Garcia's P.O.V

Alex looked like she has been to hell last night but now she looks worse. She can't focus she jumps at any sound her bravado had fallen and now she is just pleading for the pain to stop she looks as if she hasn't slept in days. Now I hate Connor Wailand more than ever, she watches as Strauss leaves Hotch's office and she slowly rises from her desk in the bullpen she hobbled up to Hotch's office on her crutches she was in pain and no matter how hard she tries she can't hide it from us. I will try my best to cheer her up but it doesn't look too easy. I just don't want to see her like she was when she was 5 scars like those will never heal. They rip a hole in your chest holes never really heal they just don't hurt as much after a while.

Hotch's P.O.V

"Hotch I need to talk to you," Alex hobbled into my office. She looks worse than she did last night. Only she has covered most of her bruises. She had taking a serious beating. I would gladly step in and take her place if I was able to and I know for a fact so would the rest of this team. "I need to know who knows the full extent of my torture." She spoke in calm tone but the pain shown on her face was enough to punch a hole through my chest. Connor Wailand will never see the light of day again.

"Not everyone, only myself, Garcia and Strauss."I answered before quickly adding "would you like me to tell the others?" I knew what she was thinking she didn't want the others to worry about her. She has never liked sympathy, she never accepts it. She shook her head and hobbled out. She probably thinks that the others will over react or treat her like a kid. She has probably told Rossi already. At least I hope she has

Garcia's P.O.V

Alex hobbled into my lair. She looked worried. She cautiously lowered herself into the spare seat in my tiny room. She was in pain and no matter what she said or what she did the pain showing on her face was almost unbearable. She is almost like my little sister, I hate seeing her or any of the team in pain they are my family. Watching those videos was excruciating but I did it to help the team.

"So what's up?" I asked trying to break the awkward silence that now surrounded us. She stared down at her feet one in plaster and one in her favorite scruffy red converse.

"Have you told anyone?" she whispered, I had to think about it. But she had answered my unasked question "about the ... Rape?" She took several moments for her to choke out the words. It was as if she thought that if she pretended long enough that it would be almost as if it never happened. But sadly it did happen and Strauss won't let her forget it

"I haven't told anyone but Hotch told Strauss, why?" I answered but still vaguely confused I didn't understand why she was acting so strange. I know she went through something no person alive should have to go through. Yet it was still all really odd. I want the happy smiling girl that is always happy and dancing I want that Alex not this new depressing Alex.

"just don't tell anyone, I don't want them to worry," she muttered looking at the floor I could tell she expected me to tell her that she has to tell someone but I have been placed in a similar passion before and that is not the thing she needs to here

I move so that our knees are touching I place a finger under her chin and slowly move her head so that we are looking at each other "I promise that I will never tell a soul the full extent of what He did to you, but it may almost be an impossible task keeping this from them, I mean it is their job to find peoples secrets," I tried to make her smile but it only made her sniffle even more. JJ entered and informed us of a new case causing Alex to hobble out with JJ.

Alex's P.O.V

I walked, well hobbled, alongside JJ following her to the BAU room. She didn't bother talking about what happened to me. This seems to be the main topic of conversation at the moment. I was grateful for the fact that she didn't bring up the topic I wanted to forget. Instead she talked about her fiancé Will. "Will and I were talking and we think that hennery may have a little brother or sister soon," she explained

It took me several moments to comprehend what she had just said "oh my god, JJ, your pregnant," I exclaimed when the penny finally dropped.

"Shhh, you're the first one I have told but I am not pregnant we are just planning will wants an army of children but I don't think that will happen," she said hushing me as we entered the BUA room, I took a seat next to Reid. He moved my crutches and promised to help me get them later. Garcia was the last to enter the room and JJ started the presentation

"This is 22 year old Marander Howler she was found outside her sister's restaurant," a picture of a blonde came up on the screen soon followed with photos of the crime scene, "the weird part is she had a note stuck to her forehead the note appears to be written in blood," we all looked through the photos on our tablets and sure enough there was a note that appeared to be written in a blood like substance. JJ continued "and this is Kimberly Jenkins , married and a mother of 3 also she is Marander's younger sister, Kimberly was found next to the graves of her mother and farther both of which died in a car crash when Kimberly was 11," similar photos appeared on the screen only the second sister was in a grave yard

"What injuries did they receive," asked Emily

"Lacerations to the wrist and the ankles, stabbed and raped repeatedly, both sisters were killed by blunt force trauma to the skull. They both also suffered severe malnutrition," JJ explained. I tried to focus but it didn't work no matter how hard I tried. What JJ had just said brought on a flood of memories; everything these sisters went through everything they experienced is not unlike what I experienced. Only they died and I survived how is that fare.

"What did the note say?"I asked trying to find a distraction

JJ opened another photo a close up of the note and David read it aloud "the half-blood prince has returned, enemies of the dark lord shall perish, mud-bloods and blood traitors alike will always fear the name of the half blood prince and all that are not faithful to him have learned to fear the name of the dark lord,"

"it's from harry potter, we've all seen people use the bible as a way to justify what they have done but a fantasy novel is something new," I said trying to get the idea of this case through my head and stop thinking about what had happened to me and focused on what had happened to these women

For a moment everybody stared at me as if I had woken from the dead or something. "We will meet on the jet in 20 minutes," Hotch said as he left. Feeling a bit awkward I followed him out of the BAU room and into the bull pen

"Alexandra Stedler, my office now," Erin Strauss called over the balcony. She sounded pissed off I entered her office and she was standing there with her arms folded and tapping her feet.

"Yes ma'am," I asked as I entered. She had our most recent case file on her desk. She sat down behind her desk and motioned for me to sit on the chair opposite hers, I sat and she started talking

"Alexandra I would like you to reconsider your internship, you're so young and innocent there are so many opportunities out there," she said in a calm tone voice. We tolerate each other but the truth is that we both hate each other. Especially when she constantly brings my past into every conversation we have. She can't possibly think that I am just going to just get up and leave because some ass hat tortured me.

"I am not going to leave. Let me tell you something, Strauss, I lost my innocence a long time ago. On my fifth birthday to be exact, the day my mother was stabbed 46 times raped and then when she literally begging for mercy did her killers slit her throat," I knew I was being a little dramatic "I wasn't targeted by Wailand because I'm young and have a job with the FBI I was targeted by him because I am the god daughter of the man who arrested his sister and that wouldn't change even if my mother was still alive," I stormed out and Morgan drove me to the air strip where the jet was waiting

On the jet

"so this guy is obviously as something against this family, I mean he has killed 2 of the 3 sisters, maybe he is a cousin or something?"Emily thought aloud

"I doubt it, if he is targeting this family he won't be a part of it, Kimberly Jenkins was placed in an orphanage when her parents died that may have some leads?" JJ explained further

"So this guy could be jealous that she had a loving family or found a nice adoptive family," Morgan agreed

"possibly but most adoptive families want younger kids, foster care is more for older kids, Morgan Reid Alex you go talk to the last sister Prentiss Rossi you go to the dump site of the first victim, JJ you and I will set up at the pd," Hotch ordered as we left each other to their thought

All my thoughts were surrounded by what happened the last time I was on this jet. The horrors I experienced less than three hours after we landed in Atlanta I was tortured at the hands of Connor Wailand

In Seattle

Morgan was driving and Reid was in the front seat beside him. "You ok Alex? You're kind of quiet," Morgan asked in a worried

"Yeah I'm fine, just thinking about hotch said on the plane, you know, about the orphanages, Josie and I were placed in one before they discovered we had a godfather," Josie legally isn't supposed to live with David. But I was an arrogant 5 years old and considering I was the one who witnessed and remember every gruesome detail of my mother's murder.

"Oh ok," Morgan replied half heartedly. He knew my past was a touchy subject almost everyone does. Nobody wants to start one of those conversations, except Strauss. I have to constantly remind her of what I went through as a child.

Morgan's P.O.V

Alex sat quietly in the back seat of the SUV. She has been acting really weird since the whole situation with Howard Epps. But you can't blame her. Strauss will probably crack down on her and check for any signs of P.T.S.D (post traumatic stress disorder) Alex seemed to be lost in a world of her own horrors her mind was just a cage to lock in all the bad memories. But even still she was showing all the signs of someone who was hiding something. It will be best if we don't push on the subject, she has had a hard enough life as it is. Growing up without parents can seriously affect a Childs life, especially if one of those parents walks out on said child. Someone like Alex's father

We arrived at the house of Makayla Hourigan, she was heavily pregnant and had two young children clinging to her a third stood close behind her. "Makayla Hourigan, we would like to ask you a couple of questions about your sisters may we come in," I asked politely as I could trying not to impose or scare the children

"Sure, come in," she greeted us with a meek smile trying not to scare the children as I had done before. She made room for us to sit down in the living room we sat and so did the children sticking close to Makayla

"Do you know if either of your sisters had any enemies," I asked addressing Makayla only

"No everybody loved them; sure they had their fare share of arguments, but nothing that would resolve to this, to both of my sisters being dead," she replied and the two younger children were on the verge of crying

"Aunty Kayla, can we please go to our room," asked the only boy

"Sure I will get you for lunch in a little while," the two younger children let but the oldest stayed she looked at us asking us to continue she was obviously protective of her younger siblings it was almost as if she would take a bullet for them and she seems to be about 11 maybe 12 while her brother and sister seem to be 5 and 7

"Are they Kimberly's children?" Reid asked in his awkward anti social way

"Yeah I don't think Kyle and Gracie understand what is going on," Makayla answered

"I think it's a good thing though after our dad died last year it just hasn't been the same I have been pretty much in charge of the family and now this, our mother went into a numb state for a while she was getting better," the young girls bravado had fallen she let the tears flow from her eyes

"it's ok Emma you don't have to explain if you don't want to," Makayla was comforting the young girl that's when Alex moved from where she was sitting in-between Reid and I to next to the young girl

"Emma, I understand what you're going through, I lost my mother at a young age as well, but I need you to answer something for me, can you do that," Alex almost seemed normal again I guess she just needs something to focus on.

The young girl nodded and Alex continued. "Has your mother been acting different lately, out of character, had she started any weird new habits?" Alex asked

Emma thought for a bit and then answered, "No she seemed fine everything was almost normal," Emma replied she was becoming upset with herself she thought that she was failing or something.

"That's ok," Alex replied before turning to Makayla "do you know if you or your sister have highly offended someone who has an obsession with the harry potter books?" it seemed like a strange question but considering the fact that it was Makayla who found the body of her sister Marander she understood

"Umm, no but Kimberly and most of her friends are obsessed with the books and the movies," she replied as honestly as she could

"We will need those names," I said handing her a notepad and a pen

"James Hadler, Lilly and Charlie Henston and Hennery Prince-Bled," she read aloud as she wrote the names down

We left the family in peace, but as we went to leave Emma the oldest grabbed Alex arm. They had a brief whispered conversation, I didn't quiet catch what it was about but the little girl seemed worried about something. "It's ok Emma we will find the person who hurt your mother, but if you have any more worries you can call me," Alex said handing her a small piece of paper. Alex has always been very good at looking after children she practically raised her little sister Josie.

We traveled to the police department; Alex was just as quite she had been on the trip to the house of Makayla Hourigan. When she isn't focusing on something important she seems to slip into a world of nothingness. I'm scared for her, she is only putting us and everybody who cares about her she will be in this numb state and we will be worried for her so everyone will be vulnerable. I wonder if I am just being dramatic or the others have noticed as well.