I don't like being alone, it scares me, but at the same time i prefer it because that way at least all i'm going to hurt is myself. i don't want to hurt anyone else, but in the end all i do is cause harm mentally or physically, there's no in between. I don't know how i do it, or why, i never even realise which makes me feel even worse because now i know just how much of a crap person i truly am.