So... uh...

In all honesty, I've been a pathetic lil shitlet these past few days because I've been overthinking things. I very clearly think the word revolves around me if the shit I'm worrying about is making me cry.

The natural solution would be to take a break from this app, but that would mean leaving my friends behind for a while. It would also make me feel a lot worse if what I'm overthinking is continuing when I get back, which I know it would be unless I directly talk to some people about it.

I'd feel awkward and anxious - well, more anxious than I already am - about that, though. I feel like I'd have to justify myself extremely well and phrase the question in a way which doesn't sound accusing, which is hard. The questions would be founded from a place of many assumptions, so it would be hard to ask them without sounding accusing.

What I'm panicking about is honestly ridiculous, anyways. It's literally not getting a fucking notification on some roleplays. Aren't I pathetic?

So...

I just wanted to say in general...

If I've ever upset any of you due to my mannerisms...

I send my deepest apologies.

I try to be bombastic and out there to make people laugh, but that clearly doesn't work for everyone.

If that puts any of you off, I'm really sorry for acting like that. My humour - when not behaving bombastically to be likable - is satirical, sarcastic and insulting. People might not like that, either.

I'm really sorry if I've ever upset you with any of my behaviour.

And... I'm really sorry that this apology came from a deeply selfish place.

An apology really shouldn't originate from a selfish place.

Sorry.