❝𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘬𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 // 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘭𝘰𝘸𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘪𝘴 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩❞

ꨄ

𝗝𝗨𝗡𝗘 𝟮𝟴𝗧𝗛 , 𝟮𝟬𝟮𝟯
𝗟𝗢𝗦 𝗔𝗡𝗚𝗘𝗟𝗘𝗦 , 𝗖𝗔𝗟𝗜𝗙𝗢𝗥𝗡𝗜𝗔
𝟮:𝟱𝟭 𝗣𝗠

The kiss with Leah had plagued Kiana's mind since it happened. Kiana fought with herself on whether she should tell Julien or not, but Kiana decided not to. What Julien didn't know couldn't hurt her.

That day Josette had invited Kiana out for lunch, which allowed Kiana to avoid Julien for a couple hours.

"You're quieter than usual, is something bothering you?"

Kiana desperately wanted to tell somebody about Leah and about the kiss, but she knew she couldn't do that without messing things up again. "Let's say, hypothetically of course, I did something really bad. Would Julien hypothetically hate me?"

"Depends" Jo answered, "What'd you hypothetically do?"

She stayed quiet for a moment, contemplating if Kiana should tell Jo about the kiss, but she decided to only partially tell them the truth. "I saw my dad in Nashville. He had a beautiful wife and two adorable twin boys"

"And you hate him for that?" Jo questioned, which Kiana nodded to. "I still don't understand what you did"

"Ever since then I've been going to a bar and having a few drinks. Julien's been on my ass about it so I haven't spoken to her in a while"

"Isn't she staying with you until August?!"

"Shut up, okay? Not all of us shine at holding down a stable relationship"

"Kelli and I communicate, which you and Julien don't seem to do" Josette stated.

Kiana thought about what her best friend had said, it never dawned on her that lack of communication is what broke her and Julien up in the first place. "So I should talk to her?"

"No shit"

Kiana nodded, although she knew that she wasn't going to talk to Julien about her kiss with Leah. Kiana kept the same mindset she had when she had first met Leah; what Julien doesn't know couldn't hurt her.

That evening when Kiana got back home after being out with Jo, she decided to tell Julien about her dad instead of Leah. Kiana set her keys down on the kitchen counter before calling out her girlfriends name, but there was no response. Kiana let out a soft chuckle and shook her head when she saw Julien fast asleep on the sofa with a book on her chest.

The brunette walked over to her girlfriend and gently took the book out of her hands, which awakened Julien.

"Oh, hey," Julien mumbled, "You're back"

"I am" Kiana took a seat beside Julien who began to sit up. "I'm sorry for ignoring you, I was just angry about my dad and I sort of pushed everyone away" That was a lie. She felt guilty about Leah but Kiana couldn't exactly tell Julien about her and the kiss.

"What did happen in Tennessee?"

Kiana let out a sigh, "He showed up outside the venue and at first I wasn't gonna go with him but I thought I'd give him a chance"

"Did he say something to you?"

She ignored Juliens question. "He has a wife and two adorable boys, Liam and Thomas. It just bothers me that he couldn't handle fatherhood when it came to me but he stayed for those boys" Kiana choked back tears as she spoke. "I thought you were gonna run out on me too and figured you couldn't do that if I pushed you away first" It astonished Kiana how good of a lie she had managed to pull out of nowhere, though there was some truth to it.

"Well, I'm not going anywhere, Kie. I promise"

Kiana found it impossible to sleep that night. Pangs of guilt kept her awake. She had lied to Julien, it was the first time she had done so. Kiana turned on her side to face her girlfriend, she couldn't imagine hurting someone as loving as Julien, and yet she was.

Kiana's phone buzzed suddenly, then again. She reached over the nightstand to see who was texting her at 12 in the morning.

𝗜𝘃𝗮𝗻𝗼𝘃
Hey, you up?
I can't sleep
𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥 12:01 𝘈𝘔
Are you gonna leave me on read?

𝗦𝘁𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗻𝘀
No, sorry

𝗜𝘃𝗮𝗻𝗼𝘃
Now you need to make it up to me

𝗦𝘁𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗻𝘀
How do you suppose I do that?

𝗜𝘃𝗮𝗻𝗼𝘃
Buy me a drink

𝗦𝘁𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗻𝘀
I'm in bed

𝗜𝘃𝗮𝗻𝗼𝘃
So you're lazy?

𝗦𝘁𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗻𝘀
No
Not at all

𝗜𝘃𝗮𝗻𝗼𝘃
I think you are

𝗦𝘁𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗻𝘀
Fine, I'll buy you that drink

𝗜𝘃𝗮𝗻𝗼𝘃
Great
Meet me at Eversons in 20

"Fuck, what did I do?" Kiana wondered. No matter how guilty she felt about Leah, Kiana just couldn't stay away from her.

Despite her feelings, Kiana threw on a MUNA crew neck and a pair of grey sweatpants before heading to the bar. Kiana thought about leaving a note for Julien but scrapped that idea since she'd be back in an hour or two anyways.

Leah had waved down the brunette the second she walked through the door. Kiana thought about turning back and going home to Julien, but she didn't. Instead she took a seat beside the model and bought them a few shots.

"What's MUNA?" Leah motioned at the crew neck as she downed a shot of vodka.

"The greatest band in the world" She smiled.

"That's funny,"

"What? You don't agree?"

"Queen is the greatest band in the world" Leah stated, earning a slight laugh from Kiana. "My sister and I dreamt of going to a Queen concert when we were younger, but that couldn't exactly happen"

"Why?" Asked Kiana.

"Freddie Mercury died in 1991, and without a lead singer there was no tour"

The two women fell silent for a moment, both awkwardly glancing around the bar. Kiana wanted to desperately break off whatever she had going on with Leah before it became a little too serious.

"Look," Kiana spoke, "Leah I think you're a great girl but I can't keep doing this with you"

"Doing what?" She teased.

"You know what I mean. I have a girlfriend"

"A girlfriend who is constantly on your ass about everything"

"Not everything, and don't talk about her like that, okay?" Kiana wouldn't stand around and let someone she just met speak about Julien that way. The singer sighed, "It was one kiss and it meant nothing. Whatever this is, is over"

Leah simply laughed as though she didn't believe Kiana for a single second. "No one can resist my charm, especially you Stevens"

"Fuck you, Ivanov. I'm perfectly capable of staying away from your home-wrecking ass"

Leah leaned in closer to Kiana, who thought she was gonna kiss her, but for some strange reason Kiana didn't move a muscle to avoid the potential kiss. "Then why'd you come to the bar?" She whispered. Kiana looked to Leah's lips then her eyes, "What? You wanna kiss me?"

"No, I- " Kiana stumbled over her words, unable to say anything to Leah that would make her think otherwise.

A smirk pulled at the corners of the models lips, "It's okay, you can kiss me. I won't tell"

Kiana hesitated, but after a second or two her lips met Leahs. The blonde ran a hand through Kiana's hair, proceeding to then deepen the kiss.

Leah broke the kiss but kept her hands in the singers hair. "Wanna go to my place?"

Julien was no longer on Kiana's mind, she just wanted to go somewhere private where they could continue. "Yeah"

𝗮𝗹𝗲𝘅 𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗮𝗸𝘀 !
making my oc the bad guy is way too much fun
Kiana redemption arc? maybe, maybe not

I also wrote this at 7 in the morning so I apologize if some parts don't make sense. im going to bed now. night y'all