Seokjin__

Tae went out of my makeup room and I sighed. I leaned back my head on the couch while pinching the bridge of my nose.

'Why does he do this to me?'

To be honest,I don't know.I don't even want to know.All I know is that he needs it.He needs my touch whenever he feels depressed or insecure.At least, that's what his actions make me believe.

But he still hates me.And he says it out loud.I pretend to be fine with it.

'But I'm not.'

I understand him though.I understand why he hates me.He had to share everything that was meant to be only his with me.He had to share his parents with me.

Amma and Abbeo-nim(Taehyung's parents) are my angels.I owe my whole life to them.They were the only persons who stood beside me when I had NOBODY in this world.

Amma,Abbeo-nim and my Appa were best of friends since their highschool days.The trio started a start-up business together after their graduation.And they succeeded!My parents got married and soon did Tae's.Everything was perfect.

Until I came into their life.My Eomma died while giving birth to me.This broke Appa into pieces.He lost the love of his life and on top of that he had a newborn baby whom he had no idea how to take care of.

Amma couldn't stand the broken state of her best friend and assured him that she'll raise me and always consider me as her own child.

And she kept her promise.Even after the birth of Tae!He was so fond of me when he was a baby.Maybe he considered me as his brother back then.It didn't last long though.

Tae grew up and of course he got to know that I wasn't his OWN brother;that he has to share his mother with me even though I don't really have a right over her.

Things got worse when Appa left us too.I....became an orphan at the age of 13.That's when Abbeo-nim took my responsibility.I became a permanent member of their family.

Amma and Abbeo-nim used to be busy with their official works most of the time.But whenever they got a break,they used to spend it with us.Most specifically with ME.Now I understand that maybe they didn't want me to feel left out or unwelcome.That's why they used to give me a lot of attention.

But all of this left a wrong effect on Tae.He started to feel unwanted;left out.He started to envy me.He started to....hate me.

I can't blame him though.How can I?! He was just a 10years old kid who needed affection from his parents. But I snatched everything from him.

He became more distant to his parents and began to throw tantrums over each and every little thing.It was becoming very hard to control him. Amma became so worried about him and tried her best to calm him down but Tae had made up his mind.

When things got worse,he was sent to live with his grandmother whom Tae was very fond of.Amma thought only Tae's grandma can solve this problem.She really had a great effect on Tae after all.She lived in Geochang,a small town beside Daegu.

I can still see the cold face of Taehyung in front of my eyes when he was sent to Geochang.Though this was her decision only and she didn't have any other option left,Amma cried a lot while hugging Tae.But Tae didn't express a bit of sadness.He...didn't express ANYTHING.

He used to come back during holidays and everyone agreed that he had become calmer.But everybody seemed to notice it too that he had changed a lot.His enthusiastic nature,constant blabbering,adorable boxy smile,everything had just faded away.

He started to ignore me more.I wanted to talk to him,to spend time with him.I really missed him while he lived in Geochang.He was...my brother after all.But,Tae behaved with me as if I don't exist to him.

However,things changed a lot after some years when me and Tae had to share the same flat in Seoul during our College years.

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Let me know what do u think about this chapter.
Things are going to be more clear in the next chapter.
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