Thats a really good song. Heh. Sorry to bother the only two people who read this. Well kinda read this. Heh. So I'm gonna just get my bullshit out on paper. Well a like 1080p device that one day will replace pen and paper. Cause pen and paper are only good for like...nothing. Heh. But like why at least for me do all mental breakdowns happen at night? Like why not during the day? Come on brain. Do better. Well i guess it's doing okay seeing as my brain is the one sending the signal to my thumbs to type all this bull shit so people can read it. Though i don't think people really do. That maybe dumb and self centered to say that. Heh guess I'm good at being a narcissist. I mean we all are. I think. Cause you always think about what YOU want first. Or make someone else's problems about you. And i feel like I've done this. And I'm truly sorry for that. I don't mean to. And you know how everyone says they don't want the spotlight on them. But they really do? Like for me i want the spotlight on my art and singing. But it isn't really. And hell typing that out makes me feel like a self centered asshole. Cause well I'm human and all humans are. No matter how introverted we're self centered. And no one can fix that. We all just wanna be in someone's eyes and or someones spotlight. That person's eyes on you. But you wont get that. No one gets what they want. Even when they do. They really don't. Cause people care about themselfs more. And the whole "you can't love something else before you love yourself" it's right but kinda dumb. So by that its saying i didn't love my mom or dad until i loved myself a tiny bit. Damn world. And to people who say they hate themselves but claim to love there boyfriend/girlfriend/significant other. That's just a lie or they love themself a tiny bit.

Sorry if I'm being mean. Or something.

If anyone cares um... I changed my discord name from dean#1755 to Vanessa bunny#1755 so guess I'm going with this vibe for a while. Sorry though. I don't mean to be bad human. But thanks for reading my rant if you even did.