Simon was furious when he entered the study, "How can he say that I don't know him? we have grown up together, he was raised right in front of me and then also?"

Yibo was with him, tried to make him calm down, "Calm down duke Simon."

"How can I calm down prince, My brother is slipping right in front of my eyes and there is nothing I can do, and what makes me furious is that he is not telling me why he is doing all this..just why

If tels me the reason I will definitely understand him I will definitely support him and not doubt him then why is it because he doesn't trust me?"

Yibo spoke, "I am sure it's not like that duke Simon, there must be a reason..."

"I know prince I know, I know that there is a reason why he is doing this I know there is a reason why he is not telling me everything but I want to know it. My brother is not evil, then what is making him?"

"I will talk to him, duke. I will try to make him talk."

Simin shook his head, "I don't think he will talk to anyone."

"We can still try."

Meanwhile, Zhan was equally furious as Simon, his brother don't know anything about him, Nothing.

Zhan felt suffocating he wanted to scream and just tell his brother everything about his past life. but he won't 

In the midst of his frustration, he picked up whatever came to his hand, and threw it on the floor

He then heard a knock on his already open door it was Yibo, "what is it prince? are you here to tell me right and wrong as well? Are you going to say that I am wrong as well?"

"Yes, you are wrong, Sean," Yibo spoke. 

"Pardon?" Zhan said he couldn't;t believe what he heard.

"Yes Sean you are wrong here, I understand hiding things from an outsider like me but hiding things from Simon, who has been with you the longest is wrong. You can't expect him to support you when you are so brutal without knowing anything.

Sean, I care about you both and you can't go on like this, that's all I have to say, you are just pushing your brother away."

With that Yibo was going to leave but Zhan grabbed his wrist, "You are not an outsider Prince, You are someone very important to me, and I care a lot about you as well. And I don't want you to think like that about yourself."

Zhan then slowly let go of his hand, Yibo smiled faintly, "You say these things and yet you cannot answer my simple questions."

Zhan also smiled bitterly, "I am sorry prince, but you might never get the answers to those questions."

Yibo didn't say anything, it was;t fair that Zhan knew everything about him while he didn't and Yibo felt hurt when Zhan hid things from him he then quietly left while Zhan sat down on his bed dejectedly.

I am sorry, I am so sorry but I plan to take all these secrets to my grave burdening you two with those horrible memories is not something I can do

Zhan felt suffocated he felt sad and lost, suddenly he got up from his bed handmade his mind go to the temple.

To goddess, only she can help him.

When Zhan reached the temple he went straight to the goddess's temple, once he reached there, he saw Silas as usual sitting in front of her.

Zhan quietly moved forward and sat beside Silas, Silas seemed to be in a deep trance, he was meditating.

Zhan decided not to disturb him and closed his eyes as well before falling into a trance as well.

When Zhan opened his eyes once again he felt relaxed, and this time Silas wasn't beside him.

"A conflicted mind?" Silas asked from behind.

Zhan nodded, "There is nothing really hidden from you."

Silas sat beside Zhan, "Do you still wish to walk this path?"

Zhan didn't answer immediately he thought about Silas's question, if Zhan wanted he could have lived a very good and easy life this time but he didn't choose that.

He didn't come back here to have a good family life, to forget to forgive not he didn't come back to life for that.

The only reason he is here is because of revenge and the reason he still has his past life memories is to remind him and not let him waver.

"Yes...even if I lose everything as long as this kingdom is destroyed I'll do it."

Silas nodded, "As long as you have the determination, I believe that you will succeed, but I hope that you will not lose yourself."

Zhan didn't reply to that he just quietly went back home after that.

Who is Zhan? what is his real self?

In his past life, he was Naive and looked for good on everything, even if people treated him horrible he still forgave them, and yearned to be accepted is that his true self?

Or In this life when he is cruel, calculating, and evil, is this his real self?

Or if the tragedy of his last life never happened and he got to grow with a happy family what kind of person would he have become? someone like his brother?

Zhan was so deep in thought that he didn't know when he reached his home and all the way to his room, he laid on his bed and stared at the ceiling, Silas is too late to worry about Zhan,

Because he has lost himself a long time ago.

Author's note: Hello everyone, so I had a huge fight with my bro because he wouldn't give me the laptop to write that's why the delay in updates writing in the tab is tough that's why I avoid it.

Secondly, I would like to say that readers I respect all your opinions and I love reading them, and many of you want Zhan to be a good guy...guys that can't happen, he is a villain and he is too destroyed to be good if he suddenly turns good then his purpose for rebirth will go waste. 

We all should not accept any goodness from a villain.