Thousands of questions filled my head as in, why Felix asked to hold my hand. But I choose not to ask and just kept quiet. We walked to our dorm and it only took us about ten minutes filled with silence.
I opened the door, knowing we will be alone, as Jin has a cooking class and Hobi probably chills with some of his dancer friends.
My room is cold as the AC was turned on all the time. I showed Felix the door to my bathroom and got some of Taehyungs clothes.
"Hey, Felix! Ill put it infront of the door. You can get it anytime."
"Thanks, Jungkookie~"
My heart melts at his cute way of calling out my name. The next minute I can hear the shower. I laid down on my bed and concentrated on social media, trying not to think of the boy in my shower too much.
It only took a few minutes before the bathroom door creeks open.
Felix waddles out with clothes that are way too big for him and I have to say, I felt jealous for more than just a moment, that they are not mine.
"Let's start...", Felix whispers. I have to gulp at his low voice. I nod shortly and patted the empty space on my bed, showing him where to sit. The next hour wasn'tvery productive. We saud we want to write a song about different types of anxieties and we tried to compose a track, but everytime he would lean in to tap something on the keyboard, my brain would turn off and I get the intrusive thought of just not leaning back and letting him lean down on my lap.
My belly groals and Felix looks up from the laptop screen.
"Should we eat something?", Lix asks with doe eyes.
I nod slowly looking into his chocolate brown eyes, falling more and more. I have had an eye on Felix for like forever. He grins and sits back up, opening an app on his phone to order something online.
"Is Bulgogi fine with you?"
I nod without listening. My thoughts are fixated on counting the other boys freckles.
The bell disturbed my thoughts.
"That should be Jin-Hyung...", I whisper.

The bulgogi arrived about twenty minutes later. Jin and Felix were fixated on talking to each other while they seem to forget that I am still here.
We finished our food and I just wanted to go to my room with Felix as Hoseok stormed our dorm and dragged the youngest into our living room, explaining that he needs to show him some movie. I sigh. I got some feeling, that we won't get anywhere near finishing a song today... also... I can't stop the jealousy from flooding my body, when I see Felix and my two Hyungs cuddling on the couch.