Chapter Nineteen: The Letter

Cole's POV

 I can’t believe I just lost her like that. I can’t believe she actually…

Ran away.

I wouldn’t blame her, though because she lost me, she lost her friend, her siblings were fighting and now she hurt her sister. I couldn’t imagine the guilt and hurt she’s experiencing right now. But why would she leave me?

Oh, right. She was mad at me.

Could I be the reason why she left? I think I was. I hated myself for that. Even though I wanted to, I just couldn’t hold a grudge on Aesha. I love her too much for that. I just wanted her to come back to me and confess her undying love for me.

That letter…I guess that letter hurt her more than she already was. Now she has to make us suffer by looking for her and, of course, that’s a hard thing to do.

“Option one,” Kennedy said, “Aesha told me you can sense each other in some way. Something about your powers.” Their heads snapped at my direction.

I shook my head, “Nope. It’s her season so she’s the one who can sense me. We have to wait until spring until I can track her down.”

“Option two,” Kennedy continued, “Call the police.”

Cylene frowned at that, “We shouldn’t. They won’t be any help at all.” Kennedy nodded in understanding.

“Okay, how about you track her phone down?” Cylene suggested. But Kennedy sighed, “I’ve tried but it didn’t work.”

I buried my head in my hands, “It’s all my fault. If I haven’t got mad at her, she wouldn’t have left.”

Cylene sat beside me and squeezed my shoulder, “It’s all our fault, Cole. We all did something to upset her.”

“Yep,” Kennedy whispered.

“But how? How do we get her back?” I asked.

“We’ll have to wait for spring. Which is in one month.” Cylene said.

Kennedy frowned, “No, Cy. We have to go look for her right now.”

“It’s useless! Look, I know Aesha. She’s strong and she won’t let anything bad happen to her. I trust her not to do something stupid. I’m sure she’ll come back soon. Right now, we should just stop worrying about it and just continue our lives.”

I didn’t say anything. Neither did Kennedy. But I’m pretty sure she’s itching to protest. Aesha’s her best friend and she understood her. I can relate because Aesha’s the only girl I really loved.

I knew Cylene didn’t want to push into looking for her ourselves. My sister had a tough life before, and she kind of understood Aesha. Aesha needed a long time to be alone.

“I’m leaving.” Cylene headed out the door.

After we went to Aesha’s house, we fetched Kennedy from there and went back to our house. She read the letter out loud and I was sure it upset Aesha real bad. Kennedy said she didn’t pack anything or brought some food whatsoever. She just went away on her own.

Please let this all be a dream. I don’t want to lose her…

Kennedy threw her head back and stared at the ceiling, “What’s wrong with her?”

“She knows Aesha will be alright,” I said, “I hope she is.”

“Of all the people she should be really worried of Aesha,” she said.

“But you can’t argue with Cylene,” I had a point there.

She rolled her eyes, “Of course you can’t.”

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Two weeks…two weeks of January is over and Aesha’s still missing. There were many nights I can’t sleep without thinking about her and how I was partly the reason she left. She’s gone now. And the two weeks felt like eternity.

 Every night I would read the letter in the envelope and hoped she would just come back to me. Every night I read her last words since she left.

I lay on my bed, thinking how I hurt her. But she wouldn’t be hurt unless…

Did she really love me?

Or was she mad at me that she left?

I have no idea. Though, whatever she thinks of me, I want her back. I want her back so bad. After Kennedy read out loud the letter, Cylene and she told me about how Aesha was the reason her father died.

Jeez, why would she go running off like Elsa did?

I picked up the smooth white envelope from the top of my drawer and pulled out the neat paper inside: the letter. In it was a sophisticated handwriting and the paper smelled like mint and strawberries.

My Sweet Little Ice Queen,

            If you’re reading this, then I’m probably gone. Forever. I told your mother to give this letter to you by the time I pass away. I’m not sure if she’ll really do it, because she knows it will hurt you. Though I am gone, I’ll always be right by your side, watching you.

            Look, I know how dangerous your powers are. I know it could hurt the people you love, including me. It ran in my family’s blood and then it reached to you. I was always scared to have a child because I already knew that the powers are deadly.

            But then I met your mother. She’s always cheery and happy with her brown eyes and hair. She looked like you, a lot. We got married, but I was still hesitating about having a child. One night, I explained to her about the powers. At first, she didn’t seem to believe me.

She finally convinced me and then we had you. But your mother had a hard time with you in her womb. She got sick, I was afraid she would die. But she was strong and when you were born, an accident happened. As a baby, your powers went crazy. Sleepless nights went by, taking care of you. But your mother didn’t hate you at all. She cared for you well even if she had to suffer.

            Then I can’t stand anymore seeing your mother sacrifice so much. I took you away and cared for you. I divorced with your mother and – thankfully – she agreed to do it. I know she misses you, Aesha.

And then I met Ellie. I didn’t really plan on having a second wife. But she insisted even though I told her about you. You were just a year old then. Ellie and I got married and had the twins.

I’m sorry if I’m giving you a hard time about being dead. I hope Ellie’s caring for you and the twins. I know you can control those powers of yours, Aesha. I believe in you and always be strong, my little ice queen.

                                                                                  Love,

                                                                             Daddy

So to basically put it, her mother isn’t really her mom, but her stepmom. Sean and Shaelon were her stepsiblings. Her dad took her away to protect her real mom and he’s gone.

I guess Aesha really felt guilty about hurting Shaelon. Ellie was her stepmom and she cared for her like she did with her own children.

Speaking of her family, Shaelon’s still in the hospital and Sean was living alone in their house. Their mom had been staying in the hospital ever since and was taking care of Shaelon.

If I was in Aesha’s situation, I would’ve felt guilty and hurt about it, too. But I won’t ever leave the one guy who I fell in love with.

Stupid, she doesn’t love you!

She does, too.

She doesn’t!

She does!

Then explain how’s you get friend zoned, huh?

She was lying when she said that. When she said all of those things.

Was she?

Did Aesha really mean those words? The words that caused me to get mad at her. I can’t think of a reason why would she say that if she really loves me. I wanted to believe that she likes me.

I put back the letter on the top of my drawer. I sighed, leaning against the wall. Why did she have to run away?

Then there was a knock on the door.

“Come in,” I said. In came my sister.

“Hey,” she sat on the edge of my bed.

“What do you want?” I snapped in an annoyed tone. I wanted to be alone right now, thinking about Aesha.

“She’s going to be okay, you know,” Cylene assured me, as if reading my thoughts.

“I love her,” I said absentmindedly.

“Just hold on for a while, Cole. She’ll come back.”

But she didn’t understand. She only knew Aesha ran away for three reasons: she was broken hearted, she hurt Shaelon, and the letter. But she was missing out on another two reasons: Brent wasn’t her friend anymore and the twins fighting.

She didn’t understand at all.

“I want her back now,” I demanded. But Cylene only sighed, “There’s no use looking for her, Cole. If she wants to be gone, then let her be.”

“You said that because you did the same, right?” I asked. Whenever she had heavy problems, she would run away from home. She wouldn’t come home until a few weeks or so. The longest she’s been gone was a couple months.

“If she won’t be back in a month, then you can track her down.” She said.

“Well, why do we have to wait for a month!?”

“She’s fine.”

I crossed my arms, “You don’t know how much she’s important to me, Cy. I love her.”

“You think I’m not worrying, too? Cole, I’ve known Aesha all my life. I know how she is and I know she’ll be fine! I’ve known her longer than you.”

I wanted to believe my sister but she was the girl I loved. Why the heck wouldn’t I be worried?

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 Aesha’s POV

Stupid.

Stupid.

Stupid.

Well, yeah, I’m not that stupid to hide in the cave where they’ll probably look for me. But I’m stupid to run away.

Was it a stupid decision?

Hell yeah.

Did I regret doing this?

Heck, no.

I didn’t bring anything but the last clothes I wore, my phone and – definitely – myself. Of course they’d try to call me in my phone so I turn it off and there came a day (three days ago) which I froze it and smashed it in frustration. My clothes weren’t a problem because I could always wash them with my powers without taking them off (cool, right?) and the winter season and my powers are enough to keep me alive without eating anything. I brought some cash, though, in case I needed it.

I was so hurt when I read that letter from dad. I already burst into tears the day I read it. Mom, or my stepmom, cared for me and treated me nicely and then I go around hurting my stepsister. I deserve to be far away from them and suffer alone. I was the reason my dad died and the reason Shaelon would probably die.

Now, two weeks after leaving my life, I’m here out of San Francisco and into cities I didn’t know about. I relied on my powers to protect, keep me safe and help me live. Though, I decided to use my powers only when I needed them so I couldn’t cause any more accidents.

Where to go to?

I have no idea.

What to do?

Just survive alone.

Why I did it?

To avoid hurting other people I love, even if it means leaving Cole.

No, I won’t be like Elsa who left and came back, anyway. Unlike her, I’ll be gone. I’ll be far away and I won’t let anything or anyone stop me.

Goodbye, old life.

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Ha, LOL. It’s Aesha’s turn to have a short POV XD. What do you think will happen, tho?

It's just a filler Chapter so you know what's in that envelope. Sorry if it sucks….:/ 

But I'm sure you will loooooove the next chapter. Huehuehuehue.....you will absolutely love it. And get ready for some drama!!! *saying that in a singsong voice*

Wait for update! Oh, and here's your update wish Mikay ella.

-Vireen