I dont know I just wanted to write something. I've been lacking inspiration for anything. I have a contest on this app called sketch. Only 3 people entered so it's not great for my already low self esteem. I've gotten self conscious about how much I eat. I dont eat breakfast anymore and I stopped eating lunch. All I really eat is some snacks throughout the day and some dinner. Sorry this is turning into a vent book. I just wanna talk about stuff and even if nobody reads this it feels good to talk about it. I don't think my family or my friends understand that if I say im fine i am lying. If I say im good then i most likely am actually good. But i cant tell them that or they will start worrying and I don't want them to. I know its best to tell someone but im trying to teach myself that I cant trust anyone. And that I shouldn't look forward to anything. That usually ends up with me being hurt. Sorry for the venting