Author's Note:

This was never ment to be an accual story but I felt like it was left off in a bad place and it was really conffusing, so its a short-story now, and I really hope you enjoyed this chaper and thoughs to come. This will be updated slowly and randomly. Cover above is by Tessa_Zale isn't it amazing? This chapter may trigger some people.

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•| Chapter one|•

August 17th, 2017

I couldn't breathe, I couldn't see either. Everything was blending together. The voice sounded like it was far away, very far away. When in reality Mrs. Kenner was standing right beside me, telling me Brandon committed suicide as police officers walked in and out of their two story white picket fence house.

"No," I barely whispered shaking my head violently, and sending my long wavy hair with it. "He promised me he-."

"Yes, I found him in the attic this morning. Af-afterfinding hi-his n-note on h-his b-b-bed," her voice wavered and her forest green eyes looked pained and dark. Not there usual bright color, but a darker shade. Her usual strong and confident being was broken and unsure. Her usual smile was gone and replaced with tears and a frown.

"Th-This was on his b-bed, it's addressed to you. I-I don't know what's in it. For it's y-your's." She stumbled over her words, trying to be strong. For me, and for Seira.

She's always been a strong, independent woman. Even after her husband past she still stood tall. You would think she's okay, but on the inside she is dying.

They could hear her cry from there rooms at night as she broke. All the pain she hides and her acting throughout the day has taken their toll on her.

This time it will be her son, not her husband . This time it is her baby. Her baby boy who at the ripe age of 18 took his life. This type of burden will never be lifted from her shoulders.

"It'll get better, with time sweetie," she tried to reassure me. No, I thought, the pain just becomes easier to bare. To live with.

"It's also okay to let your feelings out. To show how you're truly feeling. To show your not okay," I tell her.

The look on her face tore me up before she started sobbing. I gave her a hug, rubbing her back as tears rolled down my face too.

It felt like forever that we just stayed like that, when really it was only ten minutes.

She pulled away first as a police officer asked her if she could answer some questions. She said, "yes, just give me a minute."

"Take your time," the woman said.

"Autumn, bring Seira to the police station p-please? She's over at Ashley's house. You know where that is is right?"

"Yes, do you want me to, to t-tell h-her? " I asked, dead of emotions.

" The sooner the better, and coming from you will make it easier on her I think."

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"I'll see you soon! " A happy Seira yelled back to her friend Ashley as we walked down the street.

How am I going to tell her? To ruin her day, week, life? How am I supposed to tell a fifteen year old girl that her older brother, who she loves and idolizes with all her heart, isn't with us anymore? How do I break her heart and dreams?

"Seria, your mom asked me to come get you."

"Well, duh. Why else would you be picking me up? "

" Here, let's go sit on the swings for a minute while we talk, " I instruct as we pass by a tiny park.

You can do this. Just rip the band-aid off.

"Seria, it's Brandon."

"What?"

"Brandon, he-" I just couldn't bring myself to tell her.

"He what? Come on Autumn, you can't just leave me hanging like that!" She whined. "Did he finally ask you out?"

"What? No. He, ummm, look Seira..."

"You're making me nervous, tell me?" I started picking at my cuticles, trying not to let the tears come. "Autumn, what's going on?"

My eyes betrayed me, the tears just running down my face. "H-he, he's gone," I sobbed.

"Wh-what do you mean gone?"

"He's gone. He's fucking gone.... gone.... gone," I kept repeating the word, it was the only word that seemed to come out of my mouth.

"Autumn, what the hell is going on? What do you mean he's gone?"

Looking into her eyes, I could see her unshed tears threatening to break loose.

"He committed suicide," I barley whispered out. After a few moments I didn't think she heard me until I looked up. She was shaking her head rapidly.

"No, no no no no."

She started sobbing as I held her in my arms. I bet we looked like crazy people, both of us standing in the middle of a park crying our hearts out.

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