He stared at the floor.
He has never felt so alone in his life.

Even before going to real school, when he homeschooled, he at least wasn't gaslighted into thinking that his situation was better than what it actually was.

He knew his father was busy and that after his mother's death he changed.

He knew that he was popular due to his reputation as an Agreste and as he was a model.

He knew he was alone.

He didn't like it, that's why he wanted to go to real school.

But...

Why is he feeling more alone now than ever?

The thing is, before this all, he never really held secrets. Never needed to, he did want things and kept them to himself.

But that was voluntary.

Now though, now it's different.

He needs to keep this secret, for his safety and for the safety of others.

But he isn't alone in needing to hide his secret. At least at first he thought he wasn't alone.

Ladybug and him got miraculouses at the same time. Had the same rules, both started out totally flabbergasted and new to their new professions and the immense power they held.

They complimented eachother like a puzzle.

He felt seen. He felt noticed.

He felt loved.

He fell in love.

After a while of being heroes he started flirting. She rejected him but playfully. He somewhat liked it. Their closeness.

He felt as if he could finally be himself, and that everyone appreciated it.

But eventually everything started spiralling, making him question it he should even be a hero.

He feels rejected, alone, and that no one trusts him enough to tell him anything.

And he doesn't understand what he did to deserve this treatment.

He has always been kind, always tried to help others. That's how he became a hero in the first place, he helped Master Fu.

But now all these secrets...

Ladybug started to undermine his intelligence in such a way even he started to feel dependent on her.

He needed her more than she needed him. She at least said so, and he believed it. Eventually, no matter if that saying was true before, now it was.

The fact only she could visit Master Fu. The fact only she could know who held the miraculouses when they were given out.

The fact that no one thought he'd be capable of doing that. It hurt. It hurt a lot.

But the thing that broke him was when Ladybug gave him (as Adrian) a miraculous, she, to his face, said she doesn't need him. She didn't know it was him, but she made it clear that in her eyes he wasn't needed.

It was more or less true by now. She was powerful, she was the only one who could de-evilise the akumas. She could give out the other Miraculouses to get help.

He wasn't needed.

She didn't need him.

No one needed him by this point.

He held one of the most powerful miraculouses yet he felt that in his hands it was reduced to waste.

If Ladybug could do it all without him, was the miraculous even useful? Was he useful?

Apparently not.

These thoughts circled Adrian, not letting him rest. He cried, of course he did. He felt alone, no one trusted him enough to tell him these things and Ladybug didn't need him.

Plagg was just silently eating Camembert. He tried to comfort Adrian but ultimately didn't know how to help.

He decided to tell Adrian all he knew himself. Adrian felt alone as no one trusted to tell him anything.

He decided to tell him Ladybugs identity, and her opinion on him as Adrian. He also said that he somewhat found out that Ladybug has told someone her identity. Her best friend, not him, her partner in crime since start, the one who shared with her a secret, but someone who was just her ordinary friend from the start.

This information broke him. He was grateful to Plagg for telling him this. He felt like he could somewhat rely on Plagg. Plagg was indeed silly but no stupid, and he was also the reason Adrian was able to be a hero in the first place.

But anyways. Just because he felt grateful doesn't mean he didn't feel even more hurt than before.

He told Ladybug that he was always there for her. Yet she never came. She told her identity to a stranger to the hero world. Not her partner.

She didn't tell him she was Marinette. He needed to find that out from his Kwami, he only found this out so he knew what would never be told to him by a fellow human.

He also found out she has a crush on him. Not a Chat noir, but as Adrian Agreste.

This didn't make him feel good, especially after finding out her stalker-like behaviour.

He fell in love with the strong, confident woman, he fell in love with Ladybug as he felt he could be himself around her.

But instead, her normal self fell in love with his public image. His side that was shown to all in public. His kind, somewhat withdrawn side.

Not what he felt was his true self.

This made his stomach churn.

He long ago started to fall out of love with Ladybug. She made him feel more alone than he ever was when he was locked away from the world outside his mansion.

And now he knows she may not love his free self, but his trapped one.

He didn't want this.

His crush loved him. A lot. A real lot. So much so that she knows his entire schedule off by heart to the point he is surprised she doesn't know his identity yet. So much so that she broke into his house on numerous occasions.

He couldn't go on like this.

He needed to change things. But he didn't know how.

Tapping his foot on the floor he clenched his eyes and rubbed his temples in frustration.

He needed to vent this put. He needed closure. Someone to help.

Plagg is only useful to some extent. He is his secret, he isn't human, he cant help in human matters.

So who's the best person to turn to?

. . .

He finally figured out the person. But...

Will he truly be able to tell him all this?

Will he understand?

Will it be okay to reveal his identity to another person?

It must be. He honestly doesn't care anymore, whether it is or not, he needed help.

He picked up his phone and texted Nino he needed to talk.

Nino was his best friend. He could trust him.

Right?

Nino isn't stupid, he should know the dangers off Shadowmoth knowing Adrian's identity.

And they are the closest off bros.

He needed help, and Nino was the best option.

He just hoped Nino will be there for him. He tried to feel optimistic about it.

Hopefully his Optimism doesn't become cruel slap to the face.

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I know this is a weird fanfic. This idea just came to mind and I really liked it so I thought.

Write that down write that down >:0

I would quickly write mors chapters but it's 4am and I need to sleep.

I'll write down the rest of my ideas on notepad quickly so I can update it.

Hopefully you'll enjoy this TvT

This is simply a quick idea I came up with and I hope you'll help me stay motivated to finish it.

I'll try to finish the drarry fanfic at the same time.

Anyways for now I think they'll be mo ships in this book.

Yes I know, no adrianette?
But its cannon :(

Well I apologise but I don't ship it, I think its too toxic.

But I respect your ship if you do ship it.

If they end up having a more Marichat dynamic then maybe, but if its like LadyNoir or Adrianette then sorry but I can't write that with a clear mind qvp.

So yeah.

Hope you enjoy :D