All of their faces numbed with shock as they did hear what she was saying . How could she know these things? How the hell, when they tried their best to hide it from her.

" Khushi ?" said Nk with a confused and perplexed tone.

" What did you thought, You could hide it from me? I saw it from the compiled reports, which I took it to Arnav's house. I saw it and I wasn't able to hold myself from breaking down once again " said Khushi with fresh tears rolling from her eyes

She remembered the incident of what happened one day at that house.

Khushi saw the reports of her in the table at which Arnav was studying previously. She just took the reports casually to have a look at it. And when she was flipping its pages, she suddenly saw another pile of papers that had a detailed report of what had happened and what treatment was given.

But then her eyes got stuck into just a line.

MISCARRIAGE DUE TO DRUGS UNDERTAKEN. PERFORMED MENSTRUAL EXTRACTION AND UTERUS IS UNFIT FOR FURTHER PREGNANCY.

Tears started rolling from her eyes like hell where she sat down holding the file with a thud. She felt something struck up in her throat where she wasn't able to breathe too. She didn't know what was stuck or what is happening as she was suffocating with  lack of air.

She immediately rushed towards the windows by getting up immediately to open the window to let her breathe some air, but then that didn't also help her even a bit.

She slowly sat down near the window opening her mouth where a wrenched sob escaped from her mouth releasing the choke from her throat. She was sobbing like hell where her voice was audible very much amidst the soundproof room.

As she let out her screams, realizations dawned her.

All the things didn't just end up only with breaking her, but then there was another life too whose life had got destroyed.

The result of all the pain which she had endured had breathed inside her and that feeling was creating some kind of unknown sensations inside her.

She held her hand in the stomach at which the life lived inside her. The life which was formed from her tears, pain, screams, vulnerability, and lust of many.

What is to she feel now? What is to she feels damn it.

All of their lust didn't end up only on breaking her, but then adding to it, it left a baby inside her. The baby of whose father she didn't know. The baby of the father, who was neither her husband nor her love.

This thought was really suffocating her to hell as she always dreamed of creating a life with Arnav, with his love and her love. But what now it resulted just broke her.

She felt totally broken and miserable with her thoughts.

Is she to feel sorry that her baby did die before she did know?

or

Is she to feel happy that their lust which formed a life inside her, which was the only living example died?

What is she supposed to feel now?

Yearn for the lost life or be happy that there are no signs of their lust inside her?

Yet even though they are not any signs of their lust inside her, she feels it every minute in the air she breathes. She feels it everywhere around as it was haunting her and she knows it would never leave.

But then now, the feeling a life existed inside her was creating a churning feeling inside her. She just wanted to rub her stomach and erase all the memories once and for all. She wanted to harm her stomach in such a way that no signs is left. No touches, no feelings, no signs, not even a bit too.

" Yes, that would be right," thought Khushi with a little shine in her eyes where she stood up in stun and searched something to hit her stomach. As she searched, she got hold of a mop that was inside the washroom. She took the stick of it firmly in her hands.

As she was about to raise her hands to hit her abdomen hardly, something stuck inside her mind to the core such that she again crumbled into pieces.

And that realization was that it was her baby too. It was her's too!

The baby was also innocent like her and what was she going to do now?

Kill the invisible baby by hitting it with a stick such that none of its sign remains inside her. How cruel was she?

Cruel to such an extent that for her selfishness of getting rid of everything, she stepped even to kill the baby which was now not in her womb too?

What a monster is she? What type of human is she?

What would have happened if the baby had really existed in her womb and was still breathing inside her womb? Wouldn't she have killed it the minute she had known about it?

Yeah. That was very true.

She scratched her hair as if like a lunatic not able to bear the mere thought of what if she had killed her own child? Her own blood, and how she was not even thinking once to kill the baby.

She was ashamed of herself!

She was feeling dirty and disgusted by herself! In fact, she is loathing herself much more than ever.

She felt she was a murderer!

Yet that was very right.

She was damn right Because her baby died due to drugs given by Divya and she was led there due to her blind love on Arnav.

So she was the murderer of her baby. She was responsible, no one else.

Not even Arnav!

Only her!

The realization just shook her to the core where she stumbled and fell down on the floor once again as the tears walls broke from her eyes.

The tears were the pearls of the bits of her already destroyed soul, where it broke again into minute pieces. Maybe this time, it can never be bound together too.

" I am sorry ... I am sorry " cried Khushi hugging her hands.

" I don't know. I don't know at all. If I know my love would have brought me to this state and had killed you, I would have never even gone near his side too. Even if I had the slightest idea, I would have not done "

" I know what does a mere five-letter word called 'Sorry' means. It means nothing. It means nothing to the extent that the victim would have gone through. It means nothing "

" I don't know what to say to you. How to apologize for everything. I am also suffering. In fact more than you. But then you would get justice baby "

" The reason for your death was my love, And I won't let that love without destroying it. It is my promise "

" And my punishment would be yearning for you life. No one can vanish your position in my life. No one at all "

" If possible hate me less because I am also innocent like you. I was also a simple, lovely, down to earth girl, who was crushed mercilessly and placed in hell. Even hell would be better of what I am enduring, I guess. Please don't hate me, Please "said Khushi with a trembling tone where she hugged herself using her hands more tightly.

A sudden knock at the door broke her thoughts. She immediately wiped her tears and then arranged her hair to look presentable.

Breaking down more into pieces or crying would just destroy the hard work she had did till now. So she can't afford to do a mistake. Not at all after she had known

Gathering herself, she opened the door ..........................

All of them looked at her with a baffled expression whereas she was standing still with just a few tears in her eyes. There was no sign of any break down as she had remembered about her baby. There was no sign of emotions or any other feelings except a few tears which was just bland.

" Khushi," said Akash going towards Her with a worried state.

" Don't worry, I had handled myself and I am handling myself now too. Tell me now, with all this type of tags inside me, How can I spoil Aman's life? How can I simply do it ?" asked Khushi looking at Akash with earnest eyes.

" How can I let you spoil your life knowingly Aman?" asked Khushi looking at Aman.

Aman looked at her Khushi as he understood all her insecurities and her unsaid words. He was actually getting very clear of all her intentions like never ever before.

She was scared and keen to not spoil his life.

She felt her not worthy as she felt that she had carried someone's child and on the above whole fact, she cannot get pregnant ever again.

Adding to this. The betrayal by Arnav had shaken the belief in her traditional values and love so she is holding herself.

And above all , the memories were still fresh inside her . Her eyes may be expressionless but then , the tears that fell down from her eyes when she had told the truth ,says that how she had blocked each and every thing inside her such that she could breathe properly at least outside .

He didn't want to do anything , Just be her support in the journey of what she is facing.

He doesn't expect anything else from her .

Nothing at all !

How could he explain these to her ? he thought in her mind .

" So you think , You are not fit to me just because you carried someone else child ?" asked Aman.

" And I can never be pregnant again too Aman . I am not even eligible to call myself a women too" said Khushi .

"I didn't love you seeing whether you have the ability to carry baby or not , whether you are virgin or not . I love you from the bottom of heart for what you are now . A beautiful women , who is having the hope to survive and is facing her demons everyday too proudly "

" Infact , My love had multiplied infinite times seeing you standing strong . The earlier khushi i used to see made her love me with her cuteness , but the khushi I am seeing now makes me fall in love with her again and again as she set out to be brave and strong "

" So don't you dare say about not being a women because you are the amazing women I had ever met in my life . I would be a looser , if I let you go " said Aman with earnest eyes .

"Khushi we did wrong in hiding this to you . But our notion was to just help you to get better at that time and this was the only possible way . Meera suggested the same to be done , so we hid it from you .I am sorry for hiding about your baby to you"

" May be I was selfish as I didn't want my baby to break down more . I care about my baby , About you " said Payal coming towards her and cupping her face .

" We know you have went through hell . May be worse than that too . But then ,we too suffered khushi . Every moment till now from the day we had known about your missing case . But then now , We are trying to be happy in our life and move ourself from that incidents and sufferings .In the same way , Why can't you try ? Why can't you try to explore yourself and this world once again ? Why can't you give a chance to yourself ? " asked Nk with a little tears in his eyes .

More tears rolled from her eyes as she let all of their words sink in her mind. She didn't know how to react? She was actually very blessed to get a family like this , which she didn't deserve at all.

How could she just move on from all this totally blindfolded. Would she be able to give herself a chance despite of all this?

If there would be  really a day where she would love herself seeing the mirror?

Would she be able to let go off her past to began a new life?

Would she able to sleep properly without any nightmares?

Would she be able to have a small and beautiful life which is fully filled of  happiness ?

Would she be the same Khushi as she was ever before? were the questions at her mind where she slowly started stumbling as she felt dizzy on all these new thoughts.

She was fighting with herself in all this.

Akash immediately held her where she lost her consciousness finally on his arms.

"Khushi," shouted Payal, Nk and Aman together.

" Don't worry, she is just emotionally drained after all the thoughts resurfacing and your words. Let her sleep as I would give her an injection," said Arpita where Akash lifted her and went to her room.

Arpita gave an injection and then asked everyone to come out of the room.

" I didn't know she is knew it all along this time," said Payal with tears rolling from her eyes.

" Haven't you seen, she had gathered herself. Her eyes didn't have any emotions when she said she did knew about it. She didn't break down, instead she started accepting the reality and live with it," said Arpita.

" You mean bury her feelings totally ?" asked Aman with a perplexed tone.

" Breaking down just makes her wounds open where she would definitely not able withstand it. But then burying it would help you to live in the present in a better way. Meera emphahasizes on this because Khushi's case is too worse than reality. She lost herself completely in this terrible journey, it is worst than difficult for her to relieve the memories"

" Everyone says breakdown really makes a feel better, but then in this case, it is not like that. Khushi would reach to a worse state now than before. So it is very much necessary that she resurfaces herself. First it would be terrible for her as she would find herself being emotional again and again. But as she starts distracting herself, facing the world in a new light, all would fall in its place slowly"

"Keep engaging her with new things, ask her to go for it, that would all help her a lot. You can just help her using these ways," said Arpita.

" Would she be fine?" asked Payal.

" She would be, don't worry this is all a phase which would pass through," said Arpita with a small smile..

After some time

Khushi woke up from her deep slumber after almost 10 hours. Payal was the one who was seated beside her and looking after her.

" How are you" asked Payal.

" I am okay now jiji'" said Khushi with a small smile.

" Why did you hide it from us?" asked Payal.

" For the same reason of why you hided it from me," said Khushi looking at Payal's eyes.

" Hereafter we would never speak of this," said Payal.

"No need of that jiji because I have decided to take a chance on myself for you. Not for me , but for you all. But I need time to accept things" said Khushi.

Payal blinked her eyes not able to believe the words Khushi had told.

" I am telling the truth. I would try to move on for you," said Khushi taking Payal's hands In hers. If this was her family's happiness , then she would surely try to do it she thought in her mind. Their words did really bring out a change and confidence to move on from it. To look her life forward and she is going to try for it for sure. 

Payal smiled looking at Khushi.

" Thank you ," said Payal hugging Khushi to which Khushi smiled.

" I don't know if I would be able to do, but I would try for you all," said Khushi.

" That is fine," said Payal  with a smile.

Payal eagerly went and told all about her decision to give a chance and everyone were joyful hearing the news.

Time passed on. Khushi after 2 months, agreed to marry Aman as she developed a trust on him these days and his determination to be with her just amused her more. She felt confident and trust developing on him seeing him by her side every moment. But yet she wasn't able to accept whole hearted. But for her family she was trying her best.

Garima, Buaji,Shashi and Manorama had came to look after the marriage preparations . Shashi was well fine after a good treatment in Ayurvedic.

All were excited to make a lot of preparations but then khushi told that she wanted a simple marriage with her family member only. She told she wanted just register marriage as she now doesn't believe on marriage and stuffs.

They were little sad but but they all eventually agreed. In amidst all this, Nk had finally proposed Arpita to which she had agreed finally. She actually scolded him a lot for this delay. They both decided to take their relationship forward after she completes her higher studies.

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At Registrar office . Aman and Khushi's marriage day.

Khushi , Aman , Akash , Nk ,Payal , Arpita ,Meera , Guptas and Manorama entered the office.Khushi was wearing an elegant blue saree where as Aman has got ready himself in a three piece suit.

They all went to the head's office where the marriage was going to be held . The head was waiting for them since last few minutes with all the arrangements made as Akash had informed prior.

" Was waiting for you only Mr Raizada . All the arrangements are made " said the head with a smile .

Akash gave a smile .

" Shall we start ?" asked the head .

Akash looked at Khushi . Khushi just nodes her head in response . Yes she is ready for it , she convinced herself .

Aman holded her hands in support to which she returned a smile where they both stepped forward .

" Sign this documents " said head , where he set out a big book with all their details duly filled to them.

Aman took the pen first and signed the form. He was feeling totally joyful because , at last he was getting his love . His love did win after all the fights .

Finally she was going to be his . Only his .!

His lips curved into a pure smile with the feeling . He was feeling blissful.

Khushi took the pen in her hands with her hand trembling a little . Few tears came out from her eyes , but then she managed to hold it .

Her heart was thudding faster as if it was going to catch a train . She was too nervous and scared.She still did have a chance now . To run away , saving his life . Saving him from her .

But then , all her thoughts were broken as he simply came towards her where he holded her hand too softly with love . He gave her the assurance silently with his simple but elegant gesture.

Yes , She is going to go for it . She trusts his love which he holds for her . She had that confidence on him very well .

" Yes " she said to herself where she signed the paper with a little stiff hands . And that moment , She had become officially Mrs Aman Mathur.

" Congratulations , you both are married " said the head with a smile where he then took few signs from the rest for evidence .

Aman smiled looking at khushi where khushi gave a small smile with her eyes having tears stilled in it .He just tightened the hold on his hand to gesture her .

" Congratulations " shouted Akash , Nk , Meera and Arpita together where they four hugged the duo tightly .

" Excuse me , Wait . One thing is missing " said Aman taking something from his pocket .

Aman took a mangalustra from it ,which was the only last sign , which he had from his mother .

Khushi forwarded herself to him so that he could make her wear the mangalustra . She now didn't have any belief in rituals and things . She doesn't believe that devi maiya every exists because , if she did exist , then she won't have faced this much of miseries in her life .

If she wanted to test her , then she could have tested her with any other thing . But then killing the traditional values and her dignity of what she was holding proud wasn't the thing to be tested . So she hates every god to the core . And now , she would never believe nor follow any customs .

Aman tied the mangalustra around her neck where as khushi closes her eyes tightly feeling the mangalustra in her neck . He then took a pinch of vermilion from the near by table and filled her mang with the vermilion , completely marking her as his .

Khushi opened her eyes with a stun look feeling something in her maang .

" I know you don't believe . But just for today , I wanted you to be mine . You don't need to wear these stuffs and all from tomorrow as I understand you " said Aman .

" I won't remove this thread from my life ever as it is the gift and blessing from your mom . So don't worry aman " said Khushi with a small smile understanding his intentions as well as she making him understand her notions .

Aman just smiled looking at her .

" Photos please " asked Nk with a wink where he had covered all the details in his camera already .

Khushi and Aman smiled and posed for the photos .

Garima , Shashi and Buaji were having happy tears seeing khushi married finally .

Garima finally sighed in relief as she knows that she was in the right hands . Aman was the best partner she could get than anyone . She would definitely get happiness , there is no worry at all .

Shashi was feeling content where just happy tears was left , there was no words to say . His daughter had fought a hell dark world and now she is finally out of it . What more can be happier than this ? were his thoughts .

Manorama smiled seeing her phati sadi getting her deserved happiness . She just wishes that there is just happy and prosperity in her life other than tears .

Later all of them took photo with the newly wedded couple where then after completing all the rest of them formalities , they left to hotel to have a hearty meals . After having the meals , they went to the home which was decorated with flowers wholly and also had few serial lighting works .

Khushi smiled looking at the house decorations as it was not done at morning when they all left. She always loved decorations and especially the rose decorations just added beauty to the house .

She kept admiring where as Aman entwined their hands both at which khushi stiffened herself as she felt his hand .

" Did you like the decorations ?" asked Aman .

" Yeah . It is lovely " said Khushi with a smile , hiding all the stiffness she is feeling inside her . She never had felt uncomfortable with his touch . But then , why now ? That too , why now after marriage ? she thought but then she masked her emotions inside her.

Was it because he was her husband or did it exist from that day itself from when her bad days started ? she thought.

" Come on khushi , you need to adjust yourself with this life . You cannot deny him , you should get accustomed to the situations. You should not hurt him " said Khushi to herself in her mind .

" Come Inside , How much time are you going to stay outside ?" asked Akash .

" Shall we go in ?" asked Aman .Khushi nods her where they both entered and saw the whole hall set up was changed . There was beds placed like a square on the center of the hall at which everyone can be seated .

" What are you all upto ?" asked Khushi with a little amused tone as she knows they are planning something for sure .

" It is actually very long since we had some fun , So why not with some games ?" asked Payal with a smile .

" All of us , You mean ?" asked Aman .

" Yeah , Everyone is must " said Nk .

" Come on sit everyone " said Akash .

Aman helped khushi to sit down , where he himself sat beside her . Then all of them sat down and started playing games . Thumb charades , passing the pillow , Antachary and many much more games .

All laughed and enjoyed to their heart extent that they didn't know when it turned night .

Akash had ordered food for all , and all of them sat at the same place munching and chatting on their food .

Khushi just played with her food in the thoughts of what would happen next . She was very nervous about staying together with him .She already feels something uneasy and now adding to this , these thoughts were taking a toll on her .

No she can't do these all , She can't do this now . Not at all!

She needs time to understand the relationship , to accept him . Yes , she would explain him . He would definitely understand she thought to herself .

She then kept her plate and went to wash her hand. Meanwhile all completed their food and all were ready to leave to their room , to retire for the room .

Khushi clenched her hand not knowing what to do .

" Okay bye then , Everyone go to your room and retire for the day " said Akash .

" Yes . I am hell tired " said Nk yawning .

All of them left to their rooms after bidding bye to each other , leaving aman and Khushi alone .

" Aman " said Khushi with a hesitating tone .

" Go to your room , Get a good sleep" said Aman cupping her hand .

" Huh ?" asked Khushi blinking her eyes several times not believing what is exactly happening .

" I said go to sleep . Its already time " said Aman with a smile .

" You are not coming ?" asked Khushi with a surprised tone .

" For this world we may be husband and wife . But then , We both need time and especially you need time . I don't believe in all these stuffs which happens after marriage immediately . Let us take our own time to explore this world and us . Let us grow older , understanding each other better " said Aman with a honest tone .

Khushi felt as if her whole world had stopped with the words he had told . It was so simple and pure , but then it managed to calm her nervousness . It managed to wipe her insecurities which she had earlier .

How can a person be so understanding despite of not even telling him about the same ?

What type of gem he really is ?

She was very lucky to get this type of person even after being too impure .

To be in fact , She doesn't deserve this type of life at all . She doesn't deserve him . But yet , she is deserving him.

She just glared at him with all these emotions .

" Just go to sleep " said Aman .

" What would others think ?" asked Khushi with a stammering tone looking at him .

" I don't care khushi . It is not a rule that husband and wife should always stay in the same room and they should start their life together . I don't believe in this as I said before .And everyone knows about this too , So no one would say anything . Don't think about all these things as your mind is already with lot of things . Just go and sleep " said Aman .

Khushi nods her head .

" Good night " said Khushi .

" Good night" said Aman coming forward to her , where he kissed her forehead lovingly .

Khushi smiled a little and went to her room .

Aman smiled seeing her going ...

Khushi laid down herself in the bed after changing herself into a comfortable night wear . She hugged her pillow tightly as she felt all the things happening in the day .

She was finally Mrs Khushi Aman Mathur from the naive and timid Khushi kumari gupta .

A person has accepted her with whole heart despite of all the things that had happened . A person , who claims to love her to the core and is just showing care in every step she is taking.

What more she can wish in her life after getting this type of understanding person ?

Tears started rolling from her eyes .

That day , she developed a feeling of respect towards aman infinite time , never ever than before. And a confidence developed inside her more deeply.

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" She is alright now . Very good improvement . Her tests are positive " said Arpita with a smile .

Khushi smiled looking at Arpita .

" Then she can do her normal activities she is doing ?" asked Akash .

" Of course " said Arpita .

" Can she go to college ?" asked Aman .

All of them looks at him with stunned expression and the most stunned expression was of Khushi who looked at Aman with wide eyes .

" What , Uncle told me you left your education in middle . So why not to complete it ?" asked Aman .

Nk , Arpita , Payal and Akash smiled seeing his small small gestures to make her comfortable and come out of her zone .

Khushi just gazed at him with unbelievable look where she just looked down not knowing what to say or react .

" Yes she can . She is completely fine aman . No worries at all and college would bring about a good change inside her , after all she is just 20 years" said Arpita .

Aman smiled widely looking at Arpita for giving a green symbol .

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" Aman , Do you think , I would be able to do ?" asked Khushi with a fear tone .

" From when you started fearing khushi? Okay let me put it in this way . Education molds you to be a strong person. You can be your better self , you can fight your insecurities with that " said Aman .

" Thanks Aman . Thank you very much for everything " said Khushi .

" No need of thanks . Just get me a gold medal when you pass out of the college . That is what i want " said Aman with a wink .

" I would surely get it " said Khushi with happy tears .

" No tears" said Aman wiping her tears.

" Which college are you going to enroll ?" asked Khushi .

" Ooty " said Aman .

" Ooty ? Why ?" asked Khushi with a wide tone .

" Because Akash , Nk and me are planning to shift to ooty since we got hold of a large land for business and we need it for head quarters " said Aman .

" Head quarters usually be in the main cities right ?" asked Khushi .

" We have branches khushi , but then we thought why not to be different you see . Foreign clients have many advantages , this is a great spot for tourism and the climate is also too lovely . Food available is also of south indian as well as north indian .So many fruits with one stone " said Aman with a smile .

" Wow that's great " said Khushi with a smile .

" So you are going to college , I would look after the process" said Aman with a smile.

Khushi nods her head .

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Akash , Nk , Aman , Arpita came over there to drop khushi and Payal at the college . Payal too joined the college to complete her final semester which she had left due to financial crisis . She was now 6 month in her pregnancy , but then still she didn't want to loose the opportunity she is getting . So she was adamant to join the college , and everyone agreed to her after a lot of arguments .

" All the best girls . I know you are going to rock it always " said Nk .

" Khushi , If anyone does says anything or make kid of you , go to principal room directly " said Akash .

" I am not a kid Bhai . I can manage" said Khushi looking at Akash .

" But for me , you are my child right ? " asked Akash with a smile .

Khushi slightly punched his shoulder and hugged him .

" Be a obedient girl okay ?" asked Akash .

Khushi nodded her head.

" And remember what I had asked from you khushi " said Aman .

" I would come with gold medal only Patidev (Dear Husband )" said Khushi lifting her head from akash's shoulder to stare him .

" And I know that you would get that for sure " said Aman with a confident tone .

Khushi smiled .

" Okay time to leave . Go inside you both . And Payal stay safe . No running and all " said Arpita with a glare  to Payal as she was always clumsy and flying here and there.

Payal nods her head.

Khushi and Payal left inside the college...

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" Ahhhhhhhh " screamed Payal in pain as Akash rushed her into the emergency ward of the hospital completely worried.

The rest of them followed back of them with the same worried faces.

Akash sat on the chair completely scared of not knowing what to do. He was anxious as well as worried to a very great extent

" Akash. Be strong, Nothing would happen " said Nk seating beside him

" Yes, This would be over too soon," said Aman.

Khushi just stood beside Aman where her face was having many emotions. Her gaze was fixed to the entrance, waiting for any news of her sister

They didn't know how each and every passed on, but their whole worries flew away as they heard the sound of the baby cries.

Tears started rolling from Akash's eyes listening to the sound of the baby. He was feeling relieved, blissful. Mere words weren't enough to describe his feeling.

Soon after some time, Arpita came along with the baby, which was neatly wrapped up in a towel.

All their face had happiness where they did march towards Arpita with a stride to look at the baby. And that is when their sight when to the little creature who was looking at them with his big doe eyes.

" Its a boy," said Arpita with a smile seeing all of their faces.

" How is Payal ?" asked Akash.

" Mom and baby both are safe," said Arpita

" Thank god. Arpita, Give me the baby, Let me lift it first " said Nk with a dominant and cute tone.

" No baby's Phupa have the rights first. Give me the baby, Arpita " said Aman coming forward to her.

" Let Khushi lift the baby, Bua has the whole rights," said Akash with a smile.

" How can I, Bhai ?" asked Khushi with a flustered tone.

" Go on, Khushi," said Aman pushing her forward where Arpita carefully placed the baby in her hands.

Khushi felt her heart beat faster as she saw life in her arms. The baby exactly resembled her sister in all the features. Big doe eyes ,Long nose, and broad forehead. Her lips curved into a warm smile as she felt the baby's hands on her hands which she was holding.

" I am your Chacha Champ," said Nk coming towards Khushi and telling it to him.

" And I am your pupha," said Aman too, coming towards her to admire the bundle of happiness of their life.

As Khushi stared at the baby with admiration her mind mocked her about the past, spoiling the small happiness she felt seeing the baby.

" Your baby would also have been like this right or Would it have been like you or your rapist ?" mocked her mind where tears started rolling from her hazelnut eyes as all the things started hitting her back to again.

" Bhai, Please have this baby," said Khushi with a little choking tone where Akash took the baby and started admiring the baby.

" I would come back after using the the the washroom," said Khushi where she went away from the ward.

Aman understood that she was not doing well from her tone. So he rushed behind her and stopped her by holding her hands.

" What happened?" asked Aman

" Leave me, Aman, Please," said Khushi struggling from his hold where tears were rolling from her eyes

He just slowly pulled her in his embrace and caressed her hair slowly. She broke down in his embrace where she hiccuped and sobbed hardly

" Remembered about your baby ?" asked Aman.

" I don't know how he/she would be. I didn't even know if it is a girl or a boy What type of mother I am, Aman ?" asked Khushi looking at his eyes with just of pain.

" I didn't know if he/she would be like me, or the person who had sown the seeds inside me. Who would he be like ?" asked Khushi innocently looking at his eyes were her eyes showed the sincerity that she wanted to know it badly.

" And what hurts me more is that I would have killed the baby before it would have even come out "

" I killed an innocent Indirectly, And the reason was my love," said Khushi with fresh tears rolling from her eyes

" I don't have any words to say what you are actually feeling I can understand but then there was no fault on you Khushi. No-fault on you at all. You were too innocent as to how the baby was In fact, he/she would really understand why you would have done like that too if you had done it. You were a victim Khushi, You were a victim " said Aman.

" So he/she won't hate me right ?" asked Khushi looking him at hope.

" Your baby won't. It loves you immensely and it can very well understand what situation you are in. Just don't run your imaginations wild Khushi. Don't think things by yourself " said Aman with cooing words.

Khushi just buried her face in his chest, trying to get his words on to his mind. Trying to find solace and answers. Trying to find answers to her questions.

Aman just caressed her hair slowly. He knows he needs to be there whenever she needs him and he would be surely there for her. Any time.

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Akash and Payal named their child name as Avish Singh Raizada and he was the apple of eyes in the whole house. All pampered him to the whole extent. Khushi got more comfortable with Aman meanwhile and they both shifted into the same room as roommates.

Aman helped her many times with her portions as he was a little bit strong in Hindi too.

He knows that she is broken inside to the core and she is learning to live with it in a better way, that is why he never reminded about the things which haunt her.

He let her go with the flow of what she wanted and gave her the freedom to breathe the air without any constraints.

For making her feel better, he and Akash had joined her in an NGO which is set up for women's empowerment and also for helping the women who are at a crisis. This idea was suggested by meera as it helps her to find herself a better person and huge motivations over there.

Khushi starting working at the organization where she had met many people exactly like her and some even more worst than her. She felt herself breaking down with the memories hitting her but then, she managed to have control over herself as she helped people to get better, and also herself as she tended to those people similar to like her. The first time, it was so hard but then later she got strong enough to handle it. She grew an expert in it as she helped people also to mend their hearts along with hers.

She was an inspiration for many ones in the organization for how she was standing still after everything. They believed her to be a wonder woman and Khushi felt herself boost up to do more with the things.

This helped her to form the layers around her heart so strongly such that no others can break it. But then she could easily break down it as it haunts her still. But she managed to distract herself perfectly in all the situations.

And sometimes she did made  her mind ready of the day of how should she let down each of her tears to him. How she is to relieve all her memories one and for all.

One day as she had went to the organization to meet people as usual, her eyes fell onto the new born baby which was placed in the cradle.  It's cries made her go to her where she took the baby in her hands to coo her to sleep.

Her hold was careful and the baby just slept feeling her warmth. Khushi smiled seeing the girl baby where she finally placed the baby on the cradle.

"She got here yesterday night. Her mother died and her father was to sell this baby, but the hospital organisation freed her and joined her here"  said Aisha, Khushi's Savior with a smile.

" Sell the baby?" Asked Khushi with a wide eyes.

" Yeah, I don't get how people could do that" said Aisha.

" When they can see people like us, then what doubt you have in this small baby's case?" asked Khushi looking at the small baby.

Aisha just nods her head in agreement as this world has gone too worse for especially people like them.

" She was crying from yesterday night.  And this is the first time she stopped crying when someone took her into arms and slept just like that " said Aisha.

Khushi smiled looking at the baby.

" She is so cute" said Khushi with a smile.

" We would name her then. What would be her name?" asked Aisha

"Mitra,," said Khushi with a smile.

" Hey khushi," said Aman entering the room where Aisha, Khushi, and Mitra were there.

" You forgot your purse," said Aman handing over the purse to her.

Khushi smiled.

" How are you bhai?" asked Aisha.

" Very fine as long as I am with your sister," said Aman with a wink.

Khushi glared at him a little where she also smiled. It was his small teasings which developed their relationship much more strong. She had now openly started to agree to it and admire too.

" Aman,  I would want you to meet with the smallest person in this organisation," said Khushi holding his hand and dragging him to the cradle.

Aman's face twitched into a smile seeing the small girl sleeping cutely.

" She is so cute," said Aman.

"Yes right?. She was brought in yesterday and would stay here till someone wants to adopt her" said Khushi with a smile looking at the baby.

" Great. What is this Princess name?" asked Aman?

" Mitra," said Khushi with a smile where face twinkled for the first time with some glow after a long time.
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" Aman, I need to speak something with you, " said Khushi clutching her Kurti

" What?" asked Aman.

" Could we adopt Mitra? I am feeling more attached to her. I feel bad that someone else is going to adopt her because I want to be with her, I want to be her mother" said Khushi.

" Why do you feel like to adopt her?" asked Aman with a cool tone. He knows this was going to come anyway as he had seen the bonding of Mitra and Khushi. He was just waiting for her to open up with this thing as he wanted her to take the first step. He wanted to check if she trusted him enough to come and speak to him.

" I feel her in the state of what my child was in when I tried to kill my invisible child when I came to know the truth. I just wanted to help Mitra and give the whole love which I wanted to give my child. I wanted to repent for that decision that day. Even though my baby will not  come alive, I want to feel at least I took some steps taken such that I make her/him feel that I loved him/her, " said Khushi looking at Aman. Her eyes were plain but held a lot of emotions.

" We can adopt Mitra, Khushi, I don't have any problem in welcoming the innocent life into our lives'" said Aman.

" Aman, don't accept it because of me, " said Khushi.

" I am not accepting just because of you Khushi. We both need a life to look after us in the old age, and our family would be complete with Mitra. We would have our own child now. I am accepting for these too, " said Aman.

" I am sorry, I would never be able to get pregnant or satisfy your needs aman," said Khushi with a sad tone.

" Khushi, relationship can never work like this. Some happy sacrifices are to be made to lead a happy life. And I am happy as I got you. I need just you with all your flaws. Let it be whatever it want," said Aman in a honest tone.

" But, see you itself told we need a child for our future and now that I cannot get pregnant forever, it is a disappointment for you right ? You would have a feeling in the heart right ?," Asked Khushi.

" You are only thinking like that. I don't have any thoughts like that Khushi. Not everytime that it is necessary that we need to have our own child. We can adopt a child who don't have anyone and make them as our integral part of life like how you became mine after I had met you. It doesn't need to be our own blood and all. If not then how we both got connected ?," asked Aman trying to make her understand.

" Why are you like this?" asked Khushi with a little amused tone.

" Are you questioning me or asking me in amusement," asked Aman with a perplexed tone.

" I am asking in amusement. I have never met such a caring and amusing person like you man. Never," said Khushi.

" Thank you for the compliment," said Aman with a huge smile.

" Seriously how can you think like this," asked Khushi.

" Thoughts are the one which frames you a better person. And I know I am a better person with my thoughts so different from other men in the world," said Aman with a wink.

" Yes you are  better than many men in this world," said Khushi with a warm smile. She can accept this fact blindly as she knew how a gem of person he is.

\Aman smiled looking at her.

" So let us complete the formality and bring Mitra Mathur home," said Aman.

Khushi nodded her head with a beautiful smile where her eyes shined with excitement and happiness.

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Few days later,

Their mansion was decorated beautifully for two things. One is the entry of the youngest member , Mitra and other is of the Marriage of Nk and Arpita. Finally Nk and Arpita were going to get married as Arpita had completed her higher studies.

Khushi had herself kept ready a cradle for her princess whereas 1.5 years old Avish had come running behind Khushi to help her. He was clinging to her as if a glue because he loves his Khushi bua a lot than anyone else.

He  first was very possessive seeing Khushi being with Mitra at that orphanage when he had once went to visit her. But then his Bua had explained him calmly of how Mitra is also related to him.

His eyes widened with happiness by the thought that there was going to be a little sister for him to play with. With excitement , he was helping khushi and also gave up his toys everything for Mitra with utmost love.

Everyone watched Avish and Khushi with just a smile. Aman and Akash brought Mitra, tightly wrapped in a towel.

Khushi ran towards them with excitement so see her daughter. Aman handed her the baby slowly.

" Stop there, itself," said Payal having an aarti plate on her hands.

" Khushi, you all stand together," said Akash coming to Payal's side.

Payal smiled and did aarti of them both and welcomed the little member into the family.

Khushi then put the little Mitra in the craddle where Avish slowly pulled Khushi's pallu asking her to lift him to.

Khushi picked up avish in her arms and made him see his new sister where he smiled looking at Mitra.

" Cuuutttteeee," he mumbled with his kiddish tone.

All of them giggles listening this where Aman lifted Avish and circled him.

" You are too cute buddy," said Aman kissing his cheeks.

Avish gives a glare to Akash and wipes his cheeks.

 "Avish likes only my kisses," said Khushi to Aman with a wink.

" You are spoiling him a lot," said Aman.

" He is my favorite and I would spoil him. Am I right Avi?" asked Khushi to which Avish nods his head obediently.

" I don't get how he is so attached to you khushi," said Payal with a smile.

" You wait and see how Mitra is going to attached to you all than me," said Khushi.

" Yeah, She would be our princess," said Akash with a smile looking at the sleeping Mitra in the cradle.

" Hello excuse me. You forgot the groom," said Nk coming towards them. He was ready in his wedding costume.

" Wow Nk, for the first time in the life you are looking handsome," said Aman with a teasing smile.

Nk gave an angry glare at Aman.

" You are looking awesome Nk. Don't take this stupid's words in your mind," said Khushi.

" Only you are always in my side Khushi," said Nk hugging her.

Aman grins a little to which Nk smiles.

" Arpita would fall for you for sure," said Payal with a smile where she took her Kajal from her eyes and kept behind his ears.

" Payal, I think we can leave to the hotel, it is already time," said Akash.

" Yeah, We can leave, but before that let me have my princess in my arms," said Nk peeping into the craddle where he slowly took the baby in his arms.

" Groom sir, you could cuddle and love her whenever you want. Your marriage is happening today , so be a little fast," said Akash.

Nk gave the baby to Payal and gave a small smile to Akash. Later all of them left to the restaurant where the marriage was going to happen. Nk's parents, Manorama, Manohar, few other relatives were present there.The marriage took place without any hindrance where happiness started flooding in their life.

Khushi started accepting her changes open heard. With Mitra's entry in her life, she was almost concentrating on the kids and the studies. But then still there were those memories, but she managed to lock it inside in her heart. Not deep still though.

Due to the work in organisation , she felt herself more stronger than ever. And that was the reason that she started accepting things. She started accepting Aman's love as she felt the confident develop inside him for her. 

Even though, she can never love him, she started liking him and respects him a lot. Because he had helped her in almost every way possible to gather her broken pieces.

He didn't make it difficult to her by questioning about those past moments , but then he provided a way for her to look into her future which is filled of happiness. She had also questioned him once on this matter where she shared something which she wanted to do to him.

" It has been years since we are married. Why didn't you once too ask what had actually happened with me? Why you chose to stay silent " asked Khushi looking at Aman.She always wanted to ask him this question because usually husbands wanted to know what had happened to the other in detail. So she was curious of why aman didn't ask her anything regarding the same.

" Because I know reliving those memories would break you and I don't want you to break I want you to be strong. I know Khushi that is a part which is always going to be with you, but then you need to move forward along with it " said Aman.

"Do you know why I never bared my heart to anyone? .Because,I want to tell it to that person, who broke my whole world. I want to relieve those memories to that person, to make sure that he falls into a deep pit of hell such that he can never come out of it eventhough he wants"

" I want to pour my heart to him in such a way that he feels the things haunting him every second like how each and every thing is haunting him. I don't want him to forget his sins for even a second. If he thinks a simple imprisonment is enough then he is totally wrong. He needs to pay for his deeds, He have to," confessed Khushi her true feelings of what she wanted to do with Arnav.

Aman was totally taken aback by the words she had told. He knows that she wanted to punish him and give the taste of betrayal, but never he guessed that it would be of this intensity.

" Wouldn't it rip his soul apart hearing all this ?" asked Khushi with a little smile.

"Wouldn't it rip your soul too, Khushi ?" asked Aman

" It won't rip my soul as it did when I came to know that he was behind it, right ?" asked Khushi with a little glint of madness in her face.

" You would get destroyed khushi. You would break yourself more, "said Aman in a worried tone. He was hell worried seeing something more in her face which he had never known.

" I would, but I would be able to get up. I have confidence. I want to confront him, I want to ask how could he do such kind of things to me. "

"I want to hold his collar and ask him that why did he do this to me, to us, everything was so good between us" said Khushi with fresh tears rolling from her eyes.

Aman looked at her perplexed.

" You know aman, I loved him madly, madly to the extent that in the weak of moment, I was ready to forgive him forgetting everything. That is what my situation is, "

" When I am suffering from this every single moment, why shouldn't he. He must. He might feel himself to have a normal life but he wouldn't be able to do as the guilt would engulf him very second and I would make sure it happens, " said Khushi with a determined tone.

" I thought your plan is till deceiving him by saying your false play," said Aman.

Khushi nods her head as no.

" It would be an easy punishment Aman. It would be too easy compared to what I am going through every minute," said Khushi looking at him.

" Do you love him still?" asked Aman the thoughts which was coming inside his heart.

" I regret that I loved him," said Khushi.

" So you don't now?" asked Aman.

"  I don't love him . I hate him now. I loath him to the core to the extent that the love for him has been vanished and destroyed completely," said Khushi with no emotions.

" Would you be able to do this?" asked Aman.

" For seeing myself in the mirror without any shame and disgust, I need to do that"

" For loving myself again, for giving myself a hope that my self respect is not destroyed completely into pieces,I need to do that"

" I need to do justice to my unborn baby," said Khushi with more tears rolling from her already teary eyes.

" I decided to do this the minute I had came to know the truth about my unborn baby. That it is not going to end with the my fake act, but with my complete brokedown. A fire rose inside me and it is still burning inside me every minute"

" Your all support gave me a push to look my life from different aspect and I am loving this life which is filled with peace but then I can't be able to move on till that moment I met him again," 

" And after that moment, I would never see him in my life. I would never turn back to him or his family," said Khushi.

Aman just stared at her.

" I am afraid for you," said Aman in honest tone. He don't know why, he doesn't feel this all right. 

" Nothing would happen. When I have you all by my side. I just wanted to share it to you, today. I don't know why, don't ask me reasons," said Khushi

" I am always open to you Khushi. Whatever the reason may be," said Aman.

" I know," said Khushi leaning on to his shoulder.

Aman just slowly caress her hair.

" I just wish that you surpass it well," said Aman.

" I would aman," said Khushi in a confident tone.

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2.5 years later.

Aman came rushing inside the room at which Khushi was preparing notes for her class.

"What happened?" asked Khushi seeing Aman.

" He is getting released, " said Aman where khushi lost her color. Her face became pale.

" Khushi, " said Aman looking at her terrified face.

" When is he getting released?" asked Khushi with a stammer.

"Tomorrow, " said Aman.

Khushi sat on the stool completely stupefied. Even though she had known that she had to face it any day, she didn't know that the day would be tomorrow.

She was now hell nervous as the last straw of her past was widely open for her to face. She need to face it anyhow now.

But the question now was would she be able to do it ? Would she be meet him and convey everything ? Would she be able to do it ? she asked herself.

Because that time she was confident and she herself had consoled aman in that matter. But now, she don't know . She is afraid and is feeling relucant.

Aman hugged her silently to provide the support as he saw her numbed face expression.

" If you don't want, I would make sure that he never touches your shadow too. Tell me Khushi " said Aman.

" I would meet him, Aman, I need my justice. I need a lot of answers," said Khushi looking at Aman with few tears rolling from her eyes. She just leaned on him for support.

" I just need some confidence Aman," said Khushi.

" You are a confident women Khushi. Inspiration for many other women. What more confident do you need?" asked Aman.

" I was able to give confidence in case of others. I don't know in my own case,that too now, Aman," said Khushi.

" Think of all the things that had happened and reset yourself that when you come out of there, you dump and bury all the things in a grave which you would never think about again. You need to just have the memory that you punished him and gave him a fitting reply for all his deeds," said Aman.

" I too hope for the same. This much years, I had buried it to face this day," said Khushi.

" You would be able to do. Don't worry at all," said Aman kissing her forehead.

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Khushi came to the Kozhikode prison at 7 am along with Aman.

Khushi holded Aman's hand tightly as she was fearing for the incident.

"He would be out at 7.30" said Aman.

Khushi nodded her head where she gazed at the door in anticipation of Arnav.

" Shall I leave? I would be in the restaurant" said Aman. He didn't want to leave her but Khushi clearly told him that she wanted to face it alone so he didn't have any other way rather than obeying her.

He himself was feeling his blood pressure raising in every second with the thought that his khushi had to meet that scumbag. But then he couldn't do anything as this is the time for her to get justice. He can't be an obstacle in this. She had to do this for herself.

Khushi nods her head.

" I would take care, this is my revenge, I need to face it alone as I had said you before," said Khushi.

" All the best. Just don't hurt yourself in this process," said Aman kissing her forehead warmly where he then left in the car making his heart rigid.

Khushi clutched the shawl of her salwar tightly as her heart beat was just increasing every second.

She didn't know how few minutes passed by where her watch rings with an alarm indicating it was 7.30 am.

Tik tik 

Tik tik

Tik tik

Tik tik

Tik tik her heart was beating and it skipped a few beats seeing a person coming out of the prison. Because she knows it was him,

Even though she was a little far away to recognize the person, she could feel his presence.

How amusing it was right? Even after this much time, her heart felt his presence and was beating for him ?

How stupid of her heart ? She thought in her mind.

As she notes him appearing close to her , her breathe was totally caught up as she did got a full glance of him at the same cloth he was wearing at that day when he was taken to the prison.

The 7 year shaby clothes was fitting him now too but then he had lost his weight  where now he is looking completely shrunken and his face was having glow as came towards her.

A few tears rolled from her eyes as she did saw the glow in his eyes and a hearty smile as he came towards her like a child who got his mother back.

Her heart was paining in agony as she felt painful of going to wipe this smile for ever.

Should she really do it asked her heart  with a lot of emotions seeing him. Every other thing which she had in her mind crushed as she had a glimpse of him.

She was feeling painful and pitiful unknowingly.

As she was immersed in her thoughts, she was rushed into a bone crushing hug by Arnav where his tears just wetted her tops.

"Khushi," muttered Arnav with a lot of emotions his voice. She could clearly feel the emotions of longing,pain and Love of him towards her.

Was it really love? She asked for herself in her mind where she just closed her eyes tightly feeling a lot of emotions hitting back to her.............................

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