i wanna smash the mirrors in the house, i don't like looking at myself anymore,

but at the same time, i need to make sure i look okay. but if i look at myself i can see just how weird and ugly i am. i immediately take notice of everything and anything. people lie about me looking decent and pretty. I hate them for it, don't they think they should just tell me the truth? they never bothered to hide their feelings beforehand, why should they now? I know I'm not exactly a good looking person at all. There are so many features wrong with me. why can't they just tell me the truth? i'm not going to be mad. I just want them to stop lying to me.