Seokjin  

I was in my final year when Tae joined the same college as mine.Abbeo-nim wanted me to share my rented apartment with him.Of course I agreed. I knew Tae would ignore me and it'd definitely hurt me but how could I say no to Abbeo-nim? He was paying the rent of that apartment after all.And besides that,I just can't say no to Amma and Abbeo-nim.They are more than my guardians to me.My whole world revolves around them.

The first two months passed just the way I expected. Tae used to ignore me as much as he could. I didn't bother him either.I was so oblivious of his feelings about me.I just knew that he doesn't like me.But I didn't know the reasons. I didn't know how much he HATED me.

However,I got to know about that really soon.

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One day I found Tae at an empty corridor of our college while he was being bullied by a group of boys.

I ran up to them.I glared at the boys and grabbed Tae's hand.He was silently looking at the ground;jaws clenched.One of the boys shouted "Go cry on your mother's lap faggot!" while I was dragging Tae out of their reach.

To say that I was shocked was an understatement.My mind was a complete mess.I needed to talk to Tae.But,Tae pulled his hand back from my grip.

"Taehyungah,please...let's go home.We need to talk first.",I said softly.

"I don't want to talk to anybody",Tae said without looking at me.

And he walked away.I wanted to stop him.But I didn't.I couldn't. Because I knew no matter how much I try to understand Tae,he wouldn't let me to do so.He always wanted to maintain this distance between us!

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That day when Tae finally entered the apartment, I was waiting for him with his dinner. He didn't even look at me and was about to go to his bedroom when I called for him,-

"Taehyungah...Your dinner..."

"I don't want it",he continued to walk up to his bedroom-door.

"But Taehyungah...",I trailed.

"I said I don't want it.",Taehyung answered curtly.

"At least tell me what's the problem so that I can help you!",I almost pleaded.

I don't know why I was so desperate to know about his problems. I just couldn't see him so frustrated anymore.I just... wanted to see him happy,just the way he used to be when he was a baby.

"YOU CAN'T HELP ME HYUNG! YOU KNOW WHY?! BECAUSE YOU ARE MY PROBLEM HYUNG! YOU.ARE.MY.PROBLEM.YOU WERE ALWAYS EOMMA AND APPA'S IDEAL SON HYUNG! THEY LOVE YOU MORE THAN ME,THEY SPEND THEIR TIME WITH YOU MORE THAN ME.HELL,I HAD TO SPEND HALF OF MY CHILDHOOD WITHOUT THEM.THEY FEEL PROUD OF YOU AND GUESS WHAT? NOW THEY'D BE ASHAMED OF ME.THEY'D HATE ME LIKE EVERYONE ELSE BECAUSE I PREFER GUYS OVER GIRLS.CONGRATS HYUNG!CONGRATULATIONS..."

I looked at him with wide eyes while he yelled at me.All I could think was-

'I'm the reason of his frustration. I'm the reason why he is not happy.He....he hates me...'

I was so shocked.I couldn't understand what I should do.But as if my hands had their own mind,they reached out for him.Tae backed away.

"T-taehyungah please! Amma and Abeonim love you a l-lot. Please don't hurt y-yourself like this.", I stuttered.

Tears threatened to come out of my eyes. My heart hurt.

"I don't want your consolation okay? I don't need your pity!", Tae said as his voice wavered.

I could sense that he was breaking down.

"N-no Taehyungah! I've seen them. I've seen them to miss you e-each & every moment when you weren't at home. I've seen Amma crying for you e-every night Taehyungah!" P-please don't-", I couldn't continue anymore as my hands reached out for him once again.

I gently pulled his arms with my hands and the next thing I knew was he collapsed into my arms.

"Leave me alone...", he said even though his actions said otherwise as he clutched the sides of my shirt.

I wrapped my arms around his shoulders. He tightened his grip on my shirt as if his life depended on it.

And finally, I felt his tears on my shirt. He was crying.Kim Taehyung showed his most vulnerable side to the person whom he hated the most.

Soft sobs filled the room while I drew small circles on Tae's back.I pulled away and looked at him when he finally calmed down.

"Hate me as much as you want.It doesn't matter to me.But for God's sake,don't misunderstand your parents Taehyungah.They love you more than anybody else.So don't you dare to doubt on their love.Okay?",I smiled at him.

He sniffled and nodded.

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Days went by just like that.Tae used to talk to me whenever he felt insecure about something.I assured him everytime that no matter what happens,his parents will always be there for him.Sometimes he would just hug me when he felt a little down. I tried to comfort him and it actually helped.But one thing remained the same.And that was Tae's hatred for me.I didn't mind it though.

'Or maybe I did...'

At least, he felt secured and happy because of me.That was all I could do for him.

Little did I know that I had a lot more to offer to Tae.

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It was a lazy Sunday.I was sitting on the couch and reading one of my favorite fictions.

*Click*

My eyes snapped up from the book and I saw Tae with his camera in his hand.I knitted my eyebrows.

"What was that for?!",I asked.

Tae shrugged and said,-

"I needed some pictures for my project. As you....have a photogenic face;I thought to make u my...my model?"

I chuckled lightly.

"Are you saying this to me or are you asking for my permission?!",I asked with a smirk.

He shrugged again and sat beside me.I sensed that he needed to talk about something.

"Do you want to talk?",I asked in a concerned voice.

He nodded and looked at me for a second.I felt the tension building up in him when he sighed heavily.

"What is it Taehyungah?"

"I...I want to tell Eomma and Appa that...that I'm...I'm gay.",he stuttered.

"And you're afraid about it?",I asked sternly.

"Its easy to say things when you're the perfect son,Hyung! I...I just d-don't want them to hate me,that's all.",his lips quivered.

Its quite funny how a person can confess his insecurities to someone who is the very reason of those insecurities!

"Taehyungah....They're your parents.And I know I've told this to you a hundred times already;but they're gonna be there for you no matter what.Maybe it'd be something really new for them but they'd understand you at the end of the day.But before that...its YOU who have to accept yourself Taehyungah.Don't be ashamed of yourself okay?There's nothing wrong with yo-"

My words were cut off by a pair of soft lips on mine.My eyes fluttered close and I lifted my hand up from my lap,blindly trying to touch his face.

And that's when realization hit me.

'Tae....Tae is kissing me! Why?! Why would he-'

I pushed him.

"Taehyu-",I tried to bring him back into his senses.

"DON'T",he said in a commanding tone.

I stared at him,confused.

"Don't stop me hyung",he warned me once more.

"Please...",he trailed as he claimed my lips once again.

And this time I kissed him back.

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So things became as simple as that. Tae still shares all of his problems and insecurities with me and I try my best to solve them.He hugs me tight or kisses me while crying his heart out.I figured that he needs my touch to calm himself down.Its weird,if you think about it.I mean he still hates me.We never talk about this matter though.Well it doesn't really bother me anyways.

'Or maybe it does...'

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Jin's chain of thoughts broke as his phone went off. He picked up the phone and received the call when his Manager's ID popped up on the screen.

"Hello...",Jin said tiredly.

["Seokjin-ssi,your car is ready. I think you should head back to your home as your schedule has been cleared.Jeon Jungkook-ssi's project was the last one for today."]

Jin sighed in relief.

"Okay then.Well..When is the next shoot going to happen?",he asked while standing up from the couch.

He looked at himself in the mirror one last time before heading to the door.

He stopped in his tracks when his manager answered,-

["Aah! Its tomorrow at 11;Kim Taehyung-ssi's next project..."]

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