1 September 2021, Sunday
POV: Sirania Deroz

Death Diary,

September is here, the day has my spirits soaring beyond the colorful boughs above. The brilliant shafts of sunlight caress the carpet of reds and golds before me, laid out like a carpet for the Royalty. Each breath of the fresh air fills me with a sense of life that almost makes me want to shout out loud, just to hear my voice echo amidst the trees - like a brave warrior of old.

Every beauty is ruined when I had a mini heart attack. I was sleeping like a bear in hibernation and got hastily woken up by Dad's call, he ordered me to come to the office before lunchtime, palpitation can felt. For the first time in my life, I thought mom should be here with me, adrenaline rushed into my body, I never felt so vulnerable before.

I got ready in a formal office dress white shirt with green coat,  full-length palazzo, pointed hells and hair all tied up. Also, I informed Cristina in case I didn't come back, she motivated me further and I entered dad's cabin taking a deep breath but my legs were trembling. I thought I may not be able to walk out safely today. One gentleman was sitting on the couch facing dad.

"Good morning." I greeted him in a low voice.

"Ahh you are here, Mr. Oath, she is Sirania, my daughter and Sirania, he is Mr. Oath, Clazer's dad." Dad introduced us to each other.

The way he stressed on term Clazer, I knew I am dead. Talking about his dad, he looks elegant too, he is young to be a father, genetics I loved them.

He is going to be my father-in-law. It was crazy overthinking, Dad really did it, and he did it so soon! I thought he might have considered my request as a joke of adolescence even though I am 21.

Mr. Oath glanced at me, I was sure he was about to ask me about myself but I was overthrown for what he asked me, "How much do you like Clazer?"

Man, that's too straightforward, My brain froze, Taking in a deep breath, I replied, "Too much..."

"How much? " he interrogated further.

"Too too much!" I answered with my frozen brain.

He laughed "I loved Clazer's mom since childhood but could never express my feelings to her. Being an Orphan child I needed money for tuition. I lost my virginity to someone I don't even remember now. All this time she loved me but thought of me like some bad boy who sleeps with anyone for money.

On her twentieth birthday, she contacted me and, out of nowhere, asked if I could sleep with her. I agreed because I needed the money and also she was my first love. For the first time in so many years, I was scared to touch someone. She was wealthy and prosperous unlike me, her family cared about her so much whereas I don't even have one.

When I reached her home, she told me not to speak a word till the morning, no question, no justification nothing, all she did that night was hug me tightly and cry until she fall asleep, but I couldn't. Morning she handed me my fees, I left with so many questions.

She contacted me every day since that night, we repeated this for months. She paid me every time for a hug.

I was frustrated, she only hug me and never even talk neither when we are alone or in front of everyone in college, so I decide I will refuse to come over one night, and didn't receive her telephone, she ran over to my place, ringing the door of my one-room home, when I opened the door she threw herself on me, we both lost our balance and fell she was over me, she claimed over and hug me,
"I love you" she confessed "

She need all my love, time, and attention, and not merely my body. She told me that she asked me every time because she did not want me to sell my body for money anymore.

No one can love a person like me but she did, and later we married. And today, she left me with Clazer alone in this world.

So do you love Clazer as she loved me? Will you do anything for him? Do you love him enough to marry him?" His eyes were glazed as he asked me this question.

He just opened his heart to me. I mustered all the courage and said, "Yes, I love him enough to marry him."

Dad looked at me with an expression that stating me to rethink my decision.

Dad's problems were:
1. Insurance (important )
2. I don't know him properly.
3. Direct marriage or engagement is a problem and we are 20 only.
4. Clazer is in darkness.
5. He might have someone in his life probably hiding.
6. I can't work at all. (It was a very important for dad, but I will do everything for him, from cooking to cleaning.)
7. Mood swings are common in youth.

Father-in-law's (Mr Oath's) problems:
1. Clazer has a health problem?
2. He still thinks that his mom is alive sometimes. (Sounds serious but I will help him come out of this depression.)

So, to solve these problems, I came up with an idea from my many overthinking scenarios.

I suggested, "I will date him till 23rd December 2022, that is roughly one and a half years to understand each other and to know if we are ideal for each other or not. Also, one day before Christmas, that's on 24 December 2022, we will tell our decision to Dad's."

The nice plan right? I am born smart, I know that. They both agreed to it not this fast, I convinced them for 3 straight hours, Now we have to execute this plan.

But the plan has some conditions:

1. No force, Clazer can refuse before starting but not after it begins.
2. On 24 December, the decision will be announced.
3. After the decision, the business will continue.
4. Our bonds won't affect the business.
5. Both of us can't quit till Christmas once started.
6. Most importantly, both of us can't cheat on each other.
7. I can't talk to you until your dad explains everything to you.
8. This will be a secret between family members only.
9. After completion of graduation, in February, we will move to America in the same training institute and complete our training together.

If we decide to separate next Christmas, we will still have to face each other.

I am excited...

The End

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