6 years ago

Shade

One,

two,

three,

now.

The door opened and I looked up from my phone and there he was. Asher Black with his second in command. What a joke, even going to a club required protection like there was someone waiting for him in a club full of people. Didn't he know yet that enemies took revenge and rivals put bullet holes when you looked the other way, when you had a smile on your face. When you hoped.

But even though he lacked in his physical moves and sometimes logical ones too, he did have a mind which worked the most when he was in a room. Alone and full of ideas on what would happen to the innocent, how he would destroy lives of those who lived happily. How much he would enjoy seeing the spark leave eyes. I wouldn't call him a monster, human beings were all monsters. Some just less than the others. I didn't know if I came in the category of the lesser or not.

I took the rifle out and targeted at him, at his heart, a heart that if squeezed would bleed black like his name. But nobody had that much time or patience to do that to someone who didn't feel regret or guilt, who even after violence took pleasure in filling thoughts in your head. He definitely came in the most when being called a monster. I remember the day clearly, how he took my father's life, a father who meant a lot to me but meant a lot more to my mother. A mother who forgot her son after losing a man she called her lover and her everything. A man who loved her in his own way even though he didn't know how to show her all the time. A man who was a little crazy in mind and a lot blind when it came to my mother. They had a bond too unique and different to understand. Only she understood him, and only she got the privilege of seeing a monster sob like a child.

He was a father who cared a lot, showed the least and did what he felt was right. I didn't receive his hugs, I didn't get his touch but I did get his smiles, I got to see him smile when with mom, I got to see him look at me with pride when he thought I wasn't looking. I felt his presence when I was in my room alone at night, when he thought I was sleeping. I heard him when he thought I was in my dreams.

He loved, he did.

He just didn't know how to show it to someone other than my mother and sometimes me, his son. It was hard for him, so hard but he loved loving even if he did it quietly from the shadows. He loved me, he loved my mother.

And I was here just to do that, to show my love, to take revenge.

The wait was done, Asher Black had made a deal with his rival to stop fighting against each other and fight together. A rival who I had in my hands, in my control. Who didn't think a lot before agreeing to my deal, a deal made days ago. Before Asher Black made a deal with him.

I changed the direction of the rifle and pointed at his second in command, not yet. Black doesn't get to die so hopeful. He will die while drowning, when he thought his new friend would help but will look the other way.

I smile and I shoot.

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Getting back inside my car after removing my gloves and putting the rifle back in its case I start the car.

Phase 2, complete.

My plan most of the times consists of 4 or 5 phases. And under those phases lie destruction and doom. Death and breaks. But I do wonder time to time if I will ever need a plan of phases that would be made of something else for something other than destruction. But I do not hope, wonder sure. I draw a line when it comes to hope, it's there. It always is somewhere in my mind and my heart but I don't let it reach the surface, it's better if buried deep inside. It doesn't affect me so much that way.

Driving to my house, I stopped at the red light and saw a woman who was looking at me. The car didn't have blinds but she was standing a bit far away so I was sure she couldn't see my face that clearly but that didn't seem to matter to her. She was just looking as if it was so simple to see someone even when it was so complicated. Her short hair made her look cute and gave a little badass vibe in her presence. She was definitely not girly, she was all in her own world with the way she seemed to be standing and staring without any shame. Huh. I felt warmth bloom in my chest and spread to my whole body slowly.

The light turned green but I didn't want to go home. I had changed my mind. I saw her get into a taxi and followed it.

I don't know why I did that, I didn't know her. She was cute, and a little magical to look at.

I had changed my destination that day, the direction was the same. I definitely took revenge in the coming days, I destructed but slowly she became more important. I became my father, blind for a woman and crazy for her.

I think I wanted to love from the shadows too.