It's currently around 3 am

And I'm not that tired!! ★★

Maybe it was because last night was quite the night! And well, I made up with Aizawa but that isn't really important right now.

I think Todoroki and I are starting to become actual friends!!! This makes me a lot more excited than I should probably admit. Making new friends and talking to new people is always so fun and scary, but today it just made me really happy.

It's okay though because no one else is going to read this except you, right?★

I can't think of anything else that happened. Or maybe I'm just thinking about Todoroki too much that everything else is just not important? Oh, wait wait wait wait!

That girl! I can't remember if I wrote about her I probably did and I don't want to go back and check because that's cheating. Either way, she probably knows Kana.

That means I'll meet them soon one way or another. ★

And again, I didn't do anything. Maybe that person in my dream was Kana? I thought it was a boy but then again it would be a girl. They were so pretty so either way it would make sense.

Maybe I can't sleep because of this awful headache I have. I've drunk a lot of water and I'm plenty hydrated, but the pounding just won't stop. It feels like my head is going to explode and my ears have started to ring.

Is this a punishment for staying up this late?

I gotta wait it through I guess.

~~~

"I didn't cry."

"But your eyes look a little red."

"Are you sure that isn't just your imagination, Todoroki-san?"

"I'm certain you were crying. Your blazer is wet with tears."

I quickly checked my blazer, and there it was. I gulped, "It's water."

"Tears."

"Water."

He grabbed my shoulders, "Tears." He said with a very firm voice.

I grumbled and stepped away from him, "Tears." I mumbled in defeat.

He sighed and took a step back. Growing a little self-conscious, I patted my face. I hope I didn't look like I was crying, because the last thing I wanted was for people to ask why. Still, I can't believe I cried like that, it's so embarrassing.

"Hey, Todoroki?"

He glanced at me.

"You saw nothing today."

He furrowed his eyebrows, "But I saw a lot of things today?"

"Well, I mean, yes that's true. Anything related to me. You didn't see." I paused when I realised he was just staring at me, waiting for a straight forward answer. "Pretend you didn't see anything related to my eyes sweating."

"Crying."

I cringed, "It's so embarrassing."

He rubbed his chin, his eyebrows raised. "You don't have to be so embarrassed about it. No one saw you cry."

"Does it look like I've been crying?" I frantically asked.

Todoroki turned to look at me. His eyebrows furrowed together and his expression in deep thought. I started to get a little embarrassed but didn't look away. I couldn't help but admire how pretty his eyes were, and how pretty his hair was.

"I think you can just say you didn't get much sleep."

I smirked, "Technically, that isn't a lie."

He groaned and held his face in his hands, throwing his head back, "I'm so tired I could fall asleep right now."

"I can't believe you fell asleep on my shoulder."

He whipped his head around, suddenly wide awake. A speck of pink dust spread across his cheek. Seeing him so embarrassed immediately made me feel self-conscious. I regretted saying it.

"I'm joking!" I quickly sputtered, not wanting to make him uncomfortable.

It was time for lesson. We had an extended homeroom because the school was still shaken up about that villain attack so the schedule was ruined. Before we went our separate ways, I grabbed onto Todoroki's blazer, "Can I... talk to you quickly? At lunch?"

He looked confused and nodded his head, taking his seat just in time for Ectoplasm to show up for maths.

It's going to be a long day.

~~~

We had a small break so I immediately grabbed Todoroki. We sat at the back corner of the classroom while the majority of the class decided to head out for some air. I know I said lunch, but I couldn't wait.

I reached into my bag and grabbed a piece of paper and a sharpie. In the middle of the page, I wrote my name. Sakata Ryuuko.

"That's my name."

"Yes, I know?" He cocked his head to the side.

"And this," I scribbled down another name, "Is my guardian and father, Sakata Akito. He-" I gulped, "Adopted me when I was seven and he was barely in his twenties. His quirk is all to do with blood and his control of it. Right now, he's hospitalised."

I wrote down another name.

"Kanemaru Kousuke. He's the same age as Akki, they're both 27. His quirk is Carbon skin. He's like a plant so he absorbs the carbon from the air and uses it to harden his skin. He's currently the one who's taking care of me, but he's never home lately. Sometimes, he's overprotective to the point where it's suffocating."

Todoroki stayed silent, trying to absorb all the information.

I snickered, "Diamond. He hates it when you call him that."

I wrote down two more names.

"Tanihara Izaya. Tanihara Tomomi. Tomomi is adopted. Her birth parents gave her up because she was born blind or something, but her quirk lets her see. It's this sort of vibration quirk, I don't quite understand it. She's 21, she's like an older sis or cousin or something."

I pointed to Izaya's name.

"This is Izaya. He has a clairvoyance quirk and he's 28. I'm pretty sure he's madly in love with Akki, but that's not important right now. Second, to Akki, he's usually the one who's around the most."

I inhaled and exhaled, stretching my arms. I paused. Not that I trusted him with everything, but I desperately needed to vent to someone.

"These are the people I grew up with, and the people who raised me. As of now, I can't trust a single one of them."

I pinched the bridge of my nose.

I hesitated, "Because they lied to me. They lied and hid the truth away from me while claiming to be as ignorant as I am."

He stayed silent.

I think part of the reason I'm telling him all of this is because he's half-dead and won't remember this all. Still, it felt nice saying this all to someone who wasn't a drawing or my wall. This must be why friends are so great to have. I never wanted this feeling to end.

I reached over to grab another piece of paper and a pencil. While my memory was still fresh, I began to sketch the two people who I haven't been able to stop thinking about, annotating the diagram with as much information as I had.

"I saw him a USJ. He didn't do anything, he just stared at me and then disappeared, I wonder what that was about."

I started scribbling.

"And this girl was weird. She was a little mean, but I can't exactly disagree with anything she said..."

Now that I thought about it, everything made less sense.

What was I supposed to do?

Where was I supposed to go to learn more and understand more about what was happening? Akki's office was a start, but at this slow rate, I'm not going to figure it out. I can only assume the boy the girl and Kana were all related somehow, but that was it.

I shook my head and groaned, scared of my own thoughts.

Seeking some kind of reassurance, I glanced over to see Todoroki was fast asleep, his head leaning against the wall in what looked like such an uncomfortable position. A part of me was relieved, thinking that maybe he didn't hear a single thing. Another part of me was kind of disappointed for reasons I couldn't explain.

We had about five minutes left of our break, and I couldn't help but smile at the way his hair fell past his eyes. While he was asleep, he looked unguarded and fragile, making him look like a child.

Now that it was mainly quiet, I started to feel the fatigue. I kept on rubbing my eyes, trying to keep myself awake.

A part of me wanted to talk to Aizawa and ask for some advice, but the other part of me wanted to stop relying on people. If I couldn't trust Akki anymore, how could I trust anyone else?

Before I had any more time to think about anything else, people began to come back into the classroom in time for the next lesson. I stuffed everything back into my bag and I began to shake Todoroki by the shoulder.

"Todoroki?" I spoke under my breath, not wanted to draw too much attention to myself.

Still, when it didn't look like he was going to wake up, I placed both hands and shook him a little again, "Todoroki, it's time for lesson, you have to wake up!"

When he still didn't budge, I started to get nervous.

Izuku popped up behind me, a smile on his face, "T-Todoroki fell asleep?"

I nodded, "He must've been really tired. Well, it's to be expected, he barely slept last night."

Izuku gaped at me, "H-Huh?!"

When Yamada sensei showed up, that's when I thought I should just slap him and be done with it. It's what I would've done if it was Akki or Kousuke or anyone like that. I leaned into his ear, "Todoroki!"

He jerked awake, blinking a few times and rubbing his eyes, "Sakata Ryuuko?"

I smiled and shook my head.

"It's time for English lesson. Sorry I had to wake you up."

He rubbed his eyes, his head bobbing back and forth.

I sat down in my seat, determined to have my full focus on this lesson and for once, be a normal girl in a normal English lesson.

~~~

I am not a normal girl in a normal English lesson.

My brain was at a million miles an hour and my thoughts were everywhere. We were given another assignment and I wanted to just crawl into bed and sleep and sleep and sleep and then wake up and finally be happy.

While I usually didn't mind the workload we were given, I had so much to think about and do that any extra work on top of that seemed tedious and pointless. English always seemed to come naturally to me. I was by in no ways fluent or anything, but I could get by the work we did in class easily so I didn't have to worry about it taking more time.

Assignments were another thing.

Maybe I should just do it during lunch. No, I couldn't. I thought I would be fine, but turns out I'm just as tired as Todoroki.

Getting through the rest of the day was awful. According to Denki, he said I was so zoned out and half asleep that I didn't care when he drew all up and down my arm. I couldn't remember any of that until I lifted my left sleeve and saw a bunch of signature Denki doodles.

Leaving the school was something I'm sure I did, but couldn't fully remember.

It was also strange that when I blinked, I wasn't lying in my bed, and the face scowling down at me wasn't a familiar one, but I seemed to know him from somewhere.

"Ah, she's awake."

I lurched up and slammed the stranger into the bed, sitting firmly on top of them with their arm wrenched back. My heart was racing and I felt a little dizzy from sitting up all of a sudden, but my body moved on its own and I'm glad it did.

I was a little confused when I heard someone start laughing.

~~~

It's happening.

👀