I imagined your face
When I'd wish you the best
I planned it all out
I didn't even notice
All the little scenes in my head
They created themselves

I wanted to say it quietly
You don't like the attention
I brought something you liked
Although I knew you forgot to invite me

I thought I better don't mention it
She'll remember when she sees me
I'm not even sure I want to go
I thought about how to escape a party
One that I wasn't even invited to

I made the mistake to count on you
One I'll never make again
I couldn't name the emotions I felt
Anger, frustration, exhaustion, sadness
I didn't want it to end that way

And the bitter realization
You'll never even know
You'll think everything is fine
And I'll pretend and smile
You don't know me enough
You won't notice its falseness
You'll never change how you're acting
But I hope someone tells you some day

Why does this hurt so much?
I ended our friendship
And I didn't even see you
Technically, you cancelt it

[23.11.23]