POV ~ Clazer Oath telling the past to Dr.Ruther
Date 11 March 2022

Ruder was with me,

"What next tell me?" Ruder asked me a dozen questions as the doctor was worried if I lost memory, he was testing my knowledge.

"Ok, here I go, I dated Sirania Deroz in London and I remember everything about us but the problem is about that hallucination person, not her"

Ruder surprisingly look at Clazer and said"You have a medical history of hallucinations always since your mom passed away and doesn't surprise me at all. What surprises me is that girl isn't good. "

"Sirania is ideal for me, I love her, and I am never gonna decline her, I am going to engage her this Christmas."

"About Kabir?" Ruder asked me out of the blue.

"How is he?"I reacted like it doesn't matter.

Ruder was literally shocked but had no words. I resume "Sirania is gonna join the Alexford Training Center, soon here in California." He said changing the topic.

Meanwhile, the waitress of the house come in and served us a hot cup of coffee and some snacks with food in my mouth, I continued" I know her mom is eyeing our money but Dad already told you about why we can't as break the bond. Sirania is very cute kind loving, it's hard to believe that she will cheat on me but her greedy mom can."I said eating cake.

"About that hallucination one, is that a boy?" Ruber asked me again

"I didn't know, maybe he is but I can't recall anything "

Ruder was not interested at all like he knew everything that happened with me but he was holding that secret within himself and acting straight like he knew nothing maybe he was worried about me or himself.

Ruder then slowly put forward what he preferred to say "Clazer you should take little rest. Mom, hallucination, Sirania, and whatnot, all are disturbing you. I will leave now it's late and I have to enjoy the spring too, I already spent these many days with you in the hospital. You know Dad is waiting."

I requested him to wait in dramatic lines. I meet you a week ago and you don't even spend much time with me and you are changed like emotional, cliche dialogues.

"I have been seating here for hours but you weren't in the mood to speak"

" I am interested to tell you now, please listen" I puff my cheeks, but that work on girls, not harsh boys.

"Are you still that old Clazer? Hmmm, are you? He asked.

I instantaneous answered back"We will be best friends again like in school and college "

" I don't blame you, maybe I am changed a lot. Do you remember you beat me once?" He again started asking strange questions.

"Yeah for some reason I beat you, I remember maybe, it wasn't that serious or because Dad compares us. It doesn't matter now, I am sorry, If I didn't apologize " I chuckled.

Ruder looks awful. Why was he so serious?

" I am leaving, you need a doctor, not a friend. Bye, ok and take medicines and rest and also call me when you need me." was his final remark.

" I will go to the bathroom and I will get relax there"

Ruder smiled and laughed" No harder rubs it may hurt your"

"Idiot I was going to take a bath, I will walk with you downstairs "

" You must rest. I can go myself "he smiles. He walked out of my room. I can hear his footsteps stepping downstairs but stopped in another room.

Suddenly, my phone started vibrating.
It was a message from company numbers.

I opened it.

"What use of this life,
If it didn't hold any mystery.
Secrets are part of life. "

Don't trust him

My heartbeat was high.
Him? By chance Ruder?

Someone knew Ruder was with me. I started getting panicked, calls that number back,

Though app like Truecaller claims that as an unknown number.

'Did Ruder leave?' I thought.

I started running downstairs toward Dad's Reading standing near the closed window and spotted Ruder and Dad talking, I stood there listening to them.

"Anything good? " Dad with a magazine in hand looking at asked Ruder

"Nothing is Good, Everything is at its worst," Ruder replied looking at him.

"So how can we overcome this dilemma hallucination again?" Dad questioned

"Uncle, did you even know what he is suffering from? It's better he doesn't remember that"

"Don't worry about that, you aren't even telling me what's a problem with him. You knew much stuff about him even when you were away from him here in California."

"Oh! Yeah, whatever who cares. I heard he was admitted to the hospital and that's the reason I am here because I am his friend, I tried to know the reason but he has his own problem, and the majority of them were the problem you created. I will be going for today I will come back tomorrow." Ruder just raised his voice so loud against Dad, something is fishy.

Ruder walked out from the library room through the first door and through the main entrance he leaves the house, I was standing near the second door and heard everything Ruder and my dad were talking but hardly I can understand anything.

"So everyone is holding a secret beneath their heart. "

But who is the sender of that message? How can he/she be so accurate?

.........

To be continued