I SAID I NEEDED SPACE~ CHAPTER 8:

~~Anna Rose ~~

INTRO:

I pick up the rest of the mess and am just about to relax on the couch when the doorbell rings

"I wonder who is here," I say and open the door, on the other side is Anna Rose

"What are you doing here Annabelle," I say immediately

"Hello Gray baby," she says and she moves to kiss me, which I pull away "who is this little one"

"Lola," I say back and her faces twists

"Yuck, who named her that, was it Avery?" she says

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ALL RIGHT my babies you are spending the day with daddy," I say looking behind me in the car where all 3 girls are strapped in

"Yay daddy," Ava says

"Well at least you are excited" I reply

"I am too daddy, and so is Lolly"

"How do you know Sissy is excited?" I ask

"I just do" she replies giggling

I make the quick 10-minute journey home. When we pull up to the Peter residence I pull into the driveway. I quickly open the front door and unload the boot of the car, I give Ava and Saskia their bags to take into the house. I then take Lola out of her car seat and carry her in the car with the remaining 2 bags.

When I walk inside I see that the girls have dumped their bags on the floor in the entryway and they are sitting at the drawing table, scribbling on pieces of paper. I let them draw for a moment whilst I place Lola in her high chair with a few toys so I can go through the bags. I see she packed clothes for them in their bags as well a snack bag and I snort

"Mummy doesn't think I can look after you guys," I say to her and she giggles kicking her feet

I throw the bag full of snacks in the corner of the bench and chuckle at my full cupboard full of the food the girls like, baby food and formula.

Whilst everyone is preoccupied I then begin to make lunch which is just sandwiches for the girls, and some apple slices, with water. This doesn't take long, and luckily it doesn't because as I am plating up their food for lunch I can hear the 2 girls fighting.

"Ava, Saskia, stop fighting and share," I say, placing the small sandwich pieces, some apple slices and a sippy cup of water, on her highchair tray

"But daddy I wanted the red" I hear Saskia whine

"But I was using it" Ava retorts

"How about we have lunch?" I say and they perk up and smile running into the kitchen.

I lift each girl and strap them into their chairs before they dig in eating and I sit down next to them pulling the highchair closer to me so I can watch the baby eat closely, and I begin to eat my sandwich too

"All better now" I reply and they grin up at me, a mouth full of sandwich

Did I ever think that at 19 I would find happiness when my little girls smile at me with a mouth full of food, well no, but seeing them smile makes me the happiest and justifies the reason I get up and work every day

Well almost I mean... I am still missing one piece of my heart, but I have fucked that up big time and I do not know how I can fix it.

It's only been 3 weeks, but it feels like it's been an eternity.

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"You ready," I say to the girls before switching on the movie for this afternoon. It's the grinch, the animated movie of course, but hopefully, they will all nap after it.

"Yes daddy"

"It's Max daddy"

"That's right," I say and I cuddle Lola into me, she is rubbing her eyes, which means she is starting to get sleepy, so she might fall asleep during the movie

My plan is to watch the movie, get the girls sleepy, put them down for a nap, clean the mess that these human tornados have created, and begin preparation for dinner which is pasta. It is a simple easy recipe that I haven't messed up yet. S

o when they wake up we can go to the park and have a little play, and they can get some fresh air, it is also partly so they can get rid of all of their energy. I still have 0 clue what to do with them, and Avery is so good with them,

Then we can come back and play at home, whilst I cook dinner, we can eat then have a bath, read a book and go to sleep. Once they are asleep I will have nothing to do, so I guess I will just wash up from dinner and look for a new tv show to watch!

The movie moves quickly and as I suspected both of my toddlers are dozing off so I move them upstairs to their bedrooms and I tuck them in before Lola who fell asleep for an hour is now awake, I strap her to myself with the baby carrier, which she loves and I find the easiest to carry her in so I won't hurt her.

"Are you going to help me, clean baby?" I say to her and I begin to pick up all of the dishes and place them in the sink.

"Dadada" she replies

"Yes dada, can you say clean?"

"Cweee," she says squealing, and I tidy the drawing table, which is just essentially picking up the pencils and textas, putting lids on textas, and placing the sheets of paper in the draw.

I then noticed a small mark on the wall which wasn't there before, which I assume was an accident so I wiped it off. Best parent hack Avery discovered washable markers, they come off skin, clothes and surfaces!

I miss her so much, and I don't know what to do to make it better, I love her so much but I screwed it up again

I pick up the rest of the mess and am just about to relax on the couch when the doorbell rings

"I wonder who is here," I say and open the door, on the other side is Anna Rose

"What are you doing here Annabelle," I say immediately

"Hello Gray baby," she says and she moves to kiss me, which I pull away "who is this little one"

"Lola," I say back and her faces twists

"Yuck, who named her that, was it Avery?" she says

"No, I did," I say back, she came named, but she doesn't have to know that "What are you doing here Annabelle"

"It's Anna Gray, and I came to see if you wanted to come to dinner with me" she replies

"I can't" I reply

"Why?" she whines

"Because I have to look after my kids"

"Ugh, why can't you send them back to dodo bird?"

"Because it is my night, and don't call her that"

"I will call her what I want, just leave them alone"

"I am not leaving my 3 young children home alone"

"You have done it before"

"No, I have not," I say to her

"Come on Grayson, pretty please," she says whining, pouting

"No," I say back and Lola looks up at me "No no no no, that's right baby"

"Look Grayson, if it is about Avery, she doesn't want you, and I want you," she says and my chest feels a pang,

She doesn't want you, she doesn't want you

"Stop Anna"

"Grayson, I love you, It's been a month since she left, she doesn't love you, it's me!" she says and moves to kiss me again

"STOP," I say back "No you don't"

"I do I love you so much, and I will do anything to have you"

"You need to go"

"No Gray baby, please" she pleads

"Stay out of my life," I say and I slam the door in my face, and I look at Lola

"She is crazy, right baby, crazy"

"Cwazy" she repeats

"Yes Lola, crazy" I reply and kiss her forehead

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WARNING:

this story will contain:

---- Swearing (which may cause offense)

---- Sexual content (as in references ya nasties)

----Moments that you will either laugh or scream

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