darkness...

sorrow...

despair...

broken...

lost...

empty...

cold...

How do I say something without feeling those thing?

it just hard...

billion thing run in my head

difficult to choose what to say...

sometime i want to say i really care and will always be ready for

the one i care about

I don't want

them to think they are weak...

i don't want people to go through the pain of

betrayed

the pain of being abandon...

the fear of loosing...

forgetting...

the one you care for

I use to not care...

use to not feel sorry

use to talking and laughing...

use to show my true emotion

use to not hiding my fear and emotion

through a fake smile...

people said that I am cute

ya sure...

the fake smile make it cute...

They don't really understand...

What is like to suffer in pain

But only thing that you could show is

just a smile

I wish that

people can understand

how it feel

when you are suffering

deeply

and when you

try to talk...

all you get in return is

argument...

hitting

if it not goes their way

why don't it just stop?

when i want to go to my

world...

deep in my mind

for few minute...

all i get is insult

and bossing me around

why don't they all understand?

have thy forget how it feel?

they want to repeat the mistake of their parents on other?