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things i love:

➳ reading

➳ writing

➳ looking at the sky

➳ rain

➳ my bed

➳ socializing 

➳ making new friends 

➳ meeting new people

➳ dressing up

➳ my wattpad friends 

➳ yogurt with granola

➳ ice on my face (feels so refreshing bruh)

➳ music

➳ babies 

➳ baking

➳ cookies & zucchini brownies (TRY THE BROWNIES IT'S RLLY GOOD)

➳ being home alone

➳ having friends over

➳ stars

➳ niagara falls (i love how many people there are in there)

➳ eating at a fancy restaurant & being in a hotel

➳ speaking or reading out loud (like in class)

➳ centre of attention 

➳ my bike 

➳ long car rides with my family

➳ talking with my sisters all night 

➳ my jawline ( ITS DEFINED BUT I DON'T HAVE A PRETTY NOSE TO GO W IT but who cares )

➳ finding angel numbers

➳ when i have 100% no homework (haven't felt that in a while but getting there)

➳ when teachers personally ask me to read to the class

➳  shopping

➳ strutting in the ailes of grocery stores

➳ canada's wonderland

➳ swinging 

➳ the feeling when you get a irl crush

➳ babies laughing or smiling 

➳ waking up early

➳ eating breakfast outside and watching the sun come up

➳ my teachers giving work periods

➳ mars patel (the podcast) 

➳ drawing

➳ talking about random things with people i love

things i hate:

➳ people pronouncing my name wrong ( i get that wayyy too many times )

➳ people telling me i need to eat more

➳ criticism 

➳ my nose ( i don't really pay attention to it, it's not that important, but social media has made me think it is but it doesn't matter tbh idc )

➳ people not talking to me and being active unless i say something first like I understand if u don't wanna talk but ALL THE TIME it's like that w so many ppl just tell me if  u can't talk

➳ crying kids

➳ dry texts witch i don't know how to respond to  

➳ snitches ( ALL my sisters are snitches but whateva )

➳ being left out

➳ the feeling when a plane starts to fly ( take off )

➳ wondering if im a disappointment to my parents 

➳ people farting and booger nosing right in front of me or near me ( i've set a rule for the kids in my whole fam to fart ten feet away from me but they won't listen about the booger nosing )

➳ people bringing food to my bed ( bed bugs are REAL )

➳ throat being dry when i wake up

➳ the alarm not ringing ( results in me missing class )

➳ crying in arguments i know i will lose in ( like i will stay normal and won't give a fuck if u say sum rude about me or if ur tyna bring me down, and i will grill you until you take back your words, but when I'm in an argument and i know that i am the wrong one i will start to cry but I'll get rid of them real quick)

➳ the ability i have to not cry over something that is ACTUALLY sad, but i can cry over a pathetic thought that hurts me. (ex: i didn't cry at all while watching titanic for the first time, but i nearly bawled my eyes out in the kitchen when i thought it wasn't fair for me to be living my life the way my parents want me to even if it was for a good reason.)  

➳ being jealous ( doesn't happen very often but when it does i hate it )

➳ online school

➳ hearing kidnapping stories happening in the most common places (makes me scared to go out)

➳ being scared 

➳  my ability to lie on the spot and it's always a lie that makes sense ( strict parent things )

➳ being bored

➳ having short attention spam ( i go on tiktok for ten minutes and i get so bored )

➳ breaking out anytime anywhere 

➳ my height ( some guy thought i was twelve )

➳ looking and feeling ugly 

➳ when I'm in my hijab and people saying, " is she bald? why is she covering her head? wouldn't that be so hot to wear? is she insecure of her hair? is she sacred of people seeing her hair?" like bro i love my hair and i have it stfu & then people not understanding or getting the wrong idea why i wear it when i explain like if you can't understand it from me, please do your own research before commenting. 

➳ thinking that I'm always looking horrible and people are just nice so they won't say anything

➳ me complimenting some random girl and her giving me a dirty look LIKE I JUST WANTED TO B NICE 

➳ wishing i was more like other girls

➳ having no motivation to do school whatsoever

➳ cookie falling into the glass of milk

➳ being the last resort

 ( one time in seventh grade we had to partner up with someone and i was new and didn't have any friends in that class so everyone partnered up with their friends, and i was sitting alone at my desk not wanting to seem like a loser so i pretend that i was fine working on my own. i actually AM fine w working alone, but at that time, it was in person school and almost everyone had a parter but me. i almost started my project when i girl came to me and asked if we could be partners. all that went thru my head as i said yes was that she was in a trio and the teacher said 2 partners each so she was left out and came to me otherwise she would've never chosen me )

➳ my parents having sky high expectations about me and believing i can do it when i know i can't

➳ not focusing in class

things im looking forward to:

➳ switching to a different high school (when the new school year starts in september)

➳ my dad taking me to see other high school options that i have like i get to go in them

( i am in high school rn but online, my entire school life starting from grade two was in an all girls private school, then i switched to public school but it was only for a quarter year before covid hit and then i did online but I'm changing high school and going in person when the new school year starts. also i said grade 2 because i was in public school up until grade two before going to private school and then doing the quarter year thing, but i can't remember much till grade 2 so it's like it didn't happen at all) 

➳ switching to the high school i want to go to

( chances are slim but all my friends are in there and so many people and it looks so big and fun ) 

➳ my birthday! this is not final at all, but i might get to spend at wonderland with a friend ( ive never gone anywhere with my friends before just my family friends like ppl ik for 8 years)

➳ guests coming over to my house next week

➳ taking the guests to the beach

➳ MY FRIEND HOPEFULLY COMING TO HANG OUT W ME AFTER THAT ( ive known her like 3 years and ive never been to her house to hang, and shes only been to my house 5 times and she lives 20 minutes away from me )

➳ school being over in like 37 days

➳ summer break starting in like 37 days

➳ going to the cinema in two weeks with my grandparents

➳ going to the pool this week after my dad fills it up ( it was empty because it was winter )

➳ going to real school again cuz online sucks 

anygays bye bitches this was fun also I NEED QUESTIONS TO ANSWER IN THE NEXT CHAPTER i already have some in my MB but that isn't enough for a whole chapter so questions here ⤷

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