This chapter is triggering for some. Fighting and nonacceptance take place.

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September 1, 2017

"I can't believe we only have three days till senior year starts," Carry pouted as she measured out two cups of powdered sugar.

I can't either. Especially since all my plans were cancelled. I no longer had a person that I could go out with a bang and make memories that I would smile  and laugh at in the future.

"I know."

"I just, it's not really registering that this will be my last year in school before college.  Like, where did the time go?" 

Lets see, we didn't go to any dances except the one in Junior year, but that was because Brandon had a 'cool plan' to pull. We didn't go to any parties, mostly because Brandon or myself wasn't invited. We would just stay home at someone's house doing nothing. And there was the fact that Brandon and I were keeping our depression away from you for the most part because you were suffering yourself and didn't need to deal with our problems as well.

"I don't know, the years just flew by." Except for when we were in school, then the days dragged on. Especially when they decided to mess with me, which was most days.

 "That they did. I mean adults always told me that as you get older time goes by faster, but I just didn't believe them." She slowly spread the frosting over the nuts onto the banana bread.

Neither did I, and if anything they seem to be going slower.

"Anyone home?" Carry's dad called out.

"We're in the kitchen!" Carry said smiling down at the delicious bread.

Max walked into the kitchen with a smile on his face, but when he saw the bread we made it disappeared. He slowly walked into the kitchen and crossed his arms.

"I dropped by to give you this," he said, holding up a bag from Kohl's. "But it looks like you wont be needing it."

Oh no. Please don't do it. Just set the bag down and leave. Please.

"What do you mean I wont need it?" Carry scrunched up her eyebrows, clearly not seeing the signs of whats going to happen.

"Seeing as you-"

"Max? What are you doing here?" Carry's mom asked, setting down her purse. She looked exhausted from working at the hospital.

"I was just stopping by to give Carry something, I was just leaving Marindia." 

Nice save, I rolled my eyes. Slowly he set the bag on the counter before he left the house. Carry quickly opened the bag, a light smile on her face. He had bought her a nice blue, purple, and pink sunset dress. When she caught sight of the price tag her smile disappeared and her eyes began to fill with tears.

"Ca-" Marindia began, but she was already outside.

"I'll take care of her." Before I went outside I looked at the tag, and noticed it was a extra large. Carry at the least wore a double x. The price was astonishing, he paid sixty-five dollars for it.

Walking into her back yard I couldn't see her. I didn't even have to think before I walked into the woods. Once I was able to see the tiny pond I spotted Carry sitting on the bench under a weeping willow. As I got closer I could see the tears on her face.

"Hey," I greeted once I was close enough, "Want to talk about it?"

She quickly wiped her tears away before putting a smile on her face. 

"Yeah, I'm fine."

"People who say they are fine lie. I know you better than others. I know somethings wrong, I'm your best friend through-"

"Thick and thin, I know. Its just, its hard. I'm trying my best to please him, to be his perfect daughter. But nothing I ever do is good enough. All month on that trip I was miserable." Slowly I sat down next to her.

"No one is perfect. Stop trying to be, you're just going to hurt yourself in the process."

"You don't understand. I barley ate when he was around. He would order at the restaurants for me, and he would take me shopping but wouldn't buy me anything because everything we could agree on was nice wasn't in my size. He doesn't realize how hard it is for me to loose weight, I'm lucky I lost all the weight I did-" I cut her off, not liking where she was taking this.

"And he doesn't know all the details on how you hurt yourself to loose that weight. He doesn't know how much your mom hurts because of that, and even now because she see's you are still unhappy and that its mostly because of him."

"I know. That's why she kicked him out. She loves him too much to divorce him, but I think that would be better, for all of us. He's already moved on. He divided to tell me while we were on the beach, where she and her two kids were meeting us for the rest of the trip. Who does that?"

This was news to me. She never mentioned them before.

"Yeah, I didn't tell you because we just lost our best friend and I wasn't there. I didn't want to add onto your plate more than I already have to. He was so caring and loving to her and her kids. He seemed to love her daughter, Vera. He not once was rude, or ordered her food for her. Not once did he tell her he didn't like what she wanted to get. Not once can I remember him ever being that loving to me, his own daughter!"

I didn't know what to say, I was stunned.

"He gives my mom false hope on them being able to work things out too. It's like he was a totally different man once they joined us. The way he treated Kimberly, Vera, and Nathan was something I've never seen him act like. He was so loving, and accepting too! Nathan is gay! And he had no problem with it what so ever when he came out to us. He never said anything cruel or made any faces. But when Camden came out as pan-sexual and Jordan as trans he blew a gasket. You remember, you were there to see it all go down."

My heart broke for her brother's. Her dad kicked each  out shortly after they came out, and Camden didn't look back. Not once did he call or send a letter. Not once in the last six years has he been in any contact with Carry or Marindia. I mean yeah Marinida just stand by and watch as her husband abused her sons, mentally and physically, but she was hurting so much after they left. She still hurts to know two of her baby's aren't with her anymore. Jordan changed his name to Johnathan. He got top surgery and bottom surgery. Johnathan stops by once in a while, and he at least keeps in contact with Carry. He is slowly forgiving Marindia for just standing by as they were put threw hell. Carry only gets information on Camden when John shares something he knows, and from the sounds of it it sounds like he's doing well.

"Well, they aren't his kids?" I offered, but I knew that was nothing to go off of. Max was the type of guy who didn't care if you were a stranger, he'd share his beliefs without so much as a second thought, or a thought about the after math of his beliefs.

"You know that's a lie. He went off on a lesbian couple at the fair for holding hands, and a gay couple who kissed, once! He said their PDA was disgusting, but that's barley any PDA!"

"I know. Just, just try to not let him get to you? There is nothing wrong with your size. If anything your size makes you not only you,  but an amazing huger and I'm sure a great cudddler."

She laughed, "Maybe I should become a cuddlist? I'd be great at it wouldn't I?"

"Yeah, yeah you would." And with that we walked back to her house, talking about what she should wear on the first day of school. I said comfy clothes, but she said something 'fancy' like. I would actually love to see what her something fancy would be, it's not like stores with super nice clothes have a lot of things for bigger women which is sad because they say they have stuff for anyone and anyone when they in-fact don't.

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Keivin and I were setting the table when my dad walked in. I could tell he had stopped with Derric for a drink at the pub downtown on his way home with how hard he slammed the front door. 

"Lauren, I'm home!" He called through out the house.

"I'm in the kitchen," she replied, but she didn't need to because he was already sitting down at the table.

"What did my wonderful wife make for me today?"

"Hm, I don't know. I think I made garlic and cheese chicken with greenbeand and homemade mashed potatoes," she teased giving him a kiss on his cheek.

"What? I thought we were having fish?" 

"Well Autumn and Keivin don't-"

"I dont care what that ungrateful brat likes and doesnt like, she should eat whats put on the table infront of her or starve for all I care. You're my wife, that means you please me! I'm the one who's put first, not her!"

Mom's face contorted into one of shock, hurt, and anger.

"Come with me?" Keivin asked as he headed for the back door. Slowly I followed my brother outside. We both sat on the swing set we've had since forever as we heard the faint screaming of our parents.

"Shit," he swore.

"What?"

"I have to go to the bathroom." He got up and was walking tords the sliding glass door.

"You could just go in the bushes, if you're shy I can turn around and clos-"

"Fuck no," he muttered his voice filled with anger as he stormed into the house, but turning going into the kitchen instead of down the hallway. I could hear the yelling of my parents and Keivin through the open back door. I slowly made my way over to the door, to see my dad throwing a punch at Keivin while my mom was hysterical in tears a red hand print on her cheek. Slowly I made my way inside, closing the door as to not alert the neighbors. 

My dad had never hit my mom before, ever. So seeing her red cheek surprised me, and the fact that he wasn't just play fighting with Keivin but actually trying to harm him shocked me even more. When he got keivin down on the ground and was mercilessly throwing punches at him I started to scream for him to stop.

"Look what you're doing! Just stop! You're hurting him!" My screaming did nothing to phase him. I quickly made my way over to him and tried to get him off of Keivin. I had little to no effect on him. I was jerked back when I felt a blow to my nose. I had been elbowed in the nose.

Looking at Keivin, I knew he was fighting as much and as hard as he possibly could, but he was losing and he was struggling to keep his eyes open. I didn't think before I grabbed the closest thing to me and threw it at his side. It was only a pillow, so I knew it didn't hurt him, but it did get his attition.

"Oh, now you're throwing stuff at me you bitch?" He stormed over to me. "You just don't know when to mind your own business, do you?"

He griped my arms and shook me. I tried to get out of his hold, but it only made him tighten his grip on me. Tears flowed down my face as I was slammed against the wall, and punched in the stomach.

"You just never know when to stop, do you slut? Always ruining everyones lives you touch. Slowly driving them off the edge and into darkness. You're responsible for both of there deaths." He spit in my face, shoving his knee between my legs. 

It is your fault they are gone. It's your fault for everything going wrong in Carry's life. You make everyone's life hell! You! Not anyone or anything else, you! 

I tried to stop the voice, but it wouldn't stop. It just got worse as his attack and words got worse.

My mother finally stopped crying and came over as Keivin was talking into the phone.

"Steve? Steve, it's me, Laur. Your wife. Please let her go, please stop hurting her," she begged but he didn't bulge. She kept pleading, but it was no use. He was too far gone.

"These are the consequence's you have you face you whore! You wanted this thing! You-"

He was cut off by a pounding at the door, and someone yelling that they were from the police department. He stood frozen as Keivin let them in. And in less than a minute they had him in hand cuffs and walking to the back of their patrol car.

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Wow. I didn't even know all this about Carry and her family until I started writing it :') And I didn't know the fight was going to take place either, but shocking right? Who knew?I'm going through this journey with you guys too, for most of the events ;) 

I know, another filler chapter. But we are getting so close to one of the key points in the story, I promise. I am also making a 'part' two to this chapter. It's just going to explain what happens at the station and how Aut is dealing with the after math of the attack. I was going to continue it in this chapter, but I felt then this chapter would be too long. IDK, I might just add the second part to this chapter within the next week. I just needed to expand Carry's character more before the roller-coaster we're on drops from slowly going up the hill. Well, really I want to expand on most of the character's character :') I really need to stop making them all have daddy issues :') Maybe the next one will have Mommy issues? I just need to stop hurting all my children and making them suffer, but I honestly don't know how to do that. I'm sorry( I'm not sorry).

Next update is planned for June 13th or sooner, stay tuned.