~Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
And the dreams that you dreamed of
Once in a lullaby~

I wake up to the low rumble of thunder in the distance.

Ian.

Honestly, is he all I can ever think about?

Yes.

His eyes are so blue and the loaf of bread on his head is honestly just so soft and cuddly. He's so adorable.

I look outside, and there, I see a rainbow.

~Somewhere over the rainbow
Blue birds fly
And the dreams that you dreamed of
Really do come true~

I smile and get up, walking to Ian's room. I don't even mind that I'm in my underwear, honestly.

"Ian," I whisper, shaking his adorable self awake.

"Hmmm... What do you want, asshole?"

I smile. "Come see the rainbow."

Finally, he gives up and walks outside with me.

~Someday I'll wish upon a star
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me~

"Wow."

Ian stands next to me, his hand really close to mine. I almost take it, but my awkwardness stops me.

"It's beautiful," he says, and I look over at him to catch him staring at me.

Awkwardly, I turn away.

~Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me~

"Sorry," he says, and turns away. We're both blushing, now. I reach for his hand and shockingly, he takes it.

I grin, but keep my head turned away so that he can't see me smiling.

~Oh, somewhere over the rainbow
Blue birds fly
And the dream that you dare to
Oh why, oh why can't I?~

Suddenly, we're both looking at each other, our hands intertwined. I'm grinning stupidly and he's laughing.

"Why didn't we do this ten years ago?" He asks.

Finally, he leans over and kisses me, the moment I've been waiting for my whole life.

~Well I see trees of green
Red roses, too
I'll watch them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world~

Two years later, we're walking through the park after a rainy day. The trees are just beginning to grow back their green, and the flowers, such as the roses and the tulips, are covered in dew.

Suddenly, I notice something in the sky and pull my hand away from Ian's to point at it. "Look Ian," I point out. "A rainbow!"

He laughs and kisses me softly on the cheek. "How ironic."

I nod.

~Well I see skies of blue
And I see clouds of white
And the brightness of the day
I like the dark
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world~

Ian and I sit on a park bench as the sky begins to open up above us. The rainbow remains bright in the sky.

I sigh. "Do you think our relationship will ever just... fade away... like the rainbow will?" I ask.

"Awww." He tickles my lips with his stubbly chin. "Our relationship is like that rainbow. It's beautiful, magical, colorful, and it comes only occasionally." I giggle.

~The colors of the rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of the people passing by
I see friends shaking hands
Singing, "How do you do?"
They're really singing, "I love you"~

People give us odd glances as they pass us. One man even spit and called us faggots.

I hardly notice him though.

"Ian Andrew Hecox..."

He starts to cry as I get down on one knee, pulling a small, simple ring out of my pocket.

"I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you." Suddenly, I'm crying. "Will you please do me the honor of becoming my husband?"

He nods and I pick him up, and we're both in tears as the rainbow fades away.

~I hear babies cry and I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than we'll know
And I think to myself
What a wonderful world~

We adopt Alexandria Padilla-Hecox on April 22nd, 2020. I am ecstatic to watch her grow up, and while I'm sad that I can't give her a mother, Ian would be the best mother I can think of.

"Dada!" She says to me the night we adopt her.

"Papa!" She says to Ian.

At that moment, I don't think we could ever love another kid more.

~Someday I'll wish upon a star
Wake up where the clouds are far behind
Where trouble melts like lemon drops
High above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me~

I'm alone. For the first time in fifty-four years, I'm alone. I miss Alexandria. I can't even think about Ian. Or, at least, I don't want to, but he seems to consume all my thoughts.

"Damn you, Ian," I whisper, and smile lightly.

Slowly, I get myself to get up and get into my car. I'm going for a drive. A long drive.

When I get there, I sit by Ian, who is now buried in the ground. A rainbow is above us.

"Somewhere over the rainbow," I sing to him softly. "Way up high..."

~Somewhere over the rainbow way up high
And the dream that you dare to
Why
Oh why can't I?~

Song credits go to Israel Kamakawiwo'le

Easily the best written fanfiction I've done

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