary
The next time Louis goes somewhere I'm going to do it. Again. I hate myself. I better be dead...