Jin gulped down the lump in his throat while a few teardrops slid down the corner of his eyes.

His left hand wiped away the tears on its own before he let out a shaky breath.

His eyes hurt from lack of sleep and the amount of tears they were spilling every now and then.

He sniffled quietly,licking and biting his lips to suppress any whimper.

He closed his eyes and exhaled once again.His head is aching. He immediately needs a cup of coffee.

Scrubbing his hand over his face,he tried to wipe out the tear tracks as much as he could and turned his head to the right.

There he was.His happiness.His everything.Lost in the world of slumber while wrapped up in his right arm.So near,yet so far away.

But is it really the younger who has gone far away from the other? No. Its him.Jin knows its him who is drifting apart from his Taehyungie.

He doesn't want to.But nothing is happening according to his wish anyways.

Jin leaned forward to press his lips against Taehyung's forehead for once,twice,thrice..... several times.

The younger responded by firming his grip around Jin's waist.

"Tae....",Jin gulped in worry because his own voice sounded so unfamiliarly hoarse to him.

"Taehyungie.....Let me just-",he tried to shift but the other groaned.

"Taehyungie, I need to get up.....Let go...",he whispered,pecking Taehyung's cheek.

Taehyung exhaled sharply and opened his eyes in a way as if it is the heaviest task in the world.

"You want to get up too?",Jin asked softly, brushing the chocolate bangs away from the younger's half lidded eyes.

Taehyung groaned again,clasping his eyelids as his lips pudged out.

Jin pecked them,muttering while unshackling himself.

"No you don't...",he giggled.

"Alright, you sleep some more.... I'll wake you up when breakfast is ready, hm?"

The younger hummed but when Jin tried to scoot away, he clung to him once again,pulling him closer.

"Tae...!",Jin huffed.

"What~?",Taehyung pouted,rubbing his eyes in a sloth motion.

"Let me go,I need some coffee...",the older smoothed his thumb over Taehyung's forehead, lulling him to sleep once again.

As the younger's breathing became even,Jin planted a tiny kiss upon his pouty lips and cautiously got up from the bed.
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Jin took a sip of the coffee, wincing at the bitter taste because he hasn't touched the beverage for a while now.

Because Taehyung doesn't drink it.

Adding some extra sugar in the drink,he set the chopping board to cut vegetables as he had decided to make sandwiches for both of them.

Filling and healthy at the same time.

The extra sugary drink he was consuming at that moment was not exactly healthy though.

He bit his lips.Great! Now he is going to gain weight too.

Anyways, that doesn't matter anymore.

He doesn't matter anymore.

He sipped the warm,dark liquid once again,feeling his taste buds being sweetened.

Yet he winced again, this time because of the bitter feeling in his gut.

He put down the mug and sighed. His eyes were brimming with fresh tears as he went towards the fridge, crouching down to get the veggies.

Grabbing the knife,he clenched his jaw.The headache was getting worse.

He put the knife down and massaged his temples slowly, gasping as he noticed tears dripping down on the counter.

Jin hissed and took the mug of coffee in his hands.He nodded after taking a huge gulp,pretending as if the beverage is working well.

And then a loud thud followed by the sound of heavy glass echoed inside the kitchen and living area as Jin threw the mug on the floor.
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Grumbling, Taehyung picked up the phone from the nightstand and received the call without even sparing a glance at the screen.

"Happy New Year,Eomma....",his deep morning voice slurred.

"Nae,I was sleeping..."

"Uh....",he yawned,stretching his limbs.

".... his phone must be switched off...;yeah its here only..."

"Okay....~",he groaned, wiggling out of the blanket while mumbling in his sleepy voice,his eyes still heavy with slumber.

"......making breakfast, I guess..."

As he opened the door and entered the living room,his eyes went towards the kitchen counter, beside which his hyung was standing with a knife in his hand.

His eyes widened at the realization.

There was a knife in the older's right hand and he could clearly see the crimson fluid dripping from his left forearm on the pristine counter.

"Hyung!",he yelled,terror laced withing his tone.

He watched as the older seemed to be snapped out of a daze and instantly lowered his head after their eyes met.

"I-I'll call you later,Eomma...",Taehyung breathed out before stomping towards the kitchen.

"Watch out!"

He stopped midway as Jin yelled out worriedly.

"Th-there are broken glasses over there..."
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Jin stared at the younger's face searchingly but couldn't find any emotion on it as Taehyung cleaned his wound with antiseptic lotion.

He squinted his eyes,the muscles of his arm tensed a little because there was a slight,pinching pain in his wound.

But what hurt him the most was Taehyung's emotionless, wordless behavior towards him.

"Tae.....",he muttered but the younger seemed to not notice it as he was busy fishing inside the first aid box for a bandaid.

"Taehyungie....",he called out once again.

Taehyung's jaw tightened. He grabbed Jin's hand and placed the bandaid on his wound.

Jin exhaled a hot,tensed breath.

"Tae at least talk to me~",he demanded,his voice heavy.

-"WHAT SHOULD WE TALK ABOUT ?!"

The older flinched.

Cupping the older's head between his hands,he asked in a low,pained voice,-

"What exactly are we supposed to talk about,hyung? Can you tell me everything?"

"WILL YOU EVER TELL ME ANYTHING?",tears pricked at the corner of the younger's eyes.

"You're hurting yourself infront of my eyes,hyung! You-"

"Will you ever trust me? EVER?!"

Jin gulped hard as tears streamed down Taehyung's cheeks.

He tightened his lips and reached out for the younger's cheeks to wipe the tears away but Taehyung stopped him.

"Cry if you want to,hyung...."

Jin stiffened at that.

"You don't need to be strong every damn time,for God's sake!",the younger pleaded.

"Please let it out. Please let me know,hyung. Let me be there for you,please !",he entangled his arms around the older and rested his chin upon Jin's head.

"Please angel...... Please.... Please..."

And finally, the older crumpled inside his embrace.

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I'm sorry for everything.....

Please forgive me 😭

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